When we first joined the army, we often mentioned the spirit of sacrifice, and we often talked about the words on our lips about returning the body in horse leather and burying the bones.

But only now is it the first time that I have come so close to death, this despair, this fear, this reality that I have never experienced before.

Some people say that when people are dying, they will see everything in their past like watching a movie, so people can judge whether they have wasted this life or wasted this life, so some people will leave satisfied, while others will die with hatred.

I don't know if I've experienced this kind of scene, but at the moment my mind is full of all kinds of fragments I have experienced in the past 20 years, some happy, some sad, some proud, some embarrassed, and when Qiu Yan entered my mind, I suddenly thought that I was only twenty-four years old, my life had just begun, I still had a lot of things to do, there were still many scenery to see, I couldn't just die, even if there was only a little hope, I had to live.

"Grandma, you said that this medicine has side effects, what are the side effects?" I endured my discomfort and turned to my grandmother.

As if she was reluctant to mention it, she shook her head, still sighing.

"Hey, no matter how big the side effects are, this is the only way for you to survive, just tell you.

In fact, the prescription of this medicine is very simple, the required medicine can be bought in any Chinese medicine store, but these medicines are all cold to yin things, after taking it, your heartbeat and breathing will slow down, to put it bluntly, the effect of this medicine is to make your body as close to the dead as possible, because only the dead can get rid of the three souls and six spirits.

Also, during this period, you should not eat, drink, and move as little as possible, only in this way, with the help of medicine, can you prolong your life as much as possible. ”

Hearing this, I somewhat understood that what my grandmother meant was that from now on, I had to try my best to become a dead person, and I could not do all the basic activities of a living person except breathing.

I pondered for a while, don't you have to eat and drink in life? And then there's play, women, huh? Woman! Shouldn't that mean that there is no such thing as a ban?

I glanced at my grandmother, and I was embarrassed to ask, and finally thought that if I really lived for a few decades as my grandmother said, it would be better to live happily for a few years, otherwise it would be too embarrassing.

However, even if I want to live, I can live as a normal person, so the most important thing now is to let my grandmother boil medicine for me.

"Grandma, I know, don't worry, I will strictly abide by what you say, but I'm too uncomfortable now, so I'd better trouble you to boil me a side medicine!"

My grandmother was stunned, "What I just said is just a taboo, and I haven't said the side effects!" ”

"Oh yes, what do you say are the side effects?"

Grandma sighed again and said: "After taking this medicine, you will not be considered a living person, your body will gradually wither like a dead person, you will find that you age faster than ordinary people, and your body will weaken quickly, although I don't know what the final result will be now, but I guess that in the end you will become a dry corpse and die of exhaustion." ”

After listening to my grandmother's words, I was stunned, isn't this result the same as the result of the Qiu family?

"Aunt Zu, isn't what you just said the result of the Qiu family? Could it be that I'm just like them, some kind of curse? I asked.

Grandma shook her head, "Although your results are similar, but they are different, they became like that when they were poisoned or cursed, and you took the initiative to drink medicine to become like that, in addition, the Qiu family can only live to be fifty years old, and if you strictly follow what I say, your lifespan will be about the same as that of a normal person." ”

"No, Grandma, don't you drink this kind of me every night? Why am I seeing you so well? ”

Aunt Grandma was obviously flustered for a moment, and then she said secretly: "My situation is different, I will tell you when I have the opportunity in the future, now that you know the contraindications and consequences of taking this medicine, are you sure you still want to drink it?" ”

After my grandmother finished speaking, I fell into silence, I have to say that the price that my grandmother said is indeed too great, this is almost depriving a normal person of all the fun, if you live like this, it is better to die happily.

But if I don't drink medicine, then my body can't recover, even if I can eat, drink and have fun, but in this state for a few years, what is the difference with the way of life that my grandmother said?

Suddenly, I was caught in a dilemma.

"Grandma, is there really no way to do this disease except for drinking this medicine?" I asked in frustration.

My grandmother's face was solemn and she looked at me with a pitiful look, "So far, I haven't found a way, even this medicine is something I have prepared with great difficulty." ”

"Just because you haven't found a way doesn't mean you can't do it, right?" I asked, with the last shred of hope.

My grandmother didn't seem to expect me to ask, and she looked at me in surprise, then smiled appreciatively.

"Yes, you're right, just because I can't find a way doesn't mean you can't find a way, although this road will be long and difficult, but it's by no means a dead end, Zimu, you can think so, my grandmother is very happy."

