Yishu wrote in the novel "Divorce": "It seems that once a divorce occurs, a woman is no longer a woman, but becomes a monster, with horns on her head, scales on her body, and maybe a mouth will spew fire." "Even the servants are disgusted.

Today, society has progressed, and the divorce rate has been rising, but the prejudice against divorce in society has never been eliminated. If a divorced woman is depressed and washes her face with tears every day, others will say, "Look, how miserable it is to be abandoned by men!" If she is radiant and happy every day, then someone else will say, "That woman must have someone outside." "This is the prejudice against divorced women, which has never gone away, only how many and how severe.

"Hey, I heard that Wang Jingyi has been divorced a long time ago and will take care of the children by herself."

"Really?"

"I think so, you see that she never mentioned her husband, and she also took her daughter when she went abroad."

"I think she's fake."

"Last time, she didn't report the personal matters of our financial payment of individual income tax, and the overall situation was not reported by two people, so she was there."

"What does this have to do with individual income tax declaration?" Su Xia couldn't help but ask when she heard it.

She just went to the finance to fill out some reimbursement forms, just in time for this whispering "earnest meeting" in the afternoon. Because Su Xia has a good relationship with the financial department, and they all know that Su Xia is a person who is extremely strict and will not talk nonsense, so he did not shy away from Su Xia, and several people continued to share their "inside information" and "exclusive analysis" word by word.

"Silly you, you need to fill in your marital status." In the eyes of the experienced and "discerning" eldest sister, Su Xia's problem is too "superficial".

Su Xia took a long breath, fortunately, she hadn't gone through the divorce procedures when she declared in May and June last year, otherwise a small filling in the information would soon be known to the whole unit.

"Or Zhao Ju likes it so much."

"No, they're so beautiful."

"At the last meeting, I heard that it was just a single room for the two of them."

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Su Xia knew that the meeting they were talking about, and the actual situation was very different from what they said, but the rumors