How many times did she hide in the quilt and cry, what to do the next day like a nobody, to please grandma and please grandma.

How many times I have been bullied, I have faced it stubbornly alone, but when no one is around, I hide in the dark and cry secretly.

How many times did she drag her tired body back to her bedroom, and she asked herself what she was living this way for, was it just because she was alive?

Being slapped on the head by her fiancé, she had to compromise in the face of reality, and she did not feel fear at the moment when she rolled down the hill, but had a sense of relief.

When she opened her eyes again under the cherry blossom tree, she also asked herself in her heart why she was alive again. Why do you want to carry the memories of your past life?

In the face of reality, she compromised again and again, she learned to be strong, learned to forbear, learned to adapt to the environment, learned to be false and wronged, learned to disguise, and learned not to shed tears easily......

She thought she wouldn't have any more tears, but at this moment she wanted to cry, the man who had burst into her world all at once!

It turns out that no matter how strong I am, I want a hug that I can rely on.

It turns out that all his strength is a fragile disguise in the face of reality.

Why did I ask Qiao'er how she felt about her parents? Is it because of envy, or because I never got it, and I want to know what true family affection looks like?

I opened my eyes wide, but the scenery in front of me was still blurry, and it turned out that tears had already spread to my eyes unconsciously.

She clenched her arms tightly, as if that would make her feel safe, as if it was the embrace she had always longed for.

Qiao'er behind her had already been pulled away by Mo Shijiu, who had just returned, and she just put on a thick cloak for herself.

Because Mo Shijiu knew that Xue'er needed a quiet environment, what a considerate Shijiu!

People are so contradictory, they know that most of their friends are a combination of interests, but they can't lack the company of their friends, even if they are false and wronged, they are also deceiving themselves that he is their own bosom friend.

This is how people like to deceive themselves, knowing that family affection is not reliable, and family affection can come to naught in the face of interests and money.

We still long for ourselves to be indispensable in front of our families, and we still long for the nourishment of family affection, otherwise it is like losing the motivation and purpose of life.

People are so unreasonable, they clearly understand that love is an ethereal passion, but they still chase it like a moth to a fire.

Even if the body that has been injured again and again is incomplete, even if it ends up with a broken body. Still don't give up, try again and again.

I always think that I will meet someone who really knows how to appreciate myself, otherwise I will lose my vitality.

Just like she is now, she has lived a lifetime, and she still hopes to get these things after starting over, and she never gets tired of it!

Xue'er stood in the attic like this, leaning on the railing, standing from sunset to twilight, standing to the lights of ten thousand homes.

The tears on her face had long since been dried by the wind, and she still stood tirelessly.

In the room, Qiao'er looked in the direction of Xue'er, and asked Mo Shijiu worriedly: "Sister Shijiu, the county lord will definitely get a cold when he stands like this, you go and persuade it, or find two young masters to coax the county lord!" ”

Mo Shijiu sighed: "What the county lord wants most at this time is to be alone, even if he is sick, there is no way!" ”

"What's going on? Even if the old lady dies of illness, it shouldn't be such a big blow to the county lord! ”

"Qiao'er, don't ask, there are some things I can't explain to you."

"The county lord just asked my parents if they were kind to me, and I told the truth, did she suffer any grievances from the county marquis and his wife?" Qiao'er reacted at this time, and guessed the idea at once.

Seeing the dissatisfied look on Mo Shijiu's face, Qiao'er knew that she might have guessed the reason, and covered her mouth and didn't know what to say.

After digesting it for a long time, Qiao'er spoke again: "But the county lord is the future princess of You!" What kind of glory is this?

If there is a princess in the ordinary family, it will be provided high!

Besides, what a good little lady the county lord is, how can the county marquis and his wife bear to let the county lord be wronged?

If so, what if His Highness knew? ”

Qiao'er couldn't talk anymore, and she didn't dare to think about it.

With her intuition, she knew that His Royal Highness King Youwang was not a character to be messed with, the county lord was his princess, who bullied the county lord, even if it was the county marquis and his wife, he might not give this face!

"The county lord begged me, she begged me not to tell His Highness, the county lord and his wife are still very defensive." Mo Shijiu sighed, she didn't know whether she was right or wrong to promise the county lord, they were the county lord's biological parents after all.

If it's too late, my brother's carrier pigeon will be released.

Although the matter made her suppress, she always felt uncomfortable in her heart.

"The county lord's medicine hasn't been used today, it's been hot twice." As for reporting to His Royal Highness, it is not something that a little maid of hers can put her beak, Qiao'er changed the subject.

"Wait, the county lord is so smart, she will definitely want to open it herself." Mo Shijiu still knows Xue'er, she said with confidence.

It's just that Cher really wants to open it?

Her legs and feet were numb, and Xue'er tried to move slowly, with a biting chill all over her body, but it was not as good as the pain in her heart.

Mo Shijiu was the first to perceive it, and hurriedly came out to help Xue'er.

Xue'er brushed away Mo Shijiu's hand and smiled reluctantly: "Don't worry about me, I just want to walk around alone, and you don't have to follow me." ”

"But ......"

"No, I won't run away from home, and I won't care about my body, I just want to be alone for a while, just let me be quiet." Xue'er said unquestionably.

Slowly walked down the attic, all the way out of Yongzeyuan, Xue'er walked forward along the verandah, passing by the hanging flower arch of Shoukang Temple, the door was not locked, the lights in the courtyard sprinkled on the snow through the window, and the figures of four people were revealed on the window lattice.

She stopped and looked at it for a long time, and always felt that she was really the superfluous person in this family.

Turning to leave, her background is so lonely and depressed.

found Huzi, it was already an old dog, although it was not as lively as it was at the beginning, but when I saw Xue'er, she still wagged her tail enthusiastically and rubbed her head against Xue'er's clothes.

Touching its head, he summoned the tiger to follow him, and walked down the verandah to the backyard.

Li Si helped her open the back door and asked with concern: "The county lord is going out so late?" ”

"I just want to get out and about." Cher smiled gratefully.

Sister-in-law Li hurriedly took out a lantern and handed it to Xue'er: "It's cold, the county lord mourns." ”

Cher smiled at her and took the lantern.