What sustains life
For a long time after that, fear and deception became the key reasons why two people were able to love each other all the time. The tightness of life made neither of them seriously think clearly, how long the deception and fear could last. There are no brave people in this world, you and me.
Just hold it tightly until the food on the table is cold. After a stalemate for a long time, Peng Cheng suddenly sat back on the bed, he let go of Beibei, and the person sat on the head of the bed, as if he suddenly understood something, and there was no hope at all. Bei Bei didn't dare to move and stayed in place, she squinted at him, the toss just now seemed to drain all his strength, Peng Cheng was finally relaxed at this moment, completely relaxed, and the whole person was empty.
He was a little depressed, his eyes were dilated and he didn't seem to see this dazed life, everywhere was empty, he was generally unable to lift his spirits, so he only kept quiet, this house, like an ancient city buried deep underground for many years, the vitality of the past, was parked according to his original appearance, but it did not prevent it from having no life to follow.
Peng Cheng, who was suddenly weak and weak, said: "Beibei, let's go!"
Thinking that this was another once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, Bei Bei quickly got out of bed and was about to go out, she had just arrived at the door with a clang, and Peng Cheng behind her smashed the bowl of soup on the table that had not yet been eaten. The girl's flustered footsteps came to an abrupt halt with the crisp sound, she took a deep breath, and then retreated timidly, fear giving rise to her tears.
She couldn't leave, she knew that if she really left, I was afraid that before she got home, Peng Cheng would chase after her.
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Bei Bei rushed to the edge of the bed and sat down, very reluctant to scare her body, crying made her voice with a thick nasal voice, and she was violated and well-behaved, she asked softly: "Husband, what's wrong with you?"
"Daughter-in-law, I want to tell you a story. Peng Cheng raised his head slightly, the moonlight attracted him, he sighed, the constricted, frightened Bei Bei's eyebrows, slackened and almost drooped his eyes. He understood that after the toss just now, it was impossible for Bei Bei to still be in the mood to fall in love with him, she still called him husband, that wasn't love him, hum, she didn't call him husband before, now she is scared, if she can, it's all a lie.
"Daughter-in-law, are you afraid of me? The corners of Peng Cheng's mouth curled slightly, and he actually smiled lightly.
Bei Bei stared at him in horror, his expression, the slight change, she felt that it was not quite right, but she couldn't see anything wrong. She felt her ribcage tighten, the diaphragm rose, compressing the space for air, she was about to cry again, but she didn't dare, she reached out and covered her mouth, the pain on her face seemed to be pressed back by her hand, and it seemed natural again. She hurriedly put down her hand again, she told herself that she couldn't stop crying, she knew that the more she was afraid of Peng Cheng, the more uncomfortable Peng Cheng became, he would hurt her.
"Don't be afraid, I know it's okay, we don't think we'll be better. Peng Cheng stretched his waist, sat up, moved to the side of the bed and picked up the cigarette case, took out the cigarette, and then said: "It's okay, daughter-in-law, I know, it's me who is not angry." He smiled bitterly, laughing at himself, and sat down at the head of the bed, leaning back and smoking. He lifted one leg, put his foot on the bed, put his arm on his knee, and the cigarette was slowly burning in his hand. He stared at the cigarette and watched it burn, and with a flick of his finger on the butt of the cigarette, the butt of the cigarette turned around, and the burning red flame brightened and dimmed as it turned.
At this time, fear and flight are bound to invite a counterattack. Bei Bei also moved over, she sat next to Peng Cheng, reached out to take the cigarette butt, and pretended to be very angry and said, "Don't smoke." Seeing that he looked at himself noncommittally, and put the cigarette into his hand again, she flattened her mouth, slightly aggrieved, and her beautiful big eyes were very clear with tears, and she only glanced at his face gently.
"Daughter-in-law, don't you want to know how the scars on my body came from? Peng Cheng owed his ass and took off his pants, revealing boxer briefs with a plaid facet. The guy at the bottom of the body had a clear silhouette: "I'll relax, okay?"
Bei Bei was very uncomfortable, she didn't say no, she didn't say okay, she just stared at Peng Cheng's pants in the eyes, and she didn't turn around.
"No?" he waited for her answer, which was generally a signal, but she didn't say anything, so he asked again, "Didn't I wear a panty before?"
"Oh, it's all right, you can talk about it!" the girl urged.
"Why don't we take a look at it? The young man smiled, and he reached out and picked up his underwear, and he glanced inside, like a curious child. Bei Bei pulled the quilt over and covered it, but fortunately, she put her hands under her chin and put her hands on Peng Cheng's legs propped up on the bed, a pair of beautiful big eyes flickered, flashing with a silly brilliance.
She looked at him, both strange and familiar, at this moment she didn't know that she had completely learned to control this man, fiddling with him would be a long, long time in the future, and she would continue to master the skills, unconsciously.
However, that's not really good.
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Peng Cheng changed his comfortable position, he pulled Bei Bei over and rested her head on his shoulder. The young man's thin arms and bones were like iron rods that stretched out his body, and the girl was in pain. He took two puffs of cigarette tightly, and spit it out vigorously, the smoke was like a fairy in Aladdin's magic lamp, running violently, and then stretching freely, surrounded by the mellow fragrance, the fragrance of tobacco, like the charm of Tuli.
"Hey!" Bei Bei raised his hand to disperse the smoke, and he spit out a smoke ring, and she broke up the smoke ring again, and the two of them were silent, each playing with their own thoughts.
"Daughter-in-law, I have never had anyone who cared about me as much as you. Suddenly, Peng Cheng's voice came unusually calmly behind his ears, quietly, like a slowly flowing spring.
Beibei's body trembled subconsciously, she was still afraid, Peng Cheng also found out, so he said again: "Daughter-in-law, are you afraid of me? Don't be afraid, no one in this world can live without you, but me, I will definitely die." ”
This sentence is probably the only lie that Bei Bei can confirm. The girl's hand froze in mid-air, and to be honest, her heart hurt a little because he was lying to her. But she didn't have the courage to debunk Peng Cheng's lies, the smoke was so thick that she couldn't see the outline clearly, and she slid a few more times, feeling a kind of resentment of being abandoned, and more fear. But this is not terrible, what is even more terrifying and ridiculous is that this is really Peng Cheng's truth, his truth is indeed not much, but this sentence is really.
At that moment, Peng Cheng really thought like this, Bei Bei was the reason that supported his life.