Chapter 33: Despair
Dao Yan's eyes were stung by Li Xiruo's mocking gaze, he used to be a little confused, and he approached those little girls really to let them sacrifice their yang life. But he doesn't have that kind of mind about Li Xiruo, at least now he has dispelled those thoughts, his sincerity towards Li Xiruo can be expressed every day, but Li Xiruo looks at him like this, how can he not be heartbroken.
Dao Yan lowered his head and was silent for a long time, and said, "Xi Ruo, I admit that my purpose of approaching you at the beginning was impure. But I really don't have the slightest ill intentions towards you now, and I can swear to God. ”
Li Xiruo suddenly smiled when he heard this, paced a few steps in the direction of Dao Yan, and said lightly: "Just like you swore to my master at the beginning?" ”
Dao Yan's heart sank violently, and he looked at Li Xiruo incredulously.
Li Xiruo looked at the ghost-like expression on Dao Yan's face, and the smile on his face became a little bigger: "Master told me at the beginning that he caught a monk who borrowed the life of others, and it was you." At the beginning, you swore to my master that you would never do such a thing again, but how long did he go to his old man's house, and you regained your youth and came to lie to me, why? Are you going to vent the anger of my master on me? ”
When talking about how long his old man had been gone, Li Xiruo's face suddenly turned cold, and the whip in his right hand slammed into Dao Yan's body, and Dao Yan cried out in pain.
Dao Yan endured the severe pain on his body after Li Xiruo took the whip and said, "Xiruo, I know that you won't believe anything I say now." But I've really changed my mind, and I really don't plan to do anything to hurt you. You...... Can you trust me again...... Just once......" At the end, Dao Yan's voice was trembling.
Dao Yan knew that it would be difficult for Li Xiruo to be trusted by his words, and if this matter was changed to himself, he would not believe the other party. Dao Yan doesn't care about his life and death, even if he dies in the hands of Li Xiruo today, he admits it, and he can die at the hands of the person he likes, he also admits it, who made him really think of harming her in the first place? But he didn't want to die unjustly, even if he died, he also hoped that Li Xiruo would know his feelings, and he really didn't want to hurt her.
Li Xiruo looked at Dao Yan's eyes full of anxiety and sincerity, and there was a moment of trance. Because cultivators can hide their faces, she can't see the real Dao Yan's face, so she is not sure whether Dao Yan's words at this time are true or false.
"Tell me about your purpose for approaching me first." Li Xiruo's hand holding the whip was lowered, and his voice softened a little when he spoke.
Seeing that Li Xiruo's attitude had eased a little, Dao Yan was overjoyed, and hurriedly said: "I heard that you have refined an elixir that can live forever, and I want to get close to you, find out where to put the medicine, and steal the medicine." ”
Li Xiruo's eyes suddenly turned cold, and a shallow smile hung on his mouth: "Then why did you give up again?" ”
Dao Yan didn't notice the cold color in Li Xiruo's eyes, and when he saw that Li Xiruo's voice softened a little, his cheeks flushed, and he said shyly: "Because ...... Because I like you...... I don't want you to stop liking me because I stole your medicine. ”
Li Xiruo's eyes added a little coldness when she heard this, she had checked before, and Dao Yan used this way to deceive those little girls who were willing to sacrifice their yang life to him every time. didn't want to get to this step, Dao Yan still wanted to lie to himself.
Li Xiruo was extremely angry in her heart, but the smile on her face was even sweeter: "In your heart, am I more important than immortality?" ”
Dao Yan didn't pay attention to Li Xiruo's thoughts at all, and the first time he confessed in his life, his mind was already in a trance, and he said honestly: "At first, I valued immortality more. But then I thought about it, what's the point of being immortal and disgusting you. ”
Dao Yan's eyes were full of affection, but Li Xiruo said that this evil Taoist priest is a drama spirit, no wonder he can deceive the master and deceive so many girls. His face suddenly turned cold, and he raised the whip in his right hand and whipped it towards Dao Yan.
If Li Xi uses the lock spirit whip handed down by Li Chunfeng, every time he whips, the spiritual power in the body of the person being pumped will be locked into the whip for a point, and the cultivation that Dao Yan has worked hard to cultivate for decades will be completely lost.
The spiritual power in the body was pulled out alive, and the pain was not something that ordinary people could bear, Dao Yan screamed when he was pumped. Li Xiruo's eyes were glowing with coldness, and there was no sign of soft-heartedness.
Li Xiruo said while pumping: "Don't you like to rely on your face to deceive ignorant girls?" Today, I will ruin your face, and then scatter your full cultivation, and see how you will come out to deceive people again in the future. Saying that, he sneered again: "You should be glad that my master wants to keep your life, if it weren't for the sake of my master's wish, I wouldn't have kept your life today." ”
Dao Yan listened to Li Xiruo's words and his heart was like falling into an ice cellar, what he was most painful about now was not that Li Xi wanted to ruin his face, nor that his cultivation would be destroyed, but his true heart, but Li Xiruo didn't believe it at all.
