At the beginning of the new semester, I was busy, and in a blink of an eye, it had been three weeks since the start of school, and it was already more than 20 March when I looked at the calendar, and suddenly realized that my birthday was approaching.

March 25th is my birthday, but I don't know if I should call it my 20th birthday or 30 years old. It's nothing if it's any other age, but 20 years old and 30 years old should be two special points in a girl's life.

According to my current memory, this birthday should be considered 30 years old, after all, I still continue to think about the previous plane. Why did I become thirty years old all of a sudden, the ancients said that I stood at thirty, and my thirty years old didn't have the opportunity for me to go back to that time and space to experience and participate, as if God felt that I was not enough to bear the word "Li", and temporarily put me in this time and space to grow up slowly.

And my 20th birthday, I once spent it in another time and space, and it was the first of the only two birthdays Xu Zhekai ever had for me, which was really unforgettable.

I still remember that March, when we were so busy with classes and volunteer training every day, I almost forgot about my birthday.

It was Tuesday, Xu Zhekai didn't have classes in the afternoon, and I had a one-day class, according to our usual practice, he should have accompanied me to class in the afternoon, but when he ate at noon, he told me that there was something in the department in the afternoon, and it was estimated that he would be busy for a long time, so he would not accompany me to class and have dinner together in the evening.

Anyway, he has always been a busy person, and such things often occur, so after taking a nap, I went to class with Liu Jia and them.

During the afternoon class, my mother sent a text message, "Baby, happy birthday, Mom and Dad can't be by your side to celebrate your birthday, let's go out to dinner with good friends in the evening to celebrate!" ”

That's when I remembered that it was my birthday. It turned out that when we weren't in love, who in our dormitory caught up with our birthday at school, they were all sisters in the dormitory AA system, bought cakes, and went out to rub them. That's how I lived my freshman year. Lately, everyone has been so busy that I don't have time to pay attention to the birthdays that I have forgotten, let alone others. Since everyone has forgotten, I will not mention it again, so as not to embarrass everyone.

Finally, the day's classes were over, Xu Zhekai seemed to be pinching the phone call after class, he said, after the department was busy, he went back to his grandparents' house to get some things, and found that there was a new hot pot restaurant nearby, so it was better for me to take a taxi to meet him and eat hot pot together.

I've never mentioned to Xu Zhekai when my birthday is, so I don't plan to mention it today, otherwise he wouldn't have prepared a gift or anything, how embarrassing.

I packed my schoolbag, walked out of the teaching building with Liu Jia and them, and after breaking up, I walked outside the school gate alone, took a taxi, and arrived downstairs at Xu Zhekai's grandfather's house in less than ten minutes.

A winter vacation has passed, and there is still some familiar warmth to return to the hometown. At the end of March, the weather is gradually getting warmer, and it is dinner time, and the aroma of food wafts in the community, which is different from the smell of the canteen, but belongs to the familiar aroma of home.

I called Xu Zhekai downstairs in the unit and asked him to come down. He said that there was still a little stuff to finish, and asked me to go up and wait, just to rest for a while. I didn't doubt him, so I ran upstairs with a "kick."

When I came to my grandfather's house, I found that the door was hidden, and I gently pushed the door open, but the light was dark. I was a little strange and a little apprehensive, I shouted, "Xu Zhekai!" ”

In an instant, the lights came on!

I was stunned by what I saw. The original antique living room was full of pink balloons at this time, and the words "Happy Birthday" were pasted on the wall on the side of the calligraphy. Xu Zhekai stood in the middle of the room, holding a bouquet of flowers in his hand, and looked at me with a smile.

"Happy birthday, baby!"

Xu Zhekai walked up to me with a flower, I came back to my senses, quickly took the flower, and asked in surprise:

"How do you know I'm on my birthday today? I didn't tell you, did I? ”

"You forgot that the first time I called you, I told you that I had seen your registration form, and in addition to the phone number, there was also a date of birth." Xu Zhekai said proudly, as if he had mastered my information, it was like he had some great intelligence.

"You've been remembering it since then?" I was even more surprised.

"The moment I met you, I wanted to know everything about you. It's not hard to remember a few numbers. Xu Zhekai said with a smile.

"Wow! You're so handsome! I love it! I put the flower aside and threw myself into his arms.

After hugging me for a long time, Xu Zhekai led me to the dining table, where there were several dishes: cola chicken wings, garlic vermicelli shrimp, sesame soy sauce and wheat cabbage...... There is also a cake in the middle. Looking at the pattern of the cake, I couldn't help but laugh,

There was a princess-like girl next to a tree with the words: I am your tree.

