Chapter 8: Nightmares
The sky has just dawned, the crescent moon is still vaguely hanging in the light blue sky, the small playground is crowded with prisoners who are out of the exercise, the temperature is more than ten degrees below zero, even the cotton prison uniforms are dwarfed, the prisoners' cheeks are red, and the breath exhaled from their mouths immediately condenses into water droplets to form bursts of white mist.
Between the teams, there is almost no gap between people, several teams can only walk around, and after coming to one end, they collectively turn back, and the head of the row becomes the tail of the row, and if you don't pay attention to it, there will be a collision.
At this time, Teng Ying was lining up, passing by the corridor to receive theoretical education.
But just after a while, the cold wind that hit made me shiver a few times, and subconsciously quickened his pace and walked through the corridor. But just as she was about to enter the door, a familiar face caught her eye in the team below.
Teng Ying was unconsciously stunned in place, thinking in her mind, who is she? There is an impression, but it is also fragmented in the mind, and it is difficult to connect, at this time, the prison guard next to him scolded: "Hurry up! ”
Only then did Teng Ying realize that he had fallen behind, so he quickly chased after him.
At the beginning of man, his nature is good; Sex is similar, Xi is far away. If you don't teach, sex is migration; The way of teaching is to be specialized...... There is no ignorant face in this classroom, there are no bright windows, no heaven rewards diligence, and there are such upward slogans as tranquility and far-reaching, some are just a group of women of different ages and the same identity, some are just iron window railings, and some are just a few big black characters on the wall that make people think about being a good person.
Here, Teng Ying seems to have returned to his high school days, the only difference is that the piles of textbooks on the table have changed into "Three Character Classics", "Disciple Rules" and a "Manual of Conduct for Inmates". And what the teachers here teach is not the same as the chemical equation, but the common sense of the law, confession of guilt and repentance, code of conduct, safety production education and some mental health guidance, through which they can help themselves establish a sense of law-abiding and identity, understand their rights and obligations, and adapt to the life in prison as soon as possible and better accept education and reform.
Looking at the young policeman on the podium, Teng Ying's heart twisted into a knot, a knot that can never be untied, once, where she also stood, for these women who had lost their footing, preaching and receiving karma, guiding them to the light, but now, she has undergone a qualitative identity change, and she has become a person who is guided and taught.
Thinking of this, the unwillingness and grievances in Teng Ying's heart emerged again.
I made a mistake, I was guilty, but I also had merit, I paid so many sacrifices, but in the end I was completely denied, everything I had to be wiped out, legal knowledge, behavioral norms, morals and ethics, and even my own food, clothing, and daily life had to start from scratch, and I was completely defined as a useless, heinous person, and everything had to be learned from scratch!
Thinking of this, she transferred all the cause and effect to the unit where she worked and the former leader. In those years, they obeyed their words and worked hard in exchange for them crossing the river and demolishing the bridge, falling into the well, and finally they were imprisoned and their families were ruined.
The huge resentment and injustice in her heart made her gradually become paranoid, she forgot that belief deviation is the cause and effect of all this tragedy, she attributed everything to being too kind, being used and bullied, but it was her own actions that she didn't want to send to prison, she decided to change her life from now on, thinking of this, Teng Ying's eyes slowly changed from bright to dark.
Later in the evening, snoring could be heard from the cell, and the moment the day's training had put the men on their pillows, they fell asleep.
The sun is shining, the white clouds in the sky are changing, there are loud slogans all around, a pair of female prisoners are practicing in a queue, this is the Lingshi Women's Prison, at this time Teng Ying is standing in place, looking around.
How did I get back? Just when Teng Ying was full of questions, Liu Yuan walked over to Teng Ying with a smile and took Teng Ying's hand, "Child, you're back." ”
Teng Ying was a little puzzled, standing in place, Liu Yuan said, "What? Are you not satisfied with this position? You're already the youngest warden. ”
When Teng Ying heard this, she immediately looked at herself, and the police uniform was worn on her body again, she immediately ran to the pond next to the flower bed, and the reflection in the water was back in the police uniform, heroic.