Li Xiruo cultivated Dao Yan alive to the point that there was nothing left, and then put Dao Yan off the black iron chain. Squatted down and fed Dao Yan an elixir that made his face age age quickly, and then smiled coldly: "Although I don't have the ability to make you immortal, I still have the ability to make you age early." ”
Dao Yan collapsed, his whole body was paralyzed and lying on the ground, he raised his head with difficulty, looked at Li Xiruo, and said with red eyes: "What if...... I mean, if ...... I'm true to your heart, will you consider me? ”
Li Xiruo's hand holding the lock spirit whip shook slightly, and a strange feeling rose in his heart, I don't know why, listening to Dao Yan's words, looking at the expectant expression on his face, I always felt that the other party didn't seem to be lying to himself. However, this thought just came out of the bottom of my heart, and it was extinguished by Li Xiruo. A person who dares to deceive his master, calculates himself, and deceives so many young girls Yangshou, how can he have any sincerity towards people?
Li Xiruo turned around coldly and said, "No, except for Master, I don't need other feelings in my life." ”
When Dao Yan heard this, it seemed that all the strength of his body had been drained, and his eyes were full of unprecedented despair. A kind of bone-eroding hatred spreads from the bottom of his heart, if it is said that ruining his face and ruining his body's cultivation is not enough to make Dao derive hatred, then Li Xiruo has no trust in himself in his heart, and there is no need for other feelings in life, which is the last straw that crushes Dao Yan.
Dao Yan has never been a broad-minded person, when Li Chunfeng kindly let him go, he could hate Li Chunfeng for so many years, and he also transferred his hatred to Li Chunfeng's only precious disciple. What's more, it ruined everything he had been doing for decades, and the face he had always been proud of.
and the only genuine affection in his life......
Dao Yan never knew that his feelings were so worthless in Li Xiruo's heart. She doesn't need any other feelings in her life except for Master. All of Daoyan's feelings are nothing more than self-inflicted affection.
Since that incident, Dao Yan has completely changed his temperament, and has become like a mustard for human life, no longer borrowing other people's yang longevity, but directly using evil magic to forcibly take other people's yang longevity. He used evil magic to warm his life, and he also warmed his once ruined face. His hands were bloody, without any emotional warmth, and his only wish was to one day find the Taishi Ling Li Xiruo, who was said to be in seclusion, and avenge the day.
Dao Yan had used the power in his hand to look for Li Xiruo for a long time, and he knew that after Li Xiruo ate the elixir refined by Zhu Yanguo, he was really young forever, but he was not immortal. It took a lot of effort for him to find the place where the reclusive Li Xiruo lived, but unfortunately the place had been destroyed when he went, and Li Xiruo was nowhere to be found.
At that time, Dao Yan was a little confused, and he also doubted that Li Xi had ruined the place where she was refining medicine. But thinking of that possibility, an unknown emotion filled his heart. Even after nearly a thousand years, his feelings for Li Xiruo are still very complicated.
If you want to say that he hates Li Xiruo, that's for sure, that kind of bone-eroding hatred will not change until death. But let him kill Li Xiruo, and he couldn't do it, just like seeing Li Xiruo with his own eyes without knowing the scene of life and death, he actually had a frightened mood, he was afraid, afraid that Li Xiruo was really dead.
But if he still likes Li Xiruo, he can no longer face Li Xiruo as pure as he did at the beginning. At least after hearing the sentence that you don't need other feelings in your life, there is no way to be unestranged. His only thought was to find Li Xiruo and arrest Li Xiruo, how she tortured herself at the beginning, how she tortured her.
So when he heard the name Li Xiruo, he was excited, even if he didn't know if Li Xiruo in Wang Toad's mouth was the same person as Li Xiruo he knew, he was also excited. As soon as he heard that name again, he had an indescribable excitement. It's been a long time since he's heard that name......
Dao Yan smashed a set of tea sets after Wang Toad left, and the anger in his heart calmed down mostly, since he knew that Li Xiruo did not know his life and death, he lost his goal in life, these days, he lived a very depressed and calm life, he thought that he had reached the Taoist state of mind that nothing was going on, but he didn't want to, but Li Xiruo's three words ruined all his mood.
Dao Yan beckoned the silent boy to come over, cleaned up the fragments scattered all over the place, lowered his eyes and meditated, knowing that Zhu Yanguo could also cultivate to the spiritual power to protect the body, and the person named Li Xiruo should be the person he was looking for, otherwise there would not be so many coincidences.
He knew how much Li Xiruo cared about the elixir, and Li Xiruo's lifelong obsession was to refine the elixir, find her master, and be with her master forever. Now it seems that Li Xiruo did not hesitate to give up for this obsession. So, if she ruined all her hopes, she must be desperate, right?
How can you experience this taste alone?