"I majored in automation as an undergraduate, and she was one of the two girls in my class at the time. Because of the 'limited resources', many boys have to 'digest them internally' when they first enter the school in their freshman year. I saw so many competitors, so at first, I didn't have any extravagant expectations for her. ”

Yiling saw that when Xu Jin talked about "her", he had an obvious smile on the corner of his mouth, so sweet.

He must ...... Love her very much. Yiling thought to herself.

"The turning point of events happened one night. That Saturday, I went to the library for self-study and ran into her there. She was looking for a book, and I happened to borrow it, and she asked me if I had read it. I saw that she wanted to read it, so I proposed to read it together. In this way, we communicated more.

The progress bar of feelings, if one party is intentional, and the other party is not disgusted, it is easy to become warm when it comes and goes. Slowly, I discovered a lot of good things about her, she was smart, frank, but sometimes, clumsy and cute. For example, professionally, she actually worked very, very hard, but she just couldn't learn me.

At this time, she is very annoyed, and I will tease her and joke with her. ”

The smile on Xu Jin's lips deepened, and Yiling's sinking heart ...... Did it sink to the stomach? Why, is it a bit of acid reflux?

Yiling was silent, always, looking at him.

"I once asked her, why did you choose automation? Why do you know that you can't learn boys, but you still have to work so hard, as if you're competing with yourself? Why not change majors and change to another one that will make it easier for her to learn?

She said that people have always been prejudiced against female engineers, and they think that women will only get more and more messy when they engage in technology. This area is mostly men's world, and women don't have much right to speak. However, it is clear that women are also in the wave of automation. Men invented cars, don't women drive them? Men have invented mobile phones, and women are playing with them.

The world's first programmer, or a woman, was the daughter of the famous poet Byron, Countess Augusta Ada King LeFrès. She said that she wanted to be a woman like the countess, because women in the field of machinery have always been in line with the design thinking of men, and she also wants to provide inspiration for women.

In short, she is such a girl, ambitious, daring to think and do. ”

When Xu Jin said this, he lay down, squinting his eyes, looking at the clouds in the sky, unpredictable.

He suddenly added: "She is like this cloud in the sky." ”

Yiling raised his head, the clear blue sky, beautiful and distant. It was an unattainable height......

She asked, "Then why did you break up later?" ”

Xu Jin replied: "Because she is going to study abroad." ”

"Study Abroad...... Can't you fall in love? Now that communication technology has also developed, WeChat can allow you to enhance your relationship at any time. Could it be ...... After she goes abroad, she doesn't plan to come back? ”

Xu Jinchang let out a breath: "Actually, I figured it out later, and I realized that if she can't come back, our ending will not change." Because, for a girl like her, I can't tie her up at all. Love has never been her only pursuit. ”

Yiling withdrew her gaze from him, lowered her head, and lowered her head.

But I heard Xu Jin say again: "But loving her was the only pursuit I had at that time......"

Xu Jin closed his eyes, his eyelashes trembling slightly. His voice also trembled a little: "After she left, my whole world was darkened. She took away all the light in my life. And then for a while, I lived like the walking dead. For me, the day she told me I was going to study abroad was my end. From then on, I couldn't feel anything in the outside world. ”

Xu Jin opened his eyes, turned his head, he looked at Yiling, and asked, "The end you are looking forward to is also like this, can't you feel anything you want?" ”

Yiling was stunned and speechless.

Expect. He said she was looking forward to ......

"You know what? The end of the world is not fun at all. It's not the same as the darkness that you can't ask for, you want to dig a pit, and bury yourself. When you bury yourself, you will leave yourself a hole to breathe. However, when the end comes, that feeling is suffocation, and it is the despair that you don't want to struggle even if you are dying.

During that time, I sat in the classroom where we took classes together, and I walked down the road we walked together, and I had countless thoughts of wanting to die. At that moment, I felt that death became a very beautiful thing, because it could help me to relieve my pain......"

Xu Jin took a deep breath, straightened up, and propped his hands on the grass: "If you have really experienced such a mental collapse, Yiling, you probably can understand my feelings, right?" In fact, it is no different from the death of the body. So calculated, in this life, encountering the 'apocalypse' is a high probability event, so think about it, do you feel more calm when you face 2012? ”

Yiling pursed her lips and didn't answer the question directly, only asked gently, "That...... How did you get out of the shadow of broken love? ”

Xu Jin raised his eyebrows: "If you think of her, you still feel heartache, then maybe, I haven't come out at all, right?" I don't know. In short, after that, I continued to attend classes and graduate school entrance examinations step by step, all the way to today.

I admit that in the process, in order to get rid of her lingering influence, I tried hard to shift my mind to studying. But the truth is, even if I succeed in starting a business in the future and soar to the point where I can buy a building in the center of Jiangshang, I don't think there is anything to be happy about. ”

"Shalalalala......"

The wind made a noise as the leaves by the river blew, and Yiling hugged her knees, and somehow she thought of a line from a very old movie, which said:

"I've heard people say that if the knife is fast enough, when blood spurts out of the wound, it sounds like the wind. The first time I heard it was my own blood. ("East Evil and West Poison")

Maybe it was to cooperate with Xu Jin's first love to come to an end?

Yiling asked, "You...... Lost the ability to love again? ”

Xu Jin said: "Probably not. At least, when I first met you, I would still be amazed by you. I don't know why, I just think that you should be an ambitious girl, which is very similar to her.

The smell of your perfume is the same brand as the one she uses. Also, you help me organize my wardrobe, the kind of one-size-fits-all, serious competition, exactly like her......"

Yiling chuckled lightly and stood up: "It's a pity, the most essential difference. She has a lot of pursuits, and I don't. Got it, starting tomorrow, I don't need perfume. ”

Xu Jin looked at Yiling's back and walked away. Instead, he lay down on his back again. The clouds in the sky are still floating and illusory. As Xu Jin's heart is, he doesn't know what he is doing when he tells Yiling about this today......

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