Xingan said, "I came in a hurry, and I haven't spoken to them yet." ”

"Cheng Yan's father doesn't know?"

"I don't know."

Counselor Meng moved his lips, and finally couldn't bear to blame anything, so he didn't ask her again.

……

When she arrived at the hospital, after the winding aisle, Senator Meng took her to a ward, the door was guarded, and before she spoke, Xin Gan kept mentally preparing to imagine if he was the same as last time.

Senator Meng said: "He's inside, you can go in and have a look." ”

Xingan nodded, his lips trembling.

Two people at the door pushed the door open and let her in.

Cheng Yan sat on the chair, leaning against the window, facing away from the direction of the door of the ward, took a book and read it, he was in a very good state, and it didn't seem that there was anything wrong.

Hearing the sound of the door opening, Cheng Ji thought that the doctor was coming, and he didn't look back, and continued to read his book.

Xin Gan stared at the back of his head and shouted, "Cheng Jiu? ”

Hearing the voice, Cheng Ji turned around, saw Xin Gan, frowned, remained silent, seemed to be pondering, and only said for a long time: "Why are you here?" ”

This tone seemed to be unhappy that she came to see him.

Xin Gan stood in place, hesitated for a while, and said in a relaxed tone: "I haven't been able to contact you, and I'm a little worried, so I came to look for you without permission, but you're not in the team, so I'll ask Staff Chief Meng to bring me to see you." ”

Xingan was afraid that he would think too much and lied.

She pretended not to know about him, and faced him calmly and naturally.

"Is there anything else you're uncomfortable with?"

Cheng Yan put down the book, stood up, and shook his head in front of her, he was wearing a hospital gown, his lips were a little white, and his mental state was fine.

Xingan breathed a sigh of relief when he saw that he could still stand, his limbs were sound, his appearance was not broken, and there were no obvious injuries on his body.

Luckily, at least it doesn't look like a big deal.

Cheng Yan didn't answer, his voice was colder: "You are wearing too little." ”

She looked down at her thick puffer jacket, there were already quite a few of them, and the whole person was wrapped in a circle.

It's just that the eyes are a little red, and it is obvious that he has cried.

Cheng Zhen was beating the drum in his heart, not sure if she knew something, he beckoned to her with a soft expression.

Xin Gan tensed his nerves, and after seeing him beckoning to him again, his eyes suddenly became hot, and he hurriedly threw himself into his arms, smelling the familiar smell on his body, and couldn't help but hug him tightly.

"I'm going back soon, why are you still here, what, are you planning to stay here for the New Year?"

He teased, his broad palm touching her hair.

Xin Gan said in a muffled voice: "It's okay, it's not impossible." "Come to think of it, he won't be able to go back for the New Year this year, so it doesn't matter if she stays.

Cheng Jushou paused, a little impatient, he couldn't control it, he didn't want her to stay, he sniffed and said, "Silly or not, it's cold here, what's so fun, it's lively to go home for the New Year." ”

"But you haven't been home for the New Year for several years."

"What's this?"

"For the first time this year, I want to spend the first year with you." She's serious.

Cheng Zhen licked his lips, thinking that if she stayed, it would be inevitable to see him doing the healing process, it would be very troublesome, this was not a glorious thing.

"Don't be, there will be time in the future, you can stay for a few days and go back."

Xin Gan was stunned for a moment, bit his lip and did not speak, and let go of his hand in silence.

Cheng Jiu's hand fell into the air, and he also took it back, and reached out to pat her shoulder and arrange her hat.

The sleeve slipped to his arm, revealing a strong arm, and there were a few small pinhole marks on the arm, and he noticed it quickly, and immediately lowered his hand to prevent her from seeing it.

Xingan didn't notice it, and looked into his eyes again: "Are you driving me away again?" ”

He was silent for a while, and was silent for a long time before he spoke: "How do you use the word, it seems that I often drive you away." ”

Xin Gan pulled a smile, a little flattering to him: "Then don't let me go back, I want to accompany you." ”

"Xingan ......"

Xin Gan was really about to cry, very aggrieved, her eyes were red, her nose was sour, she lowered her head, carefully held his palm, and her voice was choked: "When I said I didn't get along with you, you had to post it, I want to stay with you now, and you want to drive me away, I knew it was like this, I wouldn't be with you, I immigrated, went abroad, and never came back." ”

Cheng Zhen looked at her aggrieved expression, and was also uncomfortable, and when he heard her last sentence, his expression immediately changed, and he said: "It's all my fault, I won't drive you away, don't say it, be good, don't cry." ”

……

Xin Gan stayed as he wished, didn't go anywhere, and guarded him in the ward.