It's a shame that he came up with it.

Xu Zhekai said that these dishes were all made by himself, and the time was limited, so he could only eat a little, and I said that I was happy to do anything.

Then I cut the cake and made a wish, and I still remember the wish I made at that time, and I hope that I will continue to grow old like this.

However, this wish was shattered after two years, and this is not the worst birthday wish.

It was late when we finished packing the balloons in the house that day, so we didn't even plan to go back to bed. We called the people in the dormitory separately, Xiaoru was very excited to grab the phone and ask me who I was with, I just said "no comment" and hung up.

Nothing happened that day, and I was very conservative in some ways, refusing to let some things happen before marriage. Xu Zhekai didn't mention those things either. But there is still no shortage of intimacy.

The two of us lay on the double bed in his room, and I rested my head on his chest and listened to the powerful and slightly rapid beating of his heart. I don't know how long it took, in the darkness, his lips moved from my forehead to my cheeks and finally to mine. I could clearly feel his breathing heavily.

I was so nervous that I could only wrap my arms around his back, his hand caressing my cheek, moving it tentatively down, and finally, the palm of his hand covered my chest. I didn't refuse, but my heart was beating so hard that my cheeks were hot.

Xu Zhekai was obviously also nervous, and his stroke was cautious, as if he was afraid of breaking me.

The intimacy of that night, that's all, didn't go any further, but it was enough to make people blush and heartbeat. Just hug each other and sleep.

It was the first time we had intimate contact, and it was also the first time we spent the night together to welcome the next day's sun.

When I woke up the next day, he had already gotten up, and when I finished washing and walked out of the room, he had already cooked two bowls of noodles, and there was a fried poached egg on them, and he said that he forgot to cook longevity noodles for me last night, and today was the second day of my birth, and he lived a day safely, and wished me every year and today. I was made to laugh and cry by his gentle and funny words.

When eating, it is inevitable to recall the scene of the intimate hug last night, I don't feel that my face is hot again, sitting opposite him seems to see through my thoughts, not bad and kind to say, "Girl's feelings are always spring!" ”

I grabbed a tissue from the table and threw it at him, and he smiled as he hid, "It feels good!" The size is just right! ”

I was stunned for a moment, and immediately understood what he meant, my face turned red again, and my ears were feverish, I stood up and put the dishes and chopsticks on the table, about to beat him, and he bounced off his seat while laughing, avoiding my pursuit, until both of them were out of breath with laughter, and both of them collapsed on the sofa.

This memory of ten years ago, a different time and space, now that I think back on it, it still makes me blush and my heart beats. Because apart from Xu Zhekai, I have never had such intimate contact with any boys, and it is really incredible to say it. If you follow the normal development of time and space, I am already thirty years old, from the birthday I spent with Xu Zhekai at the age of 20 to now, how many birthdays have I experienced, but only that one is the most unforgettable.

After separating from Xu Zhekai, for so many years, there are no excellent boys around me, and there are no good boys who pursue me persistently, I also try to eat, shop, and chat with them, sometimes I think, just find a good one in all aspects and develop it, but every time there is about to be further development, every time a boy wants to hold my hand and kiss me, I instinctively dodge, and finally make everyone very embarrassed.

I don't know if there's something wrong with me, I also communicated with Xiaoru about this problem, Xiaoru said that it was because I couldn't let go of Xu Zhekai in my heart, and I didn't admit the fact that we were separated from the bottom of my heart, so getting in close contact with others felt like a betrayal.

Maybe she's right, but how can I get rid of my demons, I'm 30 years old, I'm 30 years old in another time and space, do I have to carry the memory of Xu Zhekai until I'm forty years old, or even longer?

In this plane, my twenty years old is going to start all over again, and I can't predict what will happen on my birthday this year. I was even a little afraid of the arrival of that day, and even told myself that I could deliberately ignore it, because the memory of the past is too beautiful, it always reminds me that the beauty has stayed in the past time and space, even if I come again now, it is just nothing, unreal, why should I increase my expectations for Xu Zhekai in this time and space, the more I expect, the more I can't give up, if one day, I return to the previous time and space, how should I face the ruthless him in reality and the affectionate him in memory, This is not only torture for himself, but also unfair to him. He just talked to me and had a two-year relationship, but he had to be remembered by me for so long in time and space, and who did he provoke.

I sat at the desk, picked up the desk calendar on the table, and directly tore off the one in March, if only everything in the world could be so simple, an eraser, a tear, can make everything disappear, will life become simpler, will the obsession and pain become less? Maybe!