It was dark and dark at night, and some people were partying all night, speeding on the lane, feeling the excitement and heartbeat. Others, on the other hand, sit alone in the ashram, enduring the loneliness and loneliness that have accumulated over time.

Cheng Yi leaned against the wall, bent his legs, sitting on the floor of the room, the light was dim, the bruises on his body were faintly painful, he seemed to be used to it, just stayed there quietly, looking at a book at his feet.

The book had been turned very old, and he stared silently at the picture on the book, which was a group of children sitting at their desks in class.

Cheng Yi licked his dry and skinny lips, he hadn't eaten for almost a day, let alone drunk water.

He stood up a little weakly, his tall and thin figure shrouded in a light-colored sweater, and he stepped barefoot on the carpet, his ankles white with light cyan veins.

Slender fingertips caressed the glass of the window, which was surrounded by an iron guardrail.

Under the long curly eyelashes are glass-like eyes, with an unworldly pure, clear to the bottom.

He moved forward slightly, pressed his face against the glass, and quietly looked at the world between the guardrails, his eyes were surprisingly bright, and he didn't let go of the slightest flash in front of him.

"Ding~", the familiar rattle outside the door sounded, Cheng Yi quickly retracted his action just now, like a frightened cat, and stood there straight, bowing his head slightly, and his hands unconsciously clenched the hem of his clothes.

The bell on the housekeeper's dress became clearer, and when the door was opened, the room was dimly lit.

Cheng Yi stayed in the dark for a long time, and was very uncomfortable by the sudden light, and it took a long time to get used to it, and then he gradually saw the person clearly.

After the housekeeper opened the door, she left, the tall man stood at the door with the light on his back, Cheng Yi glanced at it, a trace of joy flashed in his eyes, he relaxed his body that was standing a little painful, and called to the man softly: "Uncle Xie." ”

As soon as Xie Xinglu entered the door, he saw a young man standing by the wall, with a posture like a bamboo, looking straight at him with eyes full of trust and closeness, which made people see the simplicity of the bottom at a glance, and they were never the same world in their bones.

Suppressing the obscurity of his eyes, Xie Xinglu walked into the room, and only when he got close to the young man did he see the traces of bruising. It's obviously a half-grown boy, but it's not reasonable to be raised docilely, and he doesn't know how to resist at all.

Xie Xingxu made a gesture to signal Cheng Yi to sit down, and after the young man sat down, he took out a pot of water from the bag next to him and motioned for Cheng Yi to drink. Cheng Yi took the water and drank it, and his dry lips regained their moisturization.

Xie Xinglu continued to take out a few boxes of plasters from the bag next to him, and the corners of the boxes were a little uneven. This is the mark that he made when he was holding the medicine, and when Xie Su found out, she yelled at him and threw the bag on the ground in a frenzy.

Xie Xingxu calmly opened the medicine and smeared it on Cheng Yi's bruises, there were faint traces of old ground under those new wounds, which were caused by the continuous superposition of new and old injuries over the years.

Cheng Yi didn't seem to notice it, quietly lowered his head, and watched Xie Xingxu help him apply the wound medicine as always.

seemed to be aware of the unclear mood of the man in front of him, Cheng Yi thought that the person in front of him was in a bad mood because of his injury, his eyes moved slightly, and he whispered to Xie Xingxu: "Uncle Xie, I don't hurt." ”

Xie Xingxu's movements paused.

Cheng Yi didn't see his trembling hands, he just said to himself: "Actually, there is nothing wrong with this, because I know that as long as I am injured, Uncle Xie will come to give me medicine, so that I can see you." ”

Xie Xinglu, who was putting down the medicine on his head, heard the young man's whisper, suddenly stood up, began to pack his things, and prepared to walk out of the room.

Cheng Yi looked at the man's sudden movements with some puzzlement, and hurriedly said: "Uncle Xie, you forgot, you haven't asked me the reason yet, the reason why my mother is angry this time ......"

The tone became lower and lower, a little anxious, with a bit of stubbornness.

Xie Xing's back paused slightly, he stopped at the door, and turned to look at Cheng Yi. The figure of the boy coincided with that silent child many years ago, like a bird in a cage, docile and cowardly.

Xie Xingxu sighed silently after all, like the plot that has been repeated countless times in the past many years, he looked at Cheng Yi, raised his hand slightly and made a gesture: Why?

He was speechless, and this was the most action he made in his communication with the teenager.

Over the years, the boy has answered many reasons,

"I my mother off."

"I sneaked out."

"That paper wasn't a perfect score."

“……”

Those unknown fairy tales, young people's thoughts, can only be confided in him.

Cheng Yi lowered his head and looked at his toes, his thoughts were a little distant, and he hesitated and didn't dare to speak, but he still mustered up the courage to say it: "Because, because I told my mother, I also want to go to school." ”

At this point, Cheng Yi couldn't help it after all, he looked directly at Xie Xingxu, and asked again, the question he had been asking for many years: "Uncle Xie, why am I different from others?" ”

He seems to have a lot of confusion and confusion: "I have seen many books with the word "friend", and I have turned up a lot of paraphrase notes, but I really don't understand what it means. ”

"The book says that school is a place where many children gather to learn, and almost everyone goes there, even the teachers who come to my house every day to teach me."

"But why, I can't go."

Cheng Yi's somewhat red eyes looked at Xie Xingxu like that, too much confusion made him choke a little, "I don't have any friends, I only have Uncle Xie, only my mother, only the housekeeper, only Ah Hua, Xiaolan ......"

He called out the names of the people, even the servants who had never been noticed in the slightest. This is probably the most people he's ever seen, the only one he's ever seen.

All in this house.

Cheng Yi looked at Xie Xingxu and asked cautiously, "Uncle Xie, do you think my mother will agree to let me go to school?" ”

Xie Xingxu did not respond.

He thought of Xie Su throwing those medicines on the ground, and after he silently picked them up one by one, Xie Su was exhausted: "Why! Why are you doing this? ”

"Do you think you're going to make a difference by doing this?" As if she had a moment of calmness, she swiped her somewhat gaudy nails on his face, and said to him with a complicated expression: "I can't go back, Ah Lu, you and I are the same, we can't go back." ”

Xie Xingxu couldn't speak, he just looked at Xie Su who was faintly frenzied in silence, reached out and pinned her somewhat messy hair behind her ears, his eyes were gentle, as in the past.

Those eyes made Xie Su dare not look directly, she lowered her head, leaned on his shoulder, and was silent for a while.

Xie Xingxu came back to his senses, he looked at Cheng Yi's eyes, smiled slightly, and touched Cheng Yi's head with his hand: She will agree.

As if he understood what he meant, the young man's eyes widened with joy for a moment, and his pale eyes were dazzling with a bright light.

Xie Xinglu turned around and walked out of the room with a smile, the door closed, and he seemed to be able to hear the excited exclamation of the young man in the door.

He leaned against the door, the smile on his face slowly retracted, and he returned to his former indifference and calm, and his eyes seemed to have thousands of fogs, which made it difficult to see.

He thought about Xie Su's questioning, did he change back to the past? No, he is more decisive than anyone else, and he never looks back at the roads he has traveled and the things he has done, even if they are wrong.

Maybe it's human nature, or maybe it's too many sins, and there will always be times when it's unrealistic to think about alleviating some, just reduce it for Xie Su.

As for yourself, it doesn't matter.

He glanced at the medicine in his hand and walked away slowly, just as he had come.