At night

Although the courtyard is not big, it is already crowded with people, there are 5 tables of meals in the open air in the courtyard, it is very rich, the people in the whole village are very hospitable, at this time, it is like the New Year, the villagers toast one after another, Teng Ying is not strong enough to drink, and his face is red after drinking a few glasses.

At the critical moment, Sun Yuqiang stepped forward, and the soldiers came to block the water to cover the earth, but although the wine was good, but he couldn't be greedy for a cup, the result was obviously that Sun Yuqiang was invincible with both fists and four hands, drunk and unconscious, and finally Teng Ying helped Sun Yuqiang into the house.

Teng Ying, who drank alcohol, her face was blood-red, she was not a person who could drink, she would lose her skin if she drank a little, usually at this time, Teng Ying would apply some skin care products to relieve the symptoms.

Teng Ying sat in front of the makeup mirror, looked at her flushed face, and subconsciously pulled it away. There was nothing in it, and Teng Ying realized that he was used to it, this was not his home.

Just as Teng Ying was about to close the drawer, she saw a notepad inside, and when she picked it up, the paper inside had been yellowed, and the word diary was written on the title page.

This turned out to be Lu Ying's diary! Teng Ying flipped the title page.

June 6th, sunny to cloudy, tomorrow is the first turning point in my life, I am about to walk into the examination room of the college entrance examination, ten years of hard study, and finally it is time to confirm the results, come on Lu Ying, you are the best!

June 30th, yin, today I went to see the list with apprehension, there was no accident, I fell off the list, I longed for a long time college life and I missed it, I don't know what my life will be like in the future, my efforts are all in vain, everyone knows that I play abnormally, persuade me to repeat, but I refused, maybe this is fate, maybe fate will have another arrangement.

September 1st, fine. The shadow of the college entrance examination has gradually disappeared in my mind, today is the first day of school in the city's finance school, the students here are very good, although it is not a university, but I know, three hundred and sixty lines, the line of champions, I will continue to work hard for my dreams, come on Lu Ying!

On January 1, light snow. Today is New Year's Day, at the party organized by the school, a boy who is one year younger than me got close to me, his name is Liu Wangyuan, what about people? It's okay, it's just a little thin, but it can be listed as an object of inspection!

August 30, fine. Today we have a formal relationship, he is very considerate, very caring about people, I think, he should be the other half of my life, from childhood to adulthood, God is attached to me, let me do the wrong question, but I know the right him, my beloved Liu Wangyuan.

May 23, fine. Today is an important day, and it is also the heaviest day in my life, we have climbed over the mountains, crossed the confusion, experienced tempering and finally achieved positive results, and ascended to the marriage hall, we fall in love with each other, I am the happiest woman in the world, I love your husband, Liu Wangyuan.

September 12, fine. Today, I have once again turned a new page in my life, new life is growing in my body, and our baby is coming.

February 12, fine. As the baby grows in my body day by day, the day we meet is getting closer and closer, at this time the big baby is sticking to my belly and listening to the little baby's heart in the belly, I love you.

June 22, fine. After more than ten hours of suffering, our baby finally came, she is so beautiful, we gave her a very nice name, Liu Qianqian...... I hope she will be as brave as her father and as beautiful as her mother in the future.

June 24, cloudy. Qianqian was diagnosed with neonatal hemolysis, the doctor took Qianqian away from my arms, I wanted to control my emotions, but I couldn't control it, I knew that Wangyuan was also sad, but he was in control.

June 30, fine. Qianqian was discharged from the hospital, this is the happiest day of my life, I even got a little carried away, let me get carried away this time, I love you.

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April 2, overcast. I lost my vision, my world is black on this day, but I can't cry, I want to be strong, I want to raise Qianqian as an adult, come on Lu Ying!

On July 2nd, sunny, looking far away, our child is very smart, and today she took the first place in the class, she is sunny and beautiful brings together all our advantages, I miss you! If you can hear me, please give me a way to make me feel your presence and share my daughter's comfort with me.

The page was crumpled and should have been soaked with a liquid like water. Teng Ying continued to scroll down.

On February 27, it was cloudy and sunny. In the past 2 months, I have entrusted Qianqian to my neighbors, one is working overtime, it is very tiring and hard, but I think it is worth it, because I earned Qianqian's tuition and fees, and I will surprise her tomorrow, I bought her a guzheng.

September 30, cloudy. Qianqian is sick, very serious, I once again entrusted a neighbor to help in the hospital, looking at Qianqian's miserable white face, I want to stay by her side, but there is no way, at the end of the month, the unit salary settlement, if I don't go, many people will not be able to pay their wages tomorrow, including myself, the money for the child's treatment will not be settled, forgive my mother for not being able to accompany you by your side.

June 2, light rain. Today I met our old classmate, he invited me to work in their company, although I didn't want to, but I couldn't help it, Qianqian was frail and sickly, she needed nutrition during her growth period, all kinds of tuition and miscellaneous expenses and living expenses, money is very important to me now, I accepted it.

July 20, heavy rain. I returned home with a deep sense of guilt, and at this moment, I wanted to know about my life, but looking at Qianqian, who was asleep, I had hope of being alive again.

August 9, heavy rain. I'm sorry, Qianqian, please don't blame your mother, please believe your mother, wait for your mother to come back, and don't let you live a poor life.

After that, the diary stopped, that is, after Lu Ying left, she didn't write this diary.

Teng Ying wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes, and slowly put the diary into the drawer, the origin of Lu Ying's actions actually lies in maternal love, but maternal love is not guilty!