Chapter 7: Contradictory Thoughts
The road is still quite difficult to walk.
There are a lot of beasts out there.
In fact, a certain barbarian regime has also carved out an area.
The Jin people in that area can't resist when facing the beasts, and naturally they can't hunt, and the beasts are more expensive than the Jin people.
The Jin people must obediently be the food of the beasts, and those who dare to resist will die.
Plus in troubled times.
Depopulate.
The land is largely barren.
A lot of factors add up.
This has led to a dramatic increase in the number of beasts.
Ling Xiao is deeply aware of this.
Along the way, the number of beasts was felt.
Fortunately, because of her, there are basically no beast attacks.
I'm afraid that people nowadays are in groups on the road, carrying weapons.
Because now the beasts are ferocious, and from time to time some wolves pop up, and there are even quite a few wild dogs.
Those few people who were kicked out were quite regretful in their hearts at the moment, how could they be so stupid and not take the evil star in their hearts?
Seeing that the original owner drove away those people, Ling Xiao did not intervene, this was the original owner's decision.
The thought of several people joining forces to force unwilling people is small.
She still felt disgusted from the inside, and there was a woman as an accomplice.
In her opinion, this kind of strong woman should die.
There is no spirit of resistance, but it will only oppress the weak.
I don't sympathize with what happened to them at all.
Some people feel that this is a bit excessive.
I want to ask for a favor.
After all, the little one is still alive.
And a few of them are also several lives.
Just scare them and let them know that they are awesome.
The original owner said directly to the people who came out, "If you want to go, go together." ”
The others immediately shut up. Although this person is not very in charge, he is very powerful once he wields power.
Naturally, they didn't dare to go, and now it was freezing and snowy, and they could still hear the howl of wolves.
Fools don't stay in the camp and brave the wind and snow to travel at night.
The person in front of him is not a good talker, and he will go crazy.
Those who stayed behind were cautious one by one.
Those who can survive in the barbarian camp.
The Virgin has fewer attributes.
"You dare to come back and kill without mercy!"
The few people who were kicked out knew it badly at the moment.
Watching the original owner turn around and go back to the camp, the others threw some luggage at them.
"Let's go! You can't stay here. If he sees it, I'm afraid he will really kill you. ”
The few people who had been kicked out had to leave the place, and when they left the camp, the man was very upset, "Humph! It's all a bunch of cowards. ”
It makes the people who hear it a little uncomfortable, what kind of person is this? Seeing that they had all been slaves to the barbarians, they helped them pack their bags.
As a result, he scolded him for being a coward, you have the ability, why didn't you dare to speak out loud just now? I knew that I didn't care if they lived or died.
Although most of them were originally working as farm workers and did not know how to use weapons at all, they still felt very uncomfortable.
Several of them were going to get started, but the guy pulled out the knife he had just struck.
This move really angered everyone, and they felt that the man was a white-eyed wolf.
They gave him the knife to defend himself.
It was actually used against everyone.
Everyone was in an uproar.
Arrows were drawn from the camp.
In the past few days, there have been people who have drunk and dreamed of death.
There are also people who are very sober and want to learn something.
They also know that if they have some skills, they can survive in troubled times.
This time someone saved them, but others can't save them all the time, they have to rely on themselves.
They took advantage of the snow in the past few days to take the opportunity to practice their skills, and the original owner didn't care much about them, but for the sake of the Jin people who were also caught, he pointed out some of their skills.
That's why those people are very grateful, because they don't have the opportunity to learn.
And the original owner saved these people this time because it was a convenient hand, not a noble sentiment.
Naturally, I never thought of any life-saving grace.
In his opinion, there is no saving people to the end.
Then they will be able to try to save themselves.
It's also very good.
Besides, among these people.
How many people really have the grace of saving lives?
After so many things, he didn't dare to look up to human nature.
Didn't even his parents abandon him, the only child?
Although they are excusable, abandonment is abandonment, and he died a miserable death in that life.
However, he still had a wish in his heart, thinking that after a while, he would know about them.
But he also understands that the most he knows about their situation is that he doesn't feel very comfortable in his heart.