After receiving encouragement from my grandmother, I made up my mind and said, "Okay, I've decided, drink the medicine!" ”

My grandmother smiled, patted me on the shoulder, and said, "Then you lie down first, and when Ling'er comes back, I will ask her to boil medicine for you." ”

After that, my grandmother helped me back to bed, she covered me with the quilt, and then left the room.

After my grandmother left, I thought about it again.

Although my grandmother made it very clear about drinking medicine just now, she avoided talking about why she drank medicine and why she drank medicine but did not have the consequences she said, which obviously proves that my grandmother still has an unspoken experience, and what I can't figure out is that since we are sick and sympathetic, and we are blood relatives, why didn't she tell me?

Also, she just said that if she can't find a way, it doesn't mean that I can't find a way, so she can tell me the front and back, and then let's find a way together, isn't the strength of two people greater than that of one person?

When I was in Poyang Lake before, I thought that I would get answers when I came back, but I didn't expect that after I came back, there were more and more questions.

I didn't realize until now that the past between my grandmother and Jiang Lieyang was definitely not what she told me, and her true identity was very suspicious, the relationship between her and Chen Fangyuan's gang, and her reputation on the Yangtze River, were different from what she told me, and even the relationship between her and Huang Yueling may not be what I saw.

I was lying on the bed and thinking, when suddenly my phone rang, and it was Qiu Yan calling.

Qiu Yan's voice didn't sound very good, she first greeted a few words, then asked her grandmother, and then talked about it, and couldn't find a topic at all.

I could hear that Qiu Yan had something to say to me, but she seemed embarrassed to say it.

"Qiu Yan, is something happening? Why am I not happy to hear your voice? ”

Sure enough, Qiu Yan was silent on the phone for a while, and then said: "Something happened to my family, Xiang Wei turned against our family!" ”

I was stunned after listening to it, Xiang Wei turned against the Qiu family? How can it be? The Qiu family is his benefactor, and Xiang Wei doesn't look like a white-eyed wolf? Is it because of me and Qiu Yan?

"What's going on?"

"Hey, if you have nothing to do, just come to the hotel, let's meet, I just want to find someone to talk about it."

At this time, I didn't care about my physical discomfort, and I got up and wanted to go out.

My grandmother heard what I was doing, ran over to take a look, and asked me why I was going.

I explained while dressing: "Something happened to Qiu Yan's family, I'll go over and take a look." ”

Who knew that my grandmother seemed to be relieved, she pressed me back to the bed and said, "Something happened to her family, but your body has not recovered yet, and it is not too late to go back after drinking the medicine." ”

As soon as I heard that my grandmother meant as if she knew what was going on, I asked, "Do you know that something happened to her family?" ”

Grandma smiled, "It's all about the mall, and I also overheard a few words." ”

"What the hell is going on?"

"I heard that someone sued the Qiu family, saying that the Qiu family had done some illegal things in the territory, so the funds of the Qiu family were frozen, and now their family is being investigated."

Hearing this, I combined with what Qiu Yan said, and thought about things roughly.

It is estimated that Xiang Wei was dissatisfied with Qiu Yan's attitude towards him, and then he was not very willing to the Qiu family to interfere in his own company, so he reported the Qiu family.

Thinking of this, I couldn't sit still.

"No, grandma, I have to go over and take a look, listen to Qiu Yan's voice, she is in a bad mood, I'm afraid something will happen if I'm late." I said as I stood up again.

At this moment, Huang Yueling walked back with two large buckets of water, the tears on her face were not dry, and she retreated back after entering the room and seeing her grandmother.

"Ling'er, come in!" Aunt Grandma hurriedly stopped Huang Yueling.

Huang Yueling was like a maid in ancient times, standing beside her grandmother after coming in, bowing her head and not saying a word.

"It's just grandma's fault, I don't blame you for boiling the medicine, grandma apologizes to you."

As soon as Aunt Zu's words came to this, the corners of Huang Yueling's mouth immediately twitched, and tears kept falling down like beads off the thread, but she stubbornly didn't let herself make a sound, like a child, crying and shrugging her body.

"Okay, grandma is to blame for this, grandma didn't figure out the situation and got angry, don't be wronged. By the way, you go to boil Zimu again, he drank it and went out for a while, I don't worry about him alone, you accompany him to go. ”

Huang Yueling wiped away her tears, said "um" and trotted out of the room.