Time flies, and the first semester of the sophomore year of high school is over quickly. It's summer vacation, Gu Xinyuan has to go home, she has been with Wu Feifei for half a year, and she has long found that her mother is completely different from what she imagined.

Wu Feifei is a person with a particularly strong desire to control, but whenever there is no place where she does what she says, she immediately begins to break her thoughts, nagging endlessly, and her daughter and son can't show a little impatience, otherwise she will turn on the crying mode; At the same time, she is also a person who pursues perfection, and every time she discovers a new defect in her child, she is disgusted, and she is very reluctant to throw her daughter and son out of the house immediately, and once they have a little difference from her opinion, she yells like crazy, and then lies in bed depressed, and does not even get up to eat for several days. The most she says every day is, "Do you know how much I've suffered for you all these years?" "Do you want me to die?" "I think you just don't want me to have a good time!" "You're just deliberately mad at me!" "Sooner or later, I will die at the hands of the two of you, is it only when I die that you are satisfied?" "I knew you were so angry, I might as well not give birth to you, I should have killed you in the stomach......" Anyway, all kinds of ugly and hurtful words are greeted.

It's already four o'clock in the afternoon, the weather is still very hot, there is no air conditioning at home, only a fan, but there is only one fan at home, but fortunately, the father who occupied the fan went out to visit the door, and Gu Pan was not at home, so Gu Xinyuan sat in front of the fan relaxedly, enjoying the cool breeze alone.

Wu Feifei, who was about to go to steam steamed buns, saw Gu Xinyuan sitting in her room fanning the fan, and wanted her to take the initiative to come over to help him, so he said "um", and then stared at her with a frown for a while, but who knew that the other party just looked back and continued to fan the fan.

"Whew-" Wu Feifei slowly took a deep breath, gritted his teeth and was about to have a seizure, at this moment a shout came from outside the door, glared at his daughter's back, and hurriedly walked towards the gate.

Standing outside was Zhou Juxiang, the daughter-in-law of Gu Dadao, a neighbor who had also just come back from work, she saw Wu Feifei coming out, raised a few seventy percent new clothes in her hand, and said: "The clothes that my brother and sister brought back are quite new, my son can't wear them, can you see if your son can wear them?" ”

Wu Feifei took the clothes handed over by Zhou Juxiang, he was very moved, and he felt more and more aggrieved, and couldn't help sighing.

"What's wrong? Feeling bad? Zhou Juxiang asked with concern.

This sentence can be regarded as opening Wu Feifei's chatterbox, she muttered all the bad things at home, and she was especially distressed and resentful when she talked about her children.

Zhou Juxiang also complained: "Today's children are really difficult to manage, they run to his grandmother's house at every turn, hey! ”

Wu Feifei nodded and sighed, "Who let us not raise them!" ”

"Then I'm not idle, I'm tired and tired outside all day, who is that for, isn't it for this group of little white-eyed wolves?" Zhou Juxiang sighed deeply, and said in confusion: "Why don't you say they understand us?" Do these children have no heart? ”

"Hey! If grandparents don't teach us well, they only talk bad about us, how can we be good? Wu Feifei is also not very satisfied with her mother-in-law, because she feels that her children are young and one is a girl, and her mother-in-law and father-in-law do not spend as much time and money on their own children as they do on the eldest brother and sister-in-law's two sons, so in comparison, it is obvious that she has suffered a loss. Compared with the other daughters-in-law in the village, she considered herself to be filial piety, and even the farmland that belonged to her and her husband was planted by her parents-in-law for free, and she never collected rent from her parents-in-law, and she never thought about the crops in the field—even if she was worried about it, she never asked for it in person, and the money from the sale was even more allowed to be spent as they wanted. The harvest of those two plots of land over the years cannot be said to be particularly large, but it is enough for the two children to eat, drink and wear on weekdays, plus they will pay tuition to the family every year, so it can be said that the children are basically spending her money when they grow up so big, and the parents-in-law are just watching the children and not spending much. Anyway, no matter how she calculates, she feels that she doesn't need to be particularly grateful to her parents-in-law, and she still needs to take care of them when they are old.

Zhou Juxiang pursed her lips and said with disgust: "That's right, those two old things, when they were young, they were afraid that I would rob their son, and now they are afraid that I would rob their grandson, hum!" ”

"The girl in my family doesn't know anything, like a fool, she doesn't know how to care about people at all. People also say that my daughter is an intimate little padded jacket, I feel that my daughter is a piece of iron! ”

"Hey, every family has a scripture that is difficult to read!"

Just as the two were chatting hotly, an old man in his sixties came to them, his forehead was covered with beads of sweat like beans, and he held a porcelain bowl in his trembling hand, and interjected: "Can you give me a bowl of water to drink?" ”

Zhou Juxiang covered her mouth in disgust, and just as she wanted to say something, she heard Wu Feifei say to the old man in a soft voice: "Wait a minute, I'll go get you water." ”

After a while, Wu Feifei came out with a scoop of water, immediately handed the water to the old man, and asked with concern, "Uncle, where are you going?" ”

"I—" The old man said only two words, and began to drink the water with a clatter.