He knew that their behavior was in line with the teachings of the noble race, and that they had to know how to make trade-offs when things came.
It's just that he is the one who is abandoned, and he is uncomfortable in his heart, and he can't be at peace when he meets.
He never thought to go to them, what would he say when he found them?
The affection is gone, and it is useless to say anything.
It's between their families.
It's about bridging a chasm.
It's better not to see.
After all, he's an outcast.
What he is better than them is that there is a fairy sister who helps him.
It's just that he knows a little more than them, but he's still very bad in many ways.
For all these years, he has been walking on a rope in the air, and maybe he will fall down one day.
In fact, if this is the case, it is good that they all live in the south, and they will definitely not be implicated.
It's just that after thinking about it, he quickly woke up, and he didn't feel very good for a while.
Does he feel like he's too cheap? Isn't it enough to endure hardships?
At this time, I still think that they should not be implicated.
Thinking about it this way, he was a little self-loathing.
Quickened his pace and entered his tent.
"What's wrong with you?" Ling Xiao soon realized that something was wrong with the original owner.
"Just now, I found out that I still can't let them go." The original owner said.
At this moment, his eyes were red, he took off the mask on his face, and his hands were clenched into fists, because of the exertion.
Ling Xiao said: "This is human nature, you don't have to feel bad at all, how can they also be your parents, it is normal for a good child to think about his biological parents, even if he has suffered a lot of losses." ”
The original owner was shocked by the idea just now, why is this happening? He really shouldn't have seen them again.
At this moment, he covered his face with his hands, and tears flowed down his fingers.
Ling Xiao looked at the original owner, she thought that this child had forgotten the past.
They haven't been mentioned for a long time.
It turned out to be pressed deep in my heart.
Ling Xiao can treat the original parents very rationally.
But the original owner is different, it is the fetters in the depths of his soul.
The original owner cried for a while, raised his head to stop his tears, and wiped his face with his hand.
Somewhat choked up, he asked, "Am I too stupid?" I still have this thought hidden in the deepest part of my heart. ”
"No, for the sake of the continuation of the race, there is usually the deepest concern between children and parents, and your actions prove it."
"Actually, it's not that your parents don't love you." Hearing this, the original owner was a little stunned.
Love him? The original owner pondered for a moment, remembering the old days, when he was still young.
Be enlightened early, find him a good gentleman, and let him learn the six arts of a gentleman.
made him think that he was the treasure of his parents' hearts.
It's just that what I never expected was ......
The original owner's fist clenched again, which was very bad.
His face changed like a palette, making Ling Xiao look sideways.
This little guy won't turn black because the person who was driven away touched something, right?
This is not good, although Ling Xiao also knows that he can't use the moral standards of future generations to demand the original owner, but he must not blacken.
At this moment, the original owner is conflicted in his heart, not wanting them to be implicated by him, but not wanting them to live well, which is completely full of contradictory ideas.
Ling Xiao looked at him and said good things: "Although the two of them gave up on him, they were also forced. ”
"They're more concerned about reputation or something, and you know what it was like."
"You also know that it's basically men who want to die, and women don't end well."
"Plus it happened to be that you were sick at that time."
"I can't walk at all."
"I just want to run away, and I can't run away with you on my back."
"In this case, someone is bound to be sacrificed, and it can only be you."
"Your cousin must not give up, because your father wants fame."
Ling Xiao once again comforted the original owner with his consciousness, "Moreover, there is still me by your side. ”
"Yes, if it weren't for the fairy sister you, I would have turned into a white skeleton." The original owner gradually calmed down.
"My thoughts are very contradictory now, I don't want them to have an accident, I don't want them to have a good life, why should they be okay after abandoning me? Is my mind too dark? ”
The original owner said his deepest thoughts, and he was a little afraid to look at Ling Xiao, for fear of seeing the other party's disgusted expression.
Seeing the original owner like this, Ling Xiao wanted to rub his head, he was only sixteen years old at the moment, and he was still a child.
That's right! If the original owner is in the next life, he will only be a junior high school student in the second secondary school.
Now it seems that the original owner of this world believes in her very much.
And the original owner of the previous world was on guard.
Of course, the reason is that the spirit rhino was bitten by a snake once.