After being tired of crooking for a while, Cheng Zhen hugged her and asked, "Do your parents know that you are coming?" ”

"Which one are you talking about?"

Cheng Zhen pinched her face: "Which other parents can it be, of course it is the father-in-law and mother-in-law." ”

"I don't know yet."

Cheng Yan said solemnly: "You just ran over alone?" ”

"En......"

Cheng Zhen wanted to murder her, but he was reluctant, so he reached out and pinched her earlobe, clasped the back of her head, and whispered, "I'm worried about you." ”

Xingan shook his head: "It's okay if you're fine." ”

Cheng Jiu's face was a little strange, and he said vaguely, so he didn't mention it.

Cheng Zhen wasn't sure how much she knew, maybe she didn't know, maybe she knew.

Forget it, whether you know or don't know, in short, he won't let her regret it.

……

Xingan also knows a little bit, that is, the thing he dyed, it should be related to his mission this time, how he dyed it, not the point, she just needs him to live.

If he is really infected and can't quit, she is willing to bear it with him, no matter what the consequences are.

It was decided on her way here.

……

Cheng Zhen was actually afraid that she would be affected by him when she came over, so he asked her to go back and not stay.

The two of them had their own hearts and did not confess to each other.

The doctor came to examine Cheng Ji, and Xin Gan consciously left the ward and waited outside.

In the ward, the doctor gave Cheng Ji a physical examination and asked him about the situation of the day, whether he had any seizures, and whether there would be times when he couldn't control his emotions.

Cheng Zhen said yes, when Xin Gan came, he felt a little irritable, and quickly realized that he had pressed down.

"This is a normal emotional reaction, not the sequelae of the drug, but you have to start exercising tomorrow, exercise more, eat more, and if you can't control it, give us feedback in time."

"You have good physical fitness, strong will, as long as you persevere, you can get rid of the control of that medicine, don't worry too much, it's not so scary."

Cheng Zhen knew that thing better than anyone else, and the doctor was helping him quit, and the process was a little painful, but he could bear it.

But if you get dyed with that thing, it will affect your body to some extent, and it will leave sequelae.

After the examination, the doctor was about to leave, but Cheng Ji stopped him and said, "There is something I need your help with." ”

"You said it would help if you could."

"Don't tell the girl outside about me, she doesn't know, I don't want her to know."

"Yes, that's what Staff Meng meant." The doctor understood the situation and did not ask much.

"Thank you."

"You're welcome, that's what we should do."

……

In fact, Cheng Zhen was worried that it would be redundant, Xin Gan would not ask the doctor, he was unwilling to say, she would not force him to make it clear.

It's not easy to come back alive.

After the doctor left, Xingan sorted out his emotions and pushed the door open and entered, he was wearing a coat, and when he saw her coming, he said: "Help me scratch the itch, my back suddenly itches, my arm has no strength, I can't reach it." ”

Xingan said yes.

"Stick it in from your neck."

"Okay." Xingan did so.

Her hands were cold, so she rubbed them hot before reaching in.

Cheng Zhen said: "A little to the left, and then down, yes, that's it." ”

The posture of the two people was a little weird, and Xin Gan concentrated on helping him tickle it, without thinking too much.

Someone suddenly pushed the door open and came in, without saying hello, and the next second saw the two of them in this posture and was stunned.

"I'm sorry, you keep going, I'll come back later."

Xin Gan hurriedly retracted his hand, put his back behind his waist, his face was red, and he was very embarrassed.

Cheng Yan was a little unhappy, his brows furrowed, and he stopped him: "Come back, just say something about it." ”

That person was the secretary next to Staff Meng , the secretary coughed, embarrassed to look at Cheng Jiu, and said: "It's Staff Meng who said, your house is cleaned up, Miss Xin can live there, don't accompany you to live in the hospital, she is a girl, it's not very convenient, let you not stay too late." ”

Cheng Ji waved his hand: "Got it, you can go." ”

When the secretary left, Xin Gan said to Cheng Jiu, "Actually, don't bother Uncle Meng, I can stay in a nearby hotel, so it is convenient to come to the hospital." ”

"So reluctant to me?" He has no skin and no face.

Xin Gan slowed down and said, "Well, I can't bear it." ”

If it had been before, Xingan would definitely not admit it, let alone say it.