Gu Xinyuan, who came out after Wu Feifei, was holding a hard steamed bun with cracked skin in his hand (because there were no steamed buns at home and his mother hadn't made a new one), and when he saw an old man standing opposite, he stuck out his tongue in embarrassment, and was embarrassed to hand over the steamed bun.

After drinking the water, the old man hesitated for a few seconds, and then slowly said: "My wallet was stolen, and I came here from the bus station after getting off the bus. Hey, I don't have money to ride now, then, can you lend me some money-"

As soon as he heard the word money, Zhou Juxiang, who was standing aside to watch the excitement, suddenly raised her voice and said to herself: "Oh, I remembered, I have to make steamed buns, how can I forget this stubble?" I'm so forgetful! Twisting his face to look at Wu Feifei, he made a color, and said, "That, Feifei, I'll go back first!" Hurry up and get busy! With that, he walked away quickly.

The old man saw that the woman next to him fled as if he was frightened, and immediately licked his lips with a red face, and said, "I don't want much, just six yuan, I'll take the bus back, and I can get to our town after a few turns, do you think it's convenient?" ”

When Wu Feifei heard the old man say money, he was already very unhappy, and when he saw the look that Zhou Juxiang gave him when he left, he suddenly became disgusted with the old man in front of him, and casually sifted out a dollar from his pocket, and said: "Look, I just have this dollar, and there is no more, or you go to other homes to have a look?" ”

"Mom, I have!" Gu Xinyuan, who was on the side, immediately took out a ten-yuan ticket from his pocket, handed it over, and said with a smile: "Grandpa, give it to you, take it all!" ”

The old man's eyes blurred with tears in an instant, he walked all the way, and he could get food and drink, but as soon as money was mentioned, those who were willing to help him would immediately cast questioning glances, and then quickly leave, he needed a total of fifteen yuan, but now it was only five yuan. He looked at the kind girl in front of him and said excitedly: "Thank you, little girl, a kind person like you will definitely be rich and prosperous in the future, meet a wishful husband, and be happy for a lifetime!" ”

Hearing the old man's words of praise, Gu Xinyuan only felt happy in his heart, and hurriedly said: "Don't thank me, you can hurry up and take the bus, otherwise there will be no bus after six o'clock!" ”

After the old man arrived at the asphalt intersection at the entrance of the village, he also beckoned to Gu Xinyuan. After Gu Xinyuan saw the old man leave, he breathed a sigh of relief happily.

Wu Feifei looked at his daughter who was still smirking with disgust, and sarcastically said in a weird way: "You can really use my money to do good deeds!" When you hear others praise you, you float away? Why do you want to get married so much? For people like you who can't even do housework well, you can't have a good time at your in-laws' house! Do you really think that if he says a few good words, you will really be able to marry some rich and noble family? Dream on you! Just a brainless fool like you—" She glanced at Gu Xinyuan with cold eyes, and entered the house with a cold snort.

Wu Feifei's words shattered Gu Xinyuan's good mood all of a sudden, she pursed her lips very aggrievedly, and whispered: "But, my grandmother said that you should be kind-"

"Kindness? How much is kindness worth? Wu Feifei glared at Gu Xinyuan with an angry face, and said angrily: "In this society now, money is the most important thing!" I think your grandmother just taught you to be a fool! Get out of the way, annoying! When she returned to the room and stood hesitantly for a while, she suddenly regretted it again, and couldn't help blaming herself for being too serious, and she couldn't help but feel a lot of regret and guilt in her heart.

Wu Feifei is a proud woman, but she is married to Gu Daniu, who is not considerate or romantic at all, and she has also fiercely resisted trying to change her husband's seemingly numb heart. She really doesn't want to succumb to fate, let alone live like the clouds, so she always works hard without admitting defeat, but she has never won the respect and love from her husband's heart. Just keep it as if it keeps pace with the times on the surface.,But in fact, she still maintains the naïve thoughts of her teens.,So although she's a wife.,Mother.,The innocent girl in the depths of her heart is still naïve.,The heart is incompatible with the world.,Can't find the value of your own existence.,Even if she complains about everyone.,Still can't calm the restless heart.。

After returning to her hometown from where she worked, she realized that she didn't have much affection for the children she hadn't spent time raising them, but the fact that she didn't have feelings for the children made her extremely panicked, and the more she panicked, the more she felt bad, so everything became a vicious circle. By chance, she found that after reprimanding her daughter, she always naturally had the idea of making amends when she saw her sad look, and since then her not very smart brain has begun to use this guilt and indebtedness to allow her and her daughter to get along normally, at least in the eyes of others...... But that's enough...

Gu Xinyuan's face was pale and he was okay at the door, lowered his head and pulled out an ugly smile, and comforted himself with himself: "Anyway, I don't have any feelings for her, I don't feel sad at all, and I don't feel hurt!" It's just that the corners of the reddish eyes overflowed uncontrollably with tears, and where no one could see it, the white and tender palms unconsciously pinched out several deep nail marks.

Standing dry for a while, she sighed helplessly, and said weakly: "What should I do, and what can I do?" I really don't know how to spend this summer vacation? As she spoke, she sneered self-deprecatingly, "How can you live, just like that!" Anyway, just pretend nothing happened and bear with it......"