Naturally, there is some unbelief in Ling Xiao.
The original owner of this world is a child.
will cooperate happily, and see that the original owner is very frustrated.
Apparently he still felt that his ideas were not very good.
She chuckled and asked, "So, are you thinking of getting revenge on them?" ”
Ling Xiao looked at the original owner when he asked, and asked this question very seriously, this is a very important question.
"Of course not, they were my parents anyway, and they had been nurturing for years." The original owner said very seriously.
"You're not dark-minded, they're acting for excusable reasons, but they're the ones who are supposed to protect you as parents, and they're giving up on you, and they're doing a terrible job of that."
"If they cut off their feelings alive, then you can choose to forgive them completely, or you can choose to ignore them, and if you can, please help them."
"But no matter what, please don't hurt them, you have to live well, it's a victory."
"Let them go, that is, let yourself go, and you will live better without guilt."
In any case, the parents of the original owner are parents, and it will be uneasy to deal with them.
The original owner nodded again and again, and the whole person suddenly seemed to let go of the heavy burden.
He didn't want to challenge the whole ethics and morality, so he was better off on his own.
After Ling Xiao saw it, he wanted to laugh and cry.
Her mind was still a little rougher.
I didn't find that the original owner still had a lot of things in his heart.
She found that the people of this world may not be very powerful.
But the hidden mind is stronger than the original owner of the previous world, this child!
Just this time there is a chance to break out, and that's good! Some things still have to explode sooner.
Instead of staying in the deepest part of the heart, it has the potential to be lifelong pain for the original owner, or it can ferment and even rot.
Ling Xiao thinks that she is more of an older sister, so this time Sheng Langjun's appearance is likely to be an opportunity for the original owner to get out of harm.
I believe that with Sheng Langjun's care, he should live better, Ling Xiao thought, the original owner slept beautifully, and when he woke up, he felt a little more relaxed.
After a few days, the heavy snow gradually stopped, and the original owner asked the Jin people to sort out what they could take, and then prepare to let them go on their way.
After this period of rest, some of the women in a daze came to their senses and killed themselves directly after knowing what had happened to them.
Because they can't bear the price of being sober, their families and homes no longer exist, and they can only die.
There are also people who feel that as long as they live, they can have more changes and choices when they live.
The original owner has always been a cold bystander and has not interfered in their affairs.
Someone has already started preparing and runs to the place where the food is cooking.
Started making dry food, which was specially taken on the road.
Some people think they can live forever.
As a result, someone was beaten in the head.
This is the barbarian barbracket, and there must be barbarians.
If only they were found to have something to do with the dead barbarians.
Even if they didn't kill the barbarians, it would definitely be a dead end, and they had to escape.
Taking advantage of the cold weather, few people moved, and there were horses to help carry things, and everything that could be taken away had to be taken away.
The original owner did not stop their actions, if someone can take these Jin people and walk out of a way of life, it would be a good thing.
In this way, the rest of the people were integrated in one place, packed a lot of things, and just as they were about to leave, the original owner finally came out.
He looked at those people, who were not too stupid, hiding all the good things, and wearing the most ordinary clothes he was wearing. "You guys are doing it for yourself, have a nice trip."
After waiting for them to go away, the original owner returned to the camp and prepared to leave, he had already collected a lot of good things, this was Ling Xiao's idea, if you want to go to a safe place, you need to have silver.
Going to a new place requires a large amount of silver, and Ling Xiao in the previous life basically didn't bring any property with him, only some weapons and equipment, which was not enough.
After Ling Xiao came through, he had accumulated some things, and took advantage of the space to collect all the valuable things of the original owner.
Anyway, it will soon fall into the hands of the barbarians, so it is better to take it away and return it to the original owner in the future.
In the chaos again and again, too many treasures have been destroyed.
This time, the original owner found a lot of ancient classics.
It's a pity that it was put in a place where the fire was burned.
Those bamboo slips and wooden slips were used as materials for fire.
The original owner found that they were all put aside alone, and of course for things like meat, the original owner did not move.
Before leaving, he set a fire, so that nothing was left, anyway, there were some residual traces that could not be found after letting go of a fire.