The two sat side by side under the starry sky, and at night there was a thick black veil, so that even the moonlight was obscured by the building next to them. In the dark night, only the dim red light of the cigarette in Yuqian's mouth flickered uncertainly.

"Lao Mei..."Yu Qian took a deep breath of cigarette and slowly spit it out, and the pale smoke dissipated into the air, "Why are you asking this?" Are you also interested in the stories of us mortals? ”

"Well, I can't say I'm not interested, it's okay to talk about you or something, I just think." Ren Yuan smiled silently, "You really want to find someone to talk about these past events now, and from all aspects, I am a very good listener." ”

"That's..."Yu Qian smiled helplessly, stretched out his hand and scratched the corner of his forehead, squinted his eyes and said slowly, "Actually, Lao Mei is not a particularly good criminal policeman. ”

"How?"

"When he was very early, he didn't have the momentum that a criminal police should have. Otherwise, he would not have joined the police force so many years earlier than me, and he would still be in the position of deputy captain. Yu Qian said in a gloomy voice, "It's nice to say, it's smoothed out by life." To put it mildly, it's like the younger juniors on the team talking behind their backs, it's a little too oily. ”

"But I can understand him, and I also know why Lao Mei became like this." Yu Qian smiled bitterly: "I worked in the police station until Lao Mei's year." It's wrong not to become 'oily', but it's not an individual job. ”

"It's hard, isn't it?" Ren Yuan asked

"Lucky? Happiness is nothing, and although it is indeed very fortunate to talk about happiness, it is much more than our hard work. ”

"Is that because of the danger?"

"Danger does exist, and we can be regarded as a high-risk industry." Yu Qian nodded and said, "But this is not the source of our pain. ”

"That's low wages, isn't it?"

"It's true that the treatment is not good, but it is not so bad that it is unacceptable. Supporting a family can still be supported. Yu Qian shook his head and retorted, "For those of us who have already entered this industry, this is actually not a problem. ”

"You know what? Many parents are police officers, and many of their children and offspring have also become police officers. Yu Qian said with some emotion: "Other families inherit their father's business, and they all inherit what kind of family assets. As for us, we say we don't want our children to be police officers, but in the end... Alas. ”

"Do you want your children to inherit your honor?" Ren Yuan said with a smile

"Honor?" Yu Qian smiled bitterly, "In the end, it's not because no one wants to be a policeman. Do you know how difficult it is to recruit people to the police force every year, and who parents are willing to risk their children's lives to get that bit of honor? We don't want our children to do this, but this person is cheap. I have suffered all my life, I have suffered a lifetime of sin, and I have been spinning in this pit all my life. In the end, I became emotionally attached to this work. ”

"So that's why, Mei Jingzu asked his daughter to be a police officer too?"

"Old Mei... How could he be willing to let his precious daughter suffer like this? Don't look at him many years older than me, but the child was born late. Before his sister-in-law gave birth, he still thought about asking a baby boy to continue to be a policeman for him. Yu Qian squinted and recalled, "But the moment I saw the nurse take his daughter out, my heart softened." No matter how hard-hearted a man is, he can't be hard anymore when he becomes a father. ”

"But his daughter is still a police officer." Ren Yuan asked

"yes, that's fate. Lao Mei was afraid that Xiaoxia would have three longs and two shorts, so she pressed her daughter to prevent her from becoming a criminal policeman, and in the end, something happened to her as a policeman. Yu Qian sighed, "Xiaoxia, this child, has been very creative since he was a child, what decision did he make, and even more nine cows can't pull it back." In our line of work, even if we know that we will suffer, we always refuse to bend over and break our backbones, and in the end, the children are also stained with this stupidity. ”

"Do you regret doing this?" Ren Yuan asked

"Regret it, but not because of these." Yu Qian paused and said, "It's Lao Mei, and it's not just because of these that I don't want Xiaoxia to be a policeman." ”

"What's the reason for that?" Ren Yuan smiled, "Fortunately, you feel that you can be patient, you have been prepared for danger, and the treatment is also acceptable... So what else is the reason? ”

"How many sad things are in this life, and the most difficult thing is to be calm." Yu Qian sighed lightly

"In our line of work, we are used to seeing the cold, warm, dirty and ugly in the world, but this does not mean that we can look down on these things." Yu Qian said softly: "You should do it in a thousand days, and if you make a mistake, you will be nailed to the pillar of shame." Few people will stand up and say that they thank us for protecting the peace of society, and that we should have sacrificed as much as we wanted. But as long as there is a few accidents and some scandals, then everyone will immediately stand up, poke us in the backbone and scold, eager to step us into the ground. ”

"There will always be people who will provoke and provoke with malice, say irresponsible things without doing any investigation, and accuse our behavior of being shady. And when the truth is revealed, they will not apologize, but will only shrink in the dark and lick their claws, waiting for the next opportunity to maliciously slander. ”

Speaking of this, Yu Qian's tone was slightly excited, "It's not that we can't accept criticism and questioning, we won't even flinch in the face of the enemy's guns, how can we be afraid of a few words of criticism." What disappoints us most is that these doubts and serious injuries come from the very people we protect. A lot of times I think, what are we doing this for? ”

"The sword from the back always hurts the most." Ren Yuan said casually, "People never thank the people who protect them, this is normal. Because in their eyes, the institutions of violence are far more powerful than them. You're thinking about how to protect them, and they're worried that you're going to be a blade to wield at them. ”

