Ten years of marriage is like a gamble, Su Xia lost all her net worth, and even her dignity, sanity and stubbornness.

In April, the imperial capital was already full of spring, and it rained lightly that night, the divorce agreement collapsed, and Chen Xuan once again staged the drama of running away from home and not being heard from. History is always so strikingly similar, but what is very different is Su Xia's state of mind.

"Mom, why doesn't Dad come home?"

"Do you miss your dad?"

"I don't want to ...... Well, kind of thinking. Xibao said quickly but hesitantly.

Su Xia knew that he should be super thinking in his heart, what child doesn't want to have all the love of his parents.

"Dad went on a business trip and will be back after a while." The same old-fashioned excuse. "If you really want to, you can give him a video."

"Well, no...... He shouldn't want me. Xibao said in a voice so low that it was almost inaudible. The child is two years older, he understands the likes and dislikes of adults, and he also learns to disguise.

Su Xia's nose was sour, "Son, that's the case, my father and I talked louder that day because we disagreed on something, so we quarreled, in fact, it's the same as when you and your good friend occasionally have a conflict, last time you didn't have a conflict with Lele, and said that you don't want to be friends with him anymore, my father and I are also friends, and there will be occasional friction between good friends, but they will be reconciled soon." ”

"When will you reconcile with Dad?"

"Probably...... Soon...... "Su Xia is extremely weak-hearted, and it has become a luxury to gather and disperse, so how can I reconcile." But she wants to make a good wish to her child, and she has no right to directly shatter the demands and prayers of a young heart for the well-being of both parents, she can't, and when he can't bear it.

Su Xia has made up her mind about whether she must choose divorce, but she is often in a great contradiction between inner determination and vacillation, she is sometimes resolute and certain, sometimes she is struggling and hesitating, for Su Xia, who is stubborn but has suffered a second betrayal, and at the same time poured ten years of time, all her body and mind, emotions and even every cent of income into this "home", only she knows how painful and devastated, especially when she thinks of the son who may hurt her beloved as life. Every time I see Xibao or happy or sad, a voice in my heart always lingers in the bottom of my heart: How much damage does the lack of father's love do to children? Is it no problem for his mother to give him all the love and the right guidance of life values? Will a broken family affect the child's life? Will a noisy family with unloving parents hurt children more? Do I really have what it takes to raise a child on my own? The cute scene of my son is vivid, so many children! Does marriage have to be love? For the sake of my children, should I turn a blind eye? ……

In the dead of night, Su Xia even reflected and blamed herself: "Why can't I cry, I can not divorce him, I can retreat from my bottom line little by little, I can beg him, even if it is a marriage in name only, as long as this family is still ......" But for Su Xia, she understands that love is not a piece of clothing, it can be sewn after it is broken, love is gone, and the pain and scars will always be there. She can't accept that she has no dignity at all because she preserves her family, and she can't accept that she is forced to become a resentful woman and shrew because of the other party's ugliness!

Su Xia cursed in her heart, "The scum who completely abandoned his family and children when he looked for a woman is not as good as a child!" "Yes, parents are a child's sky, and his sky is half down. He misses his father, and he thinks about it heartbreakingly, but his father has left him behind.

Instead, Su Xia hid her feelings, she wanted to hold up half of the sky, and said with a smile: "How can there be!" No way! Dad must think that you can't think about it, but you will be very busy on a business trip and have no time, you forgot to visit the temple fair during the New Year, and you almost peed your pants and urinated on his neck. "Su Xia is no longer maintaining that scum at this time, maintaining this home that has been riddled with holes, she is maintaining the colorful sunshine in her son's heart.

After speaking, his son giggled, he always laughed very low when he heard stories about, pee and fart, especially the story of an attempt to do bad things, Su Xia was familiar with every point of adjusting his son's emotions, and there was always a flash of inspiration to make him laugh.

"Mom, let's go build the blocks."

"Okay, but you're too hard to match."

"It's okay, it's easy, you can find me parts, let's go." Xibao took Suxia's hand.

"Der, be your assistant." Su Xia was pulled from the bedroom by her son to the carpet play area in the living room, and the carpet was littered with some fire trucks, green, black, white, red, large, and small...... All kinds of parts.

"Mom, give me a black four-panel rectangle."

"I'm looking for ...... To give. ”

"It's not like this, it should be thin, look at this one in my hand, it's exactly the same as this."

"Oh, how do I look the same."

"Found it, give it."

"Mom, you see this drawing looks like this, it needs to be reversed."

……

The light rain outside the window was dripping, and time passed little by little, and a miniature city began to take shape. In the face of so many complicated handmade educational toys, Su Xia sometimes had to admire, how could a child be so patient and fascinated, and could easily understand such a complex step diagram, because she couldn't even understand the drawings. The resistance to looking at any drawings may stem from someone to rely on.

And for Su Xia, who couldn't even understand the children's Lego building drawings, Chen Xuan went out to fool around with mother and son, and in the days when she was dependent on each other, she actually assembled a children's bed, desk, toy rack, and shoe cabinet for her son according to the furniture installation drawings, and she was able to fully integrate into her son's Lego world.

Five-year-old Xibao has completely become a little adult, unlike a year or two ago when he still needed his mother to be by his side all the time, he can already help Su Xia share some of the housework, listen to Su Xia's confiding, and even communicate in an adult tone. For Su Xia, this is a relief, not what he can really do, but to remove a part of the burden from his body, and no longer carry it on his shoulders all the time. Such Su Xia traveled lightly, and even the innocent laughter of "Mom is the best" became her invincible armor.

Put on this armor and open up a new life path for herself and her son.