Chapter 832: Doomed Loneliness
Leaving the branch station, Shi Tiexin walked alone in the bustling business district of Shachun City.
Here he did find the north.
But that sense of loss still lingers.
In fact, just the moment he said the sentence "I'll think about it", Shi Tiexin already sensed that something was wrong. He knew that he shouldn't say that, and he knew that he should just agree and sign the gambling agreement.
But he didn't change his tune.
As soon as he walked out of the office door, he couldn't help but start smiling bitterly.
He was disappointed in himself, disappointed that he had lost faith in himself.
And this disappointment only exacerbates this lack of confidence.
Walking aimlessly on the street, Shi couldn't help sighing: "My luck is really not very good." ”
If he had been in Tokyo at the beginning, when he was fearless and unconfused, he could have a good environment, a good preparation, and be able to start breaking with forty primordial bottles, he would definitely be able to ring nine rings in one go.
After all, since he was a child, although he has been difficult, he has never despaired. And the recent days are getting better and better, everything is up, the future is promising, and it is the time to be determined and high-spirited.
However, when Yoyo turned into ashes and floated to the sea, he despaired.
He really, forever, lost the person he cherished.
There is no way to do it back, and there is no chance to do it all over again.
Whether it's the horizon system or the otherworldly line, no plug-in can change this reality: if you're dead, you're dead.
He thought that more than two months of rest in the main world line could make him forget about these.
But he was wrong.
He suddenly found that a joke on the Internet was true:
The girl fell out of love, it was very painful at first, but after a month, it was fine, and after another month, she even wanted to laugh happily.
The boy fell out of love, there was no fart in the previous month, and he even wanted to laugh happily, and finally no one delayed himself playing games. After a month, it began to smell bad, then it became more and more stuffy, and the more sad it became, and then it fell into a long period of pain.
I don't know if what the girl said is right or not, but he is indeed in the stage where the more he covers it up and the more he deliberately wants to let it go, the more he can't let it go.
Besides, he was not dumped, he was not green, he was not quarreled because of unbearable discord, he was disgusted by endless quarrels, and finally broke up with all sweetness.
After sharing the experience of sharing joys and sorrows, in the tribulation of life and death, and in the lies of truth and falsehood, he finally overcame everything and came together with Youyo to understand, appreciate, admire, and trust each other. It is the time when the love is the strongest and the love is the truest, and the time when the sea is dry and the love is unswerving.
And at this time, the fragrance of the jade is lost.
She was gone, and became his eternal remembrance, his eternal arc of light, and the scars that would never heal.
Until now, although Heizun of that world line looks quite normal in daily life, Shi Tiexin knows very well that he has always been in a semi-crazy state.
Crazy anger, crazy hatred, crazy pain, let Heizun's sharp energy improve every moment. Even if there is no fundamental exercise, Hei Zun is still instinctively and slowly, increasing the total amount of sharp energy.
This may be the most primitive and primitive enhancement method of Sharp Qi.
Once there is a true Sharp Qi Fundamental Technique, Hei Zun's Sharp Qi cultivation will advance by leaps and bounds.
But on the other hand, if it weren't for the deity and the champion stone to share the pain of Heizun and dilute Heizun's madness, Heizun would definitely go to self-destruction.
Flying into the void and killing the void spirits is not just talking. Shi Tiexin knew very well that Heizun had already made up his mind to die, ten, twenty, or one hundred years, as long as he was alive, he would not give up.
Heizun's hatred naturally affected Shi Tiexin.
On the other hand, although Zhuangyuan Shi's life was stable and rich, it could not bring comfort to Shi Tiexin.
In fact, Shi Tiexin didn't dare to go to the world line of the Champion Stone at all now, he didn't know how he should face Ling Xingjian at all.
This mood is too complicated.
Even more lost than mere loss. And this sense of loss affects him more strongly than the pain of loss.
He couldn't figure it out, he couldn't understand it, but the more he saw Ling Xingjian, the loneliness in his heart became stronger.
If he was just a simple Heizun, and then simply traveled to Fengming No. 1 Middle School, and simply saw the new Ling Xingjian, he would thank God for his gift with incomparable ecstasy, and thank fate for finally reuniting them in the warm sunshine, giving him a chance to redeem everything and spend his life together.
But it's not that simple.
Heizun is still Heizun, still wandering on the edge of madness.
It's not a rehash, it's a parallel possibility.
Ling Xing saw that he was still alive, and he was living quite well.
But so what?
Yoyo is dead.
Ling Xingjian and Yoyo...... Is it a person or not?
If not, I will lose my lover forever.
But if it is a person, why does the heavens only let me remember everything alone, as if I was banished from cause and effect?
At this moment, Shi Tiexin deeply felt that he was really lonely.
He woke up suddenly, and then keenly realized that he was destined to be lonely.
Because Heizun's loss will not be the end, as long as he continues to experience and move forward, some helpless things will continue to happen.
Even if as his cultivation deepens and his strength grows, he can avoid tragedy, but the rest may not be drama.
Because every world line will connect with people, and there will be beautiful, happy, surprised, sad, and sad things.
The person who spends all this with him should be the person he cherishes the most.
But it's a pity that the person you cherish in every world line can't know how many times you've said the same or different things to her, how many times you've said the same or different things, and how many similar or dissimilar things you've experienced.
She couldn't possibly know what she laughed for, what she cried, why she was tired, why she was in a trance.
She could not have walked the way he walked, and suffered what he had suffered.
His lover is destined to be unable to comprehend him completely.
So he was destined to be alone.
This is the only one in the whole world, in the entire solar system, and extremely lonely.
So lonely that he couldn't even find someone who could understand him.
And this is the root source of his strong sense of loss.
And this sense of loss, combined with the pain that cannot be relieved, is the fundamental culprit that causes him to be unable to break through the sharp nine rings.
The more sensible and sober he became, the more he knew that he could barely get rid of this sense of disorientation, because the very nature of the trans-worldline would keep him lost.
"Could it be that I am destined to be unable to break through the sharp nine times in this life?"
Shi Tiexin was a little unwilling, but he didn't know what to do. He walked and walked, and kept walking on the streets of Sand Castle. He didn't know how long he had walked, how far he had walked, where he had gone.
There are more and fewer people around, less and more, and the sun is fierce and thin.
He just walked.
Until, he heard a voice.
"Sister Mengmeng, I'll go first, please leave the closure of the store!"