At night, it is no longer as hot and dry as in early autumn, and people are rushing to their homes after finishing their day's work.

Hao Haoxuan lowered his head, ignoring those who were in a hurry.

Starting from Nanqiao District, all the way north to Hero Park, passing through the building in the back corner of the park, is Li Xingru's home, Hao Haoxuan called her when he walked through the park, and when he walked to Li Xingru's door, she waited there, and the time just came to eight o'clock in the evening.

The two of them looked at each other and smiled when they saw each other, and without any extra words, they walked towards Heroes Park.

Walking did not make Hao Haoxuan's mood improve in the slightest, there were still those pedestrians who were in a hurry around him, although there were more elderly people walking in the park, but Hao Haoxuan's eyes always involuntarily looked at those pedestrians who returned home.

Home.

Just these two words made the silent Hao Haoxuan even more silent, his home...

"Haoxuan, the college entrance examination is coming next year, so let's read more books..."Li Xingru said without words: "Don't keep focusing on things like the arrival of heroes, life still has to go on, isn't it?" ”

Hao Haoxuan smiled, still not speaking.

After a long time, Hao Haoxuan said: "Xingru, the Hero Advent incident has made me lose a lot, in fact, if I can, I really don't want to participate in it anymore, I'm tired of this ridiculous world... But no, someone has to stand up and protect those who have a home. ”

Li Xingru: "I still remember that you said at the pledge meeting that you wanted to be a scientist..."

Hao Haoxuan: "People will change, after experiencing loss, people will grow, and many ideas and ideas will change... This is not Yi or Yasuo's [poison], I am talking about this completely out of my own considerations..."

Hao Haoxuan wanted to say something, but Li Xingru interrupted him and said, "Yes, people will change... The world is changing, and the only constant is constant change... Haoxuan, I don't know if what you are going to do is right, because as you said, someone has to stand up, I just don't want the person who stands up to be you, you have the ability to get what you want, no matter what kind of life, even if you don't work hard, the family business left by your uncle and aunt is enough for you to be happy for a lifetime, why bother yourself..."

Persuade?

Li Xingru felt that it was too selfish to do that, but he couldn't help but persuade him, so he only knocked on the side, and his words were unknown.

So a lot of words are just said dimly, just like the relationship between the two now, hazy, it may not be a good thing...

But is it really a good thing?

The truth is a quick knife! Ignoring the truth, maybe you will live better, when faced with a choice, some people will pretend that everything did not happen, put those painful things that have to be done behind, and simply live life, putting everything into talking and laughing.

But do these people really include him, Hao Haoxuan himself? His heart was struggling, the disappearance of his mother and the death of his father made Hao Haoxuan's heart endure great pain, everything became sharp in his eyes, and the sharp knife of truth seemed to be across his throat, as long as he gently forehead, it would pierce into the fragile throat.

At this time, Li Xingru's words wanted him to take a step back, as long as he simply took a step back, those so-called truths would disappear, and there would be no more pressure.

"I don't think I can just care about the life in front of me, and I can't let the world go on in chaos..."

"What do you get in exchange for doing this? No one will be grateful to you, heroes are a false proposition, people hold up the name of heroes when they need it, but once people don't need you anymore, people will forget about you, and even forget everything you have done for them. Even so, do you want to stick to your path? ”

When Li Xingru said this, he felt the sadness of Irelia beside him, and Irelia also felt the disgust from the host. Irelia knew that what Li Xingru said was not unreasonable, although as the leader of the revolutionary army, she did not agree, but she could not angrily reprimand her attitude of only caring for herself.

The Heroes Square is not big, the fallen leaves are rustling in the wind, pedestrians are walking on the Heroes Square in twos and threes, Hao Haoxuan and Li Xingru are walking in the square, arousing people's envious eyes.

Two young guys, two brightly dressed, more bright-looking people, those old people see them, as if they see the shadow of their youth, people who are ready to go home after a day of work see this pair, and they will unconsciously enjoy the future life and the beauty of the world.

The breath of youth was enough to touch the hearts of those onlookers, and they didn't want to believe it, both of them had distress in their hearts.

"I'm sorry, Li Xingru, I have more important things..."This time Hao Haoxuan didn't think about it, he hesitated for a long time, and he also suffered for a long time before saying this sentence.

As soon as these words came out, a feeling of despair immediately lingered in Hao Haoxuan's sad mind.

Li Xingru lowered his head and smiled: "Why are you so serious?" Even if you choose this path, aren't we still friends? ”

Li Xingru also understood that the hazy relationship was drawn an insurmountable line.

"Send me home!"

After a while, Li Xingru is also tired, and she has to go to school tomorrow... Hao Haoxuan sent her home, and she was like losing her soul and staggering down the street.

"Hehe, is this adolescent love?" Hao Haoxuan had tears in his eyes, but they just rolled around in his eyes and flowed out.

He now regrets saying that I have more important things, but he has to do it!

Yi and the newcomer Yasuo didn't speak, and they didn't know how to comfort Hao Haoxuan at this time, so they just followed behind him and watched him silently. Chase the book

Yasuo: "Don't say it, this Moutai is really delicious..."

