The main city of Rongbian Mansion, the Klein City Lord's Mansion, a small building in Kefu, Li Qi has been standing on the small building for a long time.

At this time, it was already getting dark, but Li Qi looked up at the sky, unaware of the change of day and night.

It's just that when the last afterglow of the west came, the sky was already blue and the moon was in the sky, and the heavens and stars were thousands of miles, he blinked slightly, as if there were some fluctuations, but they were only fluctuations.

"I see the sun and the moon changing, as if it's the same as usual. ”

Li Qi was silent, and suddenly said something strange to himself.

And after Li Qi said this, he didn't know why.

It's just that...... I suddenly wanted to say it.

Continuing to look at the sky, Li Qi fell into silence again, entering into a unique contemplation that only had his own.

And this kind of contemplation is not thinking about the future or all kinds of crucial things in the space of consciousness, because Li Qi is not thinking, he is just contemplation, in simple contemplation, thinking about some things in the past.

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If you hadn't experienced the crossing, what would it be?

Li Qi pondered.

Maybe he, like everyone else at that time, would have graduated from the technical school with everyone who didn't enter the stream, and then entered the factory, dedicating all his youth to the extremely boring assembly line.

"Why did I have such confidence at that time?" Li Qi now thinks about himself at the beginning, but he really doesn't look like words.

I'm overconfident about it.

But that kind of self-confidence is okay, after the crossing, those are no longer his things, there is no missing.

Li Qi didn't know whether to rejoice or sigh.

"No matter what world it is, people who don't have the ability have to put in more effort to change their fate. ”

If you don't cross over, if you continue the journey, you will eventually encounter obstacles, but you will not know what to do, because there is no one to help you, and you will be confused in the end.

"If I hadn't come to this world, with the country laid down by those traversers, who could let me have something to rely on, what ability would I have to gain a foothold in this world. ”

In the past, I actually knew that although I had faith, that confidence was enough to fail, because at that time, I had gradually lost confidence in success, and I had to doubt myself at the beginning.

Really, really, if it weren't for the crossing, I wouldn't know how to solve it, because it was as if I had put in more effort, what I had gotten, what I could see, but I couldn't see the end.

Thinking about this, Li Qi suddenly realized that he didn't know when, and tears were falling again.

"Are these tears.........

Li Qi touched the tears that fell on his face, and then looked at his hand, a trace was already on his hand, and looking at the tears, Li Qi laughed lightly, as if he had noticed something strange, and said: "Haha, tears, I haven't shed tears for a long time." ”

As he spoke, Li Qi's tears flowed down like a dam had opened the floodgates.

In the uncontrollable tears, Li Qi looked up at the sky, in his half-squinted eyes, tears were confused, what he saw was no longer the sea of stars in this world now, he had returned to the past, when he was a child, he slept on the chair outside, the child who looked at the stars and counted the stars curiously.

The wordless sadness, finally, was in a moment, filled with all that Li Qi had, and the throbbing from his soul made his grief even more extreme.

Where does Li Qi's sadness come from, in the end, it still comes from the world that can't be returned, the past that can't be returned.

"In fact, no matter what the future holds, what the future can be when the future is confused, what I want most is still the same as when I was a child, that childhood, when I was ignorant as a teenager, and that pure and unclean past. ”

"What I want is very simple, I just want more effort and dedication from myself, so that I can let that past, that kind of world become my life again, instead of growing up, the sadder I become, the more sad I become, the more confused I become. ”

Only Li Qi himself knows his desires, he never desires money, does not desire higher enjoyment, does not desire the worship of others, what he really pursues is always that sky, that sky with only brilliant stars, only bright moonlight, very simple, not mixed with anything.

"I just wanted so much, but now I'm discovering that so many are already the most precious things. ”

And such a precious thing cannot be exchanged for more effort, perseverance, and more.

I am really incompetent, too incompetent, without that capital, but I want to pursue such things that do not belong to me, in the end, I will only find that no matter which step I take, in the end, it will be wrong.

Turn your fate around and change your life.

Am I just going to be a mediocre person who does nothing?

I believe that no matter when I arrived, I would still persevere, persevere, and be able to give up everything for that sky, but I was further away from that sky, and in the end I was left with my own loneliness.

"Hehe, it's really incompetent!" Li Qi suddenly laughed, his smile was a little broken, and the sharp pain of grief confused him.

"The incompetent, but to pursue what only the capable can reach, the final result is destined to be sad. ”

"I gave up so much that I gave up on myself, but then I realized that I shouldn't have to live my life in mediocrity. ”

"But when I woke up at that time, everything was no longer the past, there were no more opportunities to achieve, and the only remaining chance to reverse fate in the future had become a cruel road pursued by millions of people, and this cruel road, what power did I have to change. ”

"No, I don't have the ability, I don't have the ability, I can't change it, I can't reverse my fate. ”

"I have reached the point where I am doomed to fail, but I have to work harder for such a doomed failure, because after this doomed failure, there is still the hope that only I dare to fantasize about. ”

"Only I dare to fantasize about it, and I don't even dare to say it, haha, I'm really incompetent!"

A person, hoping for only the remaining illusions, is really humble, so humble that what others don't care about is what he dreams of.

How sad!

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(End of chapter)