The fact that she can say such intimate words to him directly shows that she has him in her heart.

Cheng Yan reached out and grabbed her wrist and pulled it into his arms.

It wasn't cold in the ward, there was heating, and Xingan took off his coat and put his hands through his ribs and hugged him tightly.

There was silent silence, and the two rubbed against each other, both greedy for the temperature in each other's arms at the moment.

……

Xingan's family sent a text message to report her safety, saying that she was in Beiyu and would return home after a while.

The meaning of coming to Beiyu is to come to find Cheng Zheng.

She was afraid that her family would be worried, so she didn't tell them what happened to Cheng Jiu, but this is not easy to say, and she doesn't want to tell others, including her family.

She's in the maintenance process.

During the time when he was with him in the hospital, people often came to Cheng Jiu, and they talked about things, but Xin Gan consciously avoided it and did not take the initiative to ask.

Xin Gan understands very well that many things are actually very sensitive, especially the fact that Cheng Ji was infected with this thing.

Xin Gan checked the relevant information on the Internet, and after reading it, it was like being in the ice and snow, and he was chilled.

She handed over the work in the studio to the assistant, and she devoted herself to accompanying Cheng Yan in Beiyu.

During Cheng Jiu's time in the hospital, in fact, no one came to see it, as if the situation did not allow it, and Staff Director Meng was also very busy, occasionally called Cheng Jiu, asked him about his situation, learned that there was nothing abnormal, and told him not to take it lightly.

Cheng said he knew.

The New Year is approaching, Cheng's father called, and Cheng Zhen answered.

Cheng Ji walked outside the ward to pick it up, obviously there were some things that could not be said in front of Xin Gan.

Xin Gan was peeling apples in the hospital room, and he couldn't help but lose his mind, and when he didn't pay attention, he injured his finger and bled out.

She frowned in pain, and hurriedly went into the bathroom to turn on the faucet to flush the water.

Outside the ward, Cheng's father said on the phone: "Staff Chief Meng said that your condition is not bad, Cheng Jiu, don't worry about the affairs at home, treat with peace of mind, and also tell Xin Gan, if it is inconvenient to come back this year, I will celebrate the New Year in Beiyu, and I will talk to the Xin family." ”

"Don't put too much pressure on yourself, take care of your illness, if you can't continue to do it, it's okay......"

……

Cheng Yan came back after answering the phone, Xin Gan just walked out of the bathroom, smiled at him, and said, "I've cut the apples, do you want to eat some?" ”

Cheng Yan walked over to her, didn't hold back, lowered his head and kissed it, and said vaguely: "Only the two of us have celebrated the New Year this year, I have wronged you, Xin Xin." ”

Xin Gan was out of breath and put his hands on his shoulders: "It's okay, we still have a lot of time...... Don't worry about ......"

……

Cheng Jiu's recovery was good, and he basically didn't let Xin Gan see the very painful process, and he successfully detoxified, but the whole person also lost weight, and his facial features became more and more profound and hard.

The doctor said that he could be discharged from the hospital and go home for treatment, basically no need to rely on medication, and then, as long as he could restrain himself, there would be no big problem.

It's not easy to refrain from it.

Cheng Zhen himself understands.

The two of them returned to the family home of the team, and Staff Chief Meng asked someone to buy some daily necessities, but Cheng Yan refused, and he drove to buy it back, just two people, the cost was not much, and it was quickly completed.

It was snowing and cold outside, and there were few people on the road.

Counselor Meng's daughter-in-law also came to Beiyu to accompany him for the New Year, wrapped dumplings, and gave them to Cheng Yan and the two of them to eat.

There are too many packets, Cheng Ji put them in the refrigerator, and then take them out to thaw when he wants to eat them.

Xin Gan didn't know about this, she looked at the refrigerator and asked Cheng Jiu, and only then did she know who sent the dumplings.

When I took it out and boiled it, it turned into a mush.

Cheng Yan sighed in disgust: "This must be made by Staff Chief Meng himself, if it is my sister-in-law's bag, it will never be pasted." ”

Xin Gan laughed helplessly: "Don't shake the pot, dumplings are only delicious when they are fresh, and you spoil other people's dumplings like this." ”

"Wronged me, how long have I known Counselor Meng, and I don't know what the dumplings he made looked like?" said that he was very disgusted and took a large bowl, fished out the dumplings in the pot, washed the pot again, and ran to the refrigerator to get fresh vegetables and meat.