"You've lived for a long time, don't you think the weak are always so stupid?" Yu Qian asked unwillingly: "Isn't there no good reward for good people?" ”

"No, no, no, you're wrong. It's not stupidity, it's the wisdom of survival. Ren Yuan shook his finger and said, "If the weak want to survive, they always have to think more than the strong." It's just that in this scenario, you're a dragon-slaying warrior with a sword. In other words, what do you mere mortals think of us? ”

"You guys?" Yu Qian is slightly flustered

"Yes, or in the Ministry of Disasters, what do people think of the Thunder Dragon Brigade?" Ren Yuan asked with a smile

"It's different, you said it yourself, Inhumans are unreliable." Yu Qian frowned and said, "You're secretly changing concepts." ”

"Why is Inhuman unreliable? That's because, there's always going to be a problem. But for any Inhuman in the Thunder Dragon Brigade, his life has been dedicated to guarding the safety of mankind, and he only made that mistake at the end of his life. ”

"But aliens always make mistakes, right?" Yu Qian said

"So those aliens who are lucky enough not to be sacrificed in the mission and live until the deadline is approaching, most of them will choose euthanasia." Ren Yuan said indifferently: "The dragon slaying boy will eventually become an evil dragon? Perhaps, but most of the dragon slayers who were burned at the stake haven't turned into evil dragons. Just if you want to slay a dragon, you must have a power that is not weaker than that of an evil dragon. Doesn't it seem naïve to want to rely on personal morality as a shackle to this power? ”

"So, when you can slay a dragon, you're no different from an evil dragon. People sing the praises of the exploits of the brave, sing the epics of the brave, and derive light and courage from them. But..."Ren Yuan said with malice, "people will only do these things after the death of the brave and looking at the cold corpse of the former." ”

"Maybe you're right." Yu Qian was silent for a moment, and said softly, "But it doesn't matter, it's just a complaint." Honor is never a false name, from the moment of responsibility, it has always accompanied us forward. A wounded warrior is still a warrior, and a fly that sucks blood is always a fly. We know what we're watching, and we know how many people are looking forward to us, and that's enough. ”

"Speaking of Lao Mei, in fact, sometimes I think that if Yaoyao can survive, I will definitely live like him in the end." Yu Qian muttered, "As I work for more years, I will gradually lose my original sharpness and begin to become a casual Buddha." When I am on vacation, I accompany my children to amusement parks and go shopping... But we don't have any holidays. ”

"When she grows up and goes to school, she will also write in her essays, 'My dad is a very good criminal policeman...'. You know, in the eyes of children, our line of work is still very great. Her classmates would envy her for having a father who was a police officer. Although this father is often too busy to take care of her..."Yu Qian's voice began to exude a distant ethereal

"She would grow up and start arguing with me, thinking I was old and dirty and annoying. She began to learn to dress up and began to dislike the outfits that her mother and I had chosen for her. Finally, one day, with a red face and a little shy, he led a hairy boy to me and said, 'This is my boyfriend'..."

"You're going to beat that hairy boy to the ground, right?" Ren Yuan said with a smile

"Well, I will definitely want to do this, but her mother will definitely drag me, this mother-in-law looks at her son-in-law, how she looks at it, she is satisfied." Yu Qian also laughed softly, "What can I do, in the end, it's not like I want to obediently watch my baby daughter who has been hurting for more than 20 years and be taken away." ”

"You can't help but get married." Ren Yuan laughed and said, "Aren't you the same, taking her mother into your hands?" ”

"That's why I used to envy Lao Mei. Every time I see Xiaoxia, I think of Yaoyao. If it hadn't been for that accident ten years ago, I would have lived like this. Yu Qian choked up and said, "It should be like this, it should be like this, but today, why are even Lao Mei and Xiao Xia..."

Yu Qian's lips trembled continuously, and the cigarette butt that had long been burned out fell quietly. He raised his hands to cover his face and sobbed, "Why is this happening, why is this happening..."

In the past ten years, after divorcing his wife, Yu Qian has always regarded the life of Lao Mei's family of three as the life he would live without accidents. It's like a crystal ball hidden in the depths of the wardrobe, which is taken out from time to time to wipe and admire, and what is sealed there is a fairy tale world that you can't hope for. Tonight, however, that sustenance was shattered.

It's like fate is repeating, playing vulgar and bad jokes with him. Torture him once and still not be satisfied, as if to smash the softest beauty in his heart to him. In the dim night light, Ren Yuan quietly looked at his partner who was crying bitterly, and did not say anything to comfort him. Some emotions need to be vented, otherwise you will never be able to get over this trough.

After a long time, Yu Qian raised his head and said, "I'm sorry, I'm really a little bit today..."

"It's okay, there is no need to disguise the feelings, which is the evidence that you are standing in reality at the moment and being a human being." Ren Yuan smiled and said, "Now, are you feeling better?" ”

"Hmm."

"So, do you still have the confidence to do this job well?"

"Naturally, blood debts and blood are repaid, and I will pay the price completely for what the Adventists have done for them!" Yu Qian said fiercely, "The regret of ten years ago, I will never allow it to happen again." So now let's talk about work, what the hell is going on tonight? ”

"Good, that's the momentum." Looking at his partner who had regained his strength, Ren Yuan said with satisfaction, "The one who broke in tonight was the murderer who killed two patrol officers in half a day. ”

"That Pochersi from the Zoroastrian Sect's headquarters!"