"I think there is happiness in the world, but I haven't seen it, and I don't think I deserve it.

Do you know? When I was a child, as long as I had a conflict with my children, even if I was bullied and resisted, I would be beaten by my parents when I went home, and then I was pressed to apologize to others.

Do you know? I remember when I was in high school, a guy courted me, but I didn't have the heart to go to college.

And the young man kept chasing me from behind, and I remember one time and then being seen by our villagers.

When I got home, there were rumors, and my parents beat me to death, saying that I didn't study well and that I wouldn't go to school.

They never heard me pleading, you know?

Obviously, I went to school at that time because I went out to work and study to earn money, and my parents didn't agree with it.

I almost got beaten to death by my dad, you know? And then my dad said I was shameless or something, how ugly it was.

And my mother is similar to him, my mother is actually quite pitiful, I have been subjected to domestic violence for a long time, but my problems have arisen, and their husband and wife must have come to clean me up.

I almost died, you know?

Later, someone helped me clarify, and someone saw that I didn't actually say a word to the boy, and even went to the teacher.

I can only say that the teacher at that time was a very good teacher, I knew what was going on with that young man, and I also knew that I was a good student, studying hard every day and working hard, how could I have time to fall in love.

In the end, everyone believed in my innocence, but my mom and dad just didn't believe me.

Do you think people like me deserve to be happy? When I was hurt, people said that the family was the warmest harbor for self-heating, but I was not.

They're going to magnify my damage a lot, like the rumors that were rumored at the time, but it's actually very easy to crack, after all, I haven't even spoken to that person, you know?

And I would have been hurt by my family so much, and I actually knew that if my parents had said a word for me at that time, or that they jumped up or blamed the boy, they shouldn't have been so stubborn, then nothing, you know?

Fortunately, in the end, the young man was relatively kind, and his family conditions were relatively good, so he felt that he couldn't catch up with me and marry a wife.

Are you ridiculous, you say? When I was in high school, my high school was not very good, and there were many boys who were very poor at studying, and the reason why they were in school was because they were ordered by their parents to let a girlfriend come back at school, saying that there were few girls now, and they were afraid that their son would be a bachelor in the future.

As for me, as a girl, I study hard just to go to school, and I do well in my studies, but my parents don't want to, obviously I don't need them to spend money, and they don't want to.

Do you know how tragic it was when I was fighting for the opportunity to go to school, and you know how tragic it was?

But so what? A group of people who didn't know what was going on or who knew what was going on jumped up and accused me of scolding me, saying that I was ignorant and unfilial.

Saying that my parents raised me for nothing, how about it, saying that my parents didn't harm the children, they didn't let me go to school, they didn't have a choice, all kinds of things.

So to be honest, I don't think I'll be happy in the future, how can I be happy?

Where was I really being bullied, my mom and dad jumped up and turned to others, and then, all the public opinion would accuse me of what to do?

Do you think I'm happy? Just like when I committed suicide, I knew that suicide was the most helpless and the most wretched thing, but I was really cornered by them.

Obviously, I was a victim, but everyone jumped up and accused me, especially my sister and my mother, and they were all caught by my dad that time.

Obviously I was an adult at the time, and when Ming Ming was in college, there were many, many people who were in love, but I couldn't.

Perhaps, this puppy love is really not good, but why did they treat me like this? Am I their own, too?

As far as my brother is concerned, they think that boys may take advantage of that kind of thing, as long as they bring their little girlfriend to the house, my parents will entertain them with delicious food and drink.

So how do you think it's possible for someone like me to be happy? was so blamed by my parents and slandered.

If something really happens, those people will say, "Your father and your mother say that about you, then what about you, isn't it clear what your true virtue is?"

There will even be people who say, there is no wind and no waves, I will not be treated like that by them if I have done nothing wrong, I must have done something wrong, and their ugliness should not be publicized, and I don't want to say it to the public. ”

Han Duoduo smiled bitterly, even if he had too much, he knew that he had always thought that he had nothing, and he would always be the little girl who sat on the steps in the middle of the night, hugging her knees tightly and crying bitterly.

It's so desperate, it's so helpless, it's so lonely.

Obviously, all my relatives are there, but I have always felt that I am lonely and helpless, and I have always felt that I am an orphan.

There are parents and younger brothers at home, and I will always be the one who has many places, and I even say that I should be the one who does not exist.

I remember when I was a child, I was frightened by watching a horror story, and then I wanted to go to my parents' and my brother's room.

But my father and mother and my brother disagreed, and they disliked what they disliked, but then they were so frightened that they sat quietly all night on a chair in that room, and slipped out when the day was just dawn.

I knew how much they hated themselves, and they didn't want to be with them, even though it was winter, and I was very young at the time.

But that's not okay, and that's only then that I feel that I will always be superfluous in that family.

A lot of the time, it's mom and dad who are with their younger brother, laughing and laughing, and they may not talk at that time.

Or that they are a family of three eating good things together, and they just sit there in a daze, but no one gives it to them.

I remember when I was a child, everyone went to work, they were all tired, and then my father went out to buy popsicles, and the three of them bought three popsicles without their own.

I was young at the time, and I didn't know anything, so I quarreled with them and cried, and then they were ignorant, and then the popsicle was thrown half by my father to himself.

As for himself, knowing that the popsicle, the half of the popsicle was completely melted, and he didn't eat a bite, just cried for a long, long time.

At that time, I knew that as far as they were concerned, they were just blood, but they were definitely not relatives, if it really mattered.

That's the creditor and the debtor, because they have raised themselves, and they owe them.

So I had to do a lot of housework when I was very young, but I didn't get a word of praise.

His mother always said that he was cold, but he knew that his little self at that time wished to say more words to him, and how much he wished to see his smiling face.