Xingan asked him, "Do you want to cook anything?" That's enough to eat. ”

"You don't want to eat dumplings, I'll fry you some rice."

"Why can't I eat it?"

"It's all mush, I'll just eat it, you eat fried rice." Cheng Ji raised his arms and began to wash and chop vegetables, his actions were done in one go, and he didn't let Xin Gan watch from the side.

Xingan inadvertently caught a glimpse of a few small black spots on his arms, like marks left by pinholes, which looked like they had been gone for a long time and had not faded away.

She pretended not to see and went to the living room to sit.

Cheng Ji returned to the kitchen, suddenly came back to his senses, looked at the skin exposed by the arms he pulled up, and was silent for a long time.

……

When eating, Cheng Jiu's sleeves had been put down, he ate quickly, and soon a big bowl of dumplings bottomed out.

Xingan had no appetite, ate slowly, and didn't dare to look at him.

She thought she was strong, but when she saw the marks on his arm, her heart was followed by bursts of colic, and she was panting in distress.

Finally finished eating, the two of them sat in the living room watching TV, Xin was willing to be absent-minded, tilted his head, leaned on his shoulder, and whispered: "I took your bedspread to wash it this morning, you didn't have a quilt cover tonight, so you can only squeeze it with me." ”

Cheng Yan held the remote control and didn't speak, and his mood fell to the bottom. There were very few times when he was emotionally out of control, never before.

He didn't speak.

Xingan took his palm, comparing it to his own, and did not speak.

"Xingan, I ......"

"You've been rejecting me, I'm not afraid, what are you afraid of?"

Cheng Zhen pursed his lips, not daring to look into her eyes.

Xingan got up slightly, held his palm, and clasped his fingers: "No matter what you look like, I like it, every part of your body is made up of you, because it is you, I can accept it unconditionally." ”

She took the initiative to take his hand and put it on her waist, "I remember what you said last time, you said that you wouldn't let me go next time we met, Cheng Jiu, a manly man, do what you say." ”

Cheng Ji swallowed a few times in silence and did not say anything.

He has no self-confidence, where is there still self-confidence.

Xingan leaned over him and kissed the corner of his mouth: "I miss you, Cheng Jiu, I miss you very much......"

Even if they are together every day, she misses him.

He still didn't react.

Xingan coaxed him, very patient, although she saw the light in his eyes disappearing little by little, as if she was afraid to let her see him like this.

"Cheng Jiu, let me see if you are okay......"

"You're going to be scared and you're going to feel disgusting, don't look at it, okay next time?"

"That's what you think, I don't think so."

Cheng Zhen was dumbfounded: "Xin Gan ......"

Xingan held his face with both hands, her thumb slid over his eyebrows, she lowered her head and kissed the tip of his nose, very reverent and distressed.

"No, none of what you said exists, don't you know what kind of person I am? If I thought you were good, I wouldn't have married you. ”

……

It was snowing outside the window, and it was white.

A horn sounded under the family courtyard, and a loud voice from Counselor Meng came from below, as if he was shouting with a loudspeaker.

I don't know who I'm training.

Their house was on the fourth floor, and they could hear the voices downstairs, especially the loud voice of Senator Meng.

Cheng Yan was distracted by his thoughts, reluctant to leave her, and whispered: "This sound insulation is too poor, I still can't live here for too long." ”

Xin Gan's lips were red, she took a sip, and laughed: "It shouldn't be a sound insulation problem." ”

"What time is it, doesn't he have to spend the night at the old man?"

Xingan lay on top of him, his fingers went around his arm in circles, pinching from time to time, pinching and not moving, it was all muscles.

There was no sound downstairs, and silence returned.

Cheng Yan found a cigarette to smoke, swallowing clouds and spitting fog, squinting, not knowing what he was thinking.

Xingan kissed him on the chin and said, "It's time to shave." ”

There's a little bit of a thorn.

Cheng Zhen said: "Pierced you? ”

"It's a little prickly, itchy."

"What does this mean, masculine!" Cheng Zhen has a young and unappreciative tone, he didn't pay attention to her before he met her, but he should be clean or clean, but he hasn't been disgusted with his beard.

"Why are you so poor, I didn't notice it before."

"Disgusted now? It's late! ”

Xin Gan was amused, her eyes were crooked, as beautiful as a crescent moon, she was really tender, her skin was white and delicate, if she was taken out, she would definitely be talked about as an old cow eating tender grass.