Yi took the wine gourd from Yasuo's hand, poured it into a sip and said, "Who said it wasn't?" ... Youth, haha, is this the trouble of youth? Youth, for me, is gone forever... Youth..."

Yi poured another sip of wine. Yasuo frowned and said, "You don't have to drink a little less... Not much..."

Clinker, Yi actually tilted his neck and drank all the remaining wine.

He exhaled a long breath of wine, then shouted, "No! Hahahaha! ”

Yasuo muttered, "Your youth is gone, and my wine is gone... Really. ”

Master Yi ignored Yasuo's stinginess, the hero will transmit his emotions to the host, and the host also has the ability to transmit emotions to the heroes. That sad feeling made Yi involuntarily think of the teenagers who used to laugh and scold together in the nameless mountain.

They learned swords together, practiced together, and discussed together which girl in the village was good-looking.

It's just a war, the teenagers are all dead in a foreign land, and the girls in the village are also under the iron-blooded chariot of war... Fade away in silence.

…

In the past, Hao Haoxuan always felt that he was not the kind of person who would get along with himself, but now it seems that he was wrong before. Tears had already soaked the placket and wet the sleeves, Hao Haoxuan felt that he needed to get out of this sad situation, but it was too difficult!

He roared desperately to get his soul out of the sorrow of the moment, and he searched through the quotes of countless masters in his mind, praying for solace in poetry and more meaningful things, and to soothe his sorrows.

"Dream! Dream! Where have you been!? How fascinating you are! (from Onegin)

The grief eased slightly, but it remained. The eyes of the pedestrians changed from the envy of the golden boy and the jade girl just now, to the pity, indifference and ridicule of Hao Haoxuan's solitary and ragged spirit at this time.

It's better to be blocked, Hao Haoxuan thought to himself: "Let me meet the sharp blade, the sad truth, the cruel reality..."

Thinking of this, Hao Haoxuan ignored the crowd around him, and shouted loudly in the crowd of people who were either indifferent or happy:

"My love is on the mountainside; The mountain is too high to look for her, and she can't tear her robe when she lowers her head. My lover gave me a hundred butterfly scarves; What to reply to her: an owl. Since then, he has turned his face and ignored me, and somehow frightened me. My love is in the city; I wanted to go to find her, and I couldn't cry when I looked up. My lover gave me a double swallow picture; What to reply to her: rock sugar gourd. Since then, he has turned his face and ignored me, and somehow made me confused. My love is on the riverside; I wanted to find her deep river, but I tilted my head and couldn't shed tears. My lover gave me a gold watch; What to reply to her: diaphoretic medicine. Since then, he has turned his face and ignored me, and somehow made me have a nervous breakdown. My love is in the Hao family; I wanted to look for her, but I didn't have a car, and I couldn't shake my head and cry. My lover gave me roses; What to reply to her: Red Snake. Since then, he has turned his face and ignored me. Somehow - let her go. ”

...

Yi's neck was already red, he was really not very good at drinking, especially when he was excited just now, he drank a little too much, and now he was staring at Hao Haoxuan in a daze.

Yi Fangcai's roar and catharsis about youth made his heart pound, and the cool autumn night became unbearable. The green light in his eyes flickered, and he patted Yasuo on the shoulder and went in one direction.

"Why are you going?"

Master Yi shook his shoulders and turned back, grinning and said, "Haha, he is not like me, he still has brothers." ”

Yi left, Yasuo took out another wine gourd from under the cover around his waist... After thinking about it again and again, he still made a decision, took a step forward and came to Hao Haoxuan's side.

threw the wine gourd in front of Hao Haoxuan's eyes, and then said in a crepe manner: "If there is no hatred in the eyes of the sect, I don't believe that there is a white head in the world... Relax, man, and trust that your story isn't over yet..."

Yasuo's way of speaking made Hao Haoxuan's thoughts clearer, and when he saw Yasuo start to write crepe, he also shook his head and said: "In early autumn, the leaves are falling, and the wanderers are drifting." (The original sentence is like a guest heart...) Flying did not want to go down, still regretting the old forest. ”

Yasuo isn't happy now... The memories in my heart continue to surge, and how to return to the roots of the wanderer's life...

I always want to cry when I remember, Yasuo turned his grief into a drink, and poured a big sip... To say that this re-transformed Yasuo and the old Yasuo before don't have much in common, except for the amount of wine...

Yasuo: "I'm sour! ”

...

Pink boudoir, little Lori Mumu pouted...

Mu Mu asked Mu Mu: "You say, why doesn't he play with me?" ”

................................................ Shameful dividing line............................. Partition..............................

Chongshan 1: Mr. Lu Xun wrote that my lovelorn was a mockery of the popular lovelorn poems at the time, using the format of Zhang Heng's "Four Sorrowful Poems", but here I am describing the lovelorn, explain it, so as not to be discovered by the audience that I am uneducated...

First love, it's subtle and hazy and extremely simple, and when you lose it, your thoughts will inevitably become sharp, but the more acute it is, the more self-contradictory... Wish I had written out that feeling...

Mr. Lu Xun is sorry, Mr. Pushkin is sorry!