Teng Ying was ecstatic, I woke up, the dream finally woke up, everything has not changed, all this is nothing more than her own dream.
Looking at Teng Ying's bouncing appearance, Liu Yuan was puzzled: "Dream, what dream?" ”
Teng Ying said excitedly: "Sister, I don't know how to explain it, in short, it's amazing, my mind actually flew out of my soul, in just a few minutes, I have been a few years, I dreamed that Cheng Team, Xiaolian and Tao Fei were all sacrificed, the driving force behind the scenes is Gu Feng, and in the end, I also killed Sun Yuqiang because of my lack of belief because of selfishness, and did stupid things at a critical moment." ”
Liu Yuan said: "Really? ”
Teng Ying nodded vigorously, "En." ”
Suddenly, a strange smile appeared on the corner of Liu Yuan's mouth and asked, "So what else do you know?" ”
"Huh?" Teng Ying was a little confused by this question, "What else do you know, this is a dream, by the way, I still know ......" Halfway through the words, Teng Ying stopped, because he saw that the clock hanging on the top of the administrative building was actually walking backwards, this clock, since he went to work, has never malfunctioned, at this time, Teng Ying found that Liu Yuan's leg was slowly bleeding red and black blood, "Sister, your leg." ”
Liu Yuan didn't care about his legs, but continued: "What else do you know? Tell me! Liu Yuan's face became hideous, and he walked towards Teng Ying step by step, "I...... I...... I ......."
Suddenly, Teng Ying was pressed by something behind him, and when he looked back, Teng Ying suddenly screamed, only to see Cheng Guozhong, together with Tao Fei, who were waiting for him covered in blood, like a walking corpse, repeating in his mouth, "What else do you know?" What else do you know? ”
Teng Ying was intercepted before and after, Teng Ying turned around and could only run towards the left path, there was a harsh sound behind him, Teng Ying blocked his ears, and ran frantically towards the depths of the road, suddenly, Teng Ying's pupil method, the scene in front of him made Teng Ying almost scream, only to see Sun Yuqiang being tied up by five flowers, kneeling on the ground, with a big sign painted with a red cross on his chest, and behind him were two armed police soldiers, who were holding guns to the back of Sun Yuqiang's head, ready to pull the trigger at any time.
Teng Ying almost went crazy and shouted, "Don't, don't." ”
At this time, Sun Yuqiang turned his head mechanically, his eyes were full of despair, "Ying, I'm very disappointed in you, what else do you know......"
Yes! Teng Ying almost collapsed, covered her ears, and shouted: "I don't know anything, I don't know anything!" ”
Then she turned around and ran in the direction of the playground, she had no way to escape, this was her last way, at this time the female prisoners were stepping forward, but the strange thing was that no matter how Teng Ying went around, these female prisoners walked in that direction, like a wall blocked in front of Teng Ying.
Seeing the people behind him getting closer and closer, Teng Ying couldn't care so much, and rushed directly into the team to try to pass through. But after Teng Ying entered, she found that the queue of these dozens of people was like a maze, and she couldn't get around.
Finally, she found that there was one person missing in the row, which was the breakthrough, so she immediately ran over, but when she walked into the vacancy, her body was constantly controlled, like a chess piece placed on a chessboard, and merged into the team.
Teng Ying struggled desperately, but to no avail, at this time he was no longer the same as the female prisoners, suddenly, a bottomless pit appeared in front of the team, but the team had no intention of stopping, and continued to walk towards the pit, Teng Ying shouted: "Stop, don't go again, don't go again." Obviously, it was all in vain, and soon the top female prisoners were transferred to the pit, followed by the second and third rows.
Teng Ying turned her head and shouted at Liu Yuan, who was standing not far away, "Help me, save me, please." ”
Only Liu Yuan said in a dark voice: "The only one who can save you is yourself." ”
Suddenly, Teng Ying only felt empty under his feet, and then fell into the abyss, "Ah! ”
"Ahh Teng Ying opened her eyes suddenly, panting and sweating profusely, Teng Ying looked at the watch on the wall, it was 12:15 at this time, and she had a nightmare again.