Chapter 108: Why Did My Cowardice Lose You?
There was a big dispute in this Qiao family, and everyone made a big mistake in the process of this dispute.
When everyone is doing this, they should not think about what kind of accidents will happen to both parties before doing things, so there may be something unexpected in the process.
Just like the current world is unpredictable, Qiao Lin and Gu Ruxi are arguing.
They're not arguing about anything, but they can see that this person they often are making everyone feel the same, um.
They made a lot of noise, and even their family didn't dare to stop them too much because they were arguing too loudly, or too real, and the people on the computer were very nervous, and they didn't even dare to go forward, for fear that this kind of quarrel would affect themselves, and if it affected themselves, it would affect them.
There was a loud noise in this room, and the noise was already very far away, and if you went to the city to stop it at this time, it really didn't know what would happen.
The hall of Qiao's house was noisy, and the people couldn't help but get nervous when they heard it.
"I know you don't want to marry me, I know the woman you have always loved very much, you can still be sweet and bitter to her at this time, but you can't forget her, I tell you that she doesn't like you for a long time, she has married someone else, don't you still recognize the facts? If you can't even recognize this kind of thing, why do you still exist here, I just tell you, if you are infertile like this again, then many things will not be as you imagined, no matter in the future, I will never let go, in this case I will definitely fight with you to the end, I will definitely not tell you that you have been with me in this life, you don't think about this woman anymore, that woman is not suitable for you, and she will not turn back to you at all, don't you recognize this fact? ”
Gu Rumeng touched her belly, which was already slightly bulging, she felt that her life had reached a very sad point, she didn't expect that the man she was thinking about was still tolerating her sister, he couldn't stand these things, so she couldn't help but scolded him loudly.
"Qiao Lin, I hope you never forget that I am your real wife, you are the father of my children, I am the real mother of your children, this can never be changed, we will always be together in this life, so no matter how you do or deny it, I can't refuse this fact, this fact is real, I tell you to go shopping as soon as possible, this is the only request that our family has for you in the end......"
"Get out! , don't talk about these things in front of me, don't you know what you have done, without this, what qualifications do you have now, what kind of face to talk to me about these things, I tell you that even if you don't have nerves, I won't love you, that's for sure, I hope you stay sober, even if you are pregnant with my child, this is a fact that cannot be changed! ”
Bang! Boom!
Well, the teacup on the wall around the wall was smashed to the glass incident, the broken glass is like the broken mood of the sycamore flower, he has been shattered at this time, every edge and corner is hanging in the depths of his heart, the wounded heart, the whole person and a room are no longer complete, and every thing has lost a soul.
Yes, he doesn't have a goal in life now, he has now lost the only purpose of his existence, the woman he loves has been lost forever, and he feels that this broken glass in his heart can no longer heal.
It's hard to break the mirror, that's it.
Gu Rumeng cried, "Let's stop arguing, you see that you are already injured, you have blood on your hands, if you don't go to the hospital, you will have problems." We will quarrel this time that we will live a good life, and never stir-fry for this little thing, okay? I'll never have any trouble with you again, and I'll never make you unhappy again. We must live together well for a lifetime, I promise you, you promise me, we must always be far away with our family of three, happy and happy to say beautiful ......"
"Get out of here, this matter has nothing to do with you, now you can handle this matter yourself, I don't want you to look in front of me now, I want to stay alone now!"
Gu Rumeng looked sad and sad.
But.
Isn't this the current situation of her beloved man, she thinks that her beloved man should not have this interest anyway.
If he can't accept it, the man he loves will have this kind of situation that makes people feel hesitant.
"I told you to get out, I just want to be alone and be quiet now, do I want to be quiet and you have to bother me? Is this called loving me? Are you trying to force me? Do you want me to force me to die! ”
He gasped for air, and he masochistically clutched at the shards, where a trace of blood oozed through his hands.
The drops fell with a click, and he didn't feel a trace of pain at all, he didn't feel the stinging sensation caused by this sharp glass scratching his skin at all, he just felt that everything was numb, he didn't feel anything, there was no illusion, and his heart was desolate to the limit.
He closed his eyes tightly, he was hurting himself in this self-disciplined way, he wanted to tell himself that no matter what, he could never forget that woman, that woman was something she could not forget in this life, that was her love and that was everything to her.
But why did he come to this point today, why did there happen so many unexpected things, he had no way to refuse, he didn't know what happened, he only knew that he had lost this woman, he couldn't get the woman, and he had left him forever and forever with men and women.
He regrets it so much, I regret that I once had it.
He regretted why he didn't be strong enough to rebel against his family and form this oppression on himself.
He regretted why he didn't get up and leave with him directly, maybe when he was a little stronger, maybe at this time they were already in another place, which belonged to their own happy life.
Not now.
This kind of hellish life, he can't get rid of it, too many people are sophisticated, too many moral worldliness have restrained him, so that he can't break free, and there is no way for him to choose, so he goes forward step by step.
He didn't know how to move forward.
He didn't feel pain in his arm, he just ...... He personally took Gu Ruxi to the Zhao family, but he abandoned her......
Why would you do this, why would you be so cowardly? Why can't you protect the most beloved woman, and why do you let her get hurt again and again?
The heart felt like it had been pierced with a sharp knife, and it hurt so much that it hurt heartbreakingly.
Gu Rumeng broke in at the door.
She was stunned at what she saw, she didn't believe that this could happen today, I didn't know why it had caused such a big change, he couldn't believe that Qiao Lin would clutch at these glass shards, and he didn't care about his pain at all.
He was completely immersed in his own world.
"What are you going to do! I don't allow you to say that, I don't allow you to drink anymore, I don't allow you to hurt yourself like this, how can you hurt yourself like this again without my permission, I tell you I don't allow you to do this, because you are the father of my children, you are my man! ”
Gu Rumeng rushed towards him, snatched his wine glass, and hugged his waist desperately, hoping to stop his waist at this time.
Let him know that some things are really not as difficult to cross as he imagined.
Qiao Lin glared at her fiercely, shook it off with one hand, and then took the wine in his left hand, and began to drink it without any scruples.
The high level of whiskey made him feel refreshed, made him feel a sense of busyness that he had never felt before, and let his temporary worries and sorrows not be temporarily relieved, which was really good under the pressure of alcohol.
Just love this feeling, this feeling.
It makes him feel a kind of ecstasy, makes him feel that he has forgotten a lot of everything, and even makes him not think about everything anymore, whether he feels that he is not there.
Walked towards the wine cabinet on the side with messy steps, and slammed it against the wall without hesitation.
Bang!
Glass splashes.
"Fuck off! All of you get out of the way for me, I don't want to see any of you, you are all directors, you are all actors, okay, now you have caused this scene to be exciting enough, you should be able to win the Oscar, Oscar, now you can all give me away, I don't want to cooperate with you in this exercise now, I just want to be quiet and get out of the way......"
He picked up the wine and poured it straight away, he just wanted to forget all this, forget all the troubles, forget all the things that made him unpleasant, it would be nice if all this really didn't exist, but it was drunk and real.
Gu Rumeng shouted with a cry.
"Really don't drink anymore, you know what's going on now, if you drink it again, you'll get drunk, your hand is already injured and you can't bleed anymore, I beg you to see that you are the father of the child......"
"Child, child, let me tell you, this child is your child, not my child, did I have to ask this child at that time, why did you let him come back and know me soon, have you started now? Okay, I'll give you the child first, you can do whatever you want now, I don't want to be restrained by your behavior now, you all let me go! ”
Qiao Lin suddenly staggered and sat down on the ground, he was now nowhere to be found, he didn't know where he was, his own heart was really painful, why did those pains make him feel unforgettable, there was a feeling of missing him, the feeling in his heart made him unable to breathe.
Why do you only use selfish feelings to make yourself unable to get, not to lose a trace, and finally to be miserable, feeling that you can't stand it at all.
Qiao Lin was going crazy with alcohol for some reason, or he was venting this feeling in his heart through the wind of alcohol.
What he usually doesn't dare to say, what he usually doesn't want to say, at this time, he wants to completely let himself get a peace of mind.
He doesn't want to pay for anything anymore, I want to restrain myself for this morality, he wants to indulge himself, and everyone has a good cry.
"Xixi, you know that I'm really not right, I really couldn't help it that day, you know? These people are alive for me, really, I regret it now and regret why I was stronger, if I didn't have me, I wouldn't be a man, I'm not a man...... But you don't know how bitter I am in my heart, how much I miss you now, can you answer me, I want to see you, I really can't lose you...... Please forgive me, forgive me, okay......"
The voice was weak and kept thinking, feeling like it was heartbreaking, and it couldn't be healed for a long time, as if after passing through the world of all things, this healing had been easy.
"Why are you there? Why didn't it show up there? Xixi, I really can't bear to be hurt, I don't want you to be hurt by any of them, I am a white lotus in my heart, but I destroyed this white lotus with my own hands, I hate me and hate myself, I hate my fate, where are you ......"
Jolin in the whole world of his own spirit.
He didn't care about Gu Rumeng at all, he stood next to him and heard him speak.
Gu Rumeng's face showed resentment, she swore that she would not let Gu Ruxi have a better future, and she would destroy her personally......
……
"Why are you here today so uncertain, is there something going on? Because I'm so comforted on my side, you have to go back and deal with it yourself, and I'm doing well here, so you don't have to worry too much. ”
Gu Ruxi was stunned for a moment, then looked at her mother and smiled lightly, "Mother has something, I feel that I suddenly seem to be a little uncomfortable, maybe I can sleep very well tonight, so it causes this feeling." ”
She just felt a little uncomfortable inexplicably.
Today is an open day for her mother, and every time this happens, Gu Ruxi will come to visit her mother.
Gu Ruxi's mother got a serious illness when she was a child, and the serious illness was said to be inherited from the family, and she had a heart disease, and she didn't know why she was depressed and couldn't be stabbed by any stings, so she had been doing conservative treatment in the hospital for so many years.
It's been 15 years.
She pushed her to walk in the back garden of the medical center, "Mother is not feeling better during this time, the weather is getting colder and colder, I have to add clothes, I have been doing well during this time, and I have been doing well, so mother, I will have more time to visit you." ”
"I've been fine here, so don't worry too much, it's good if you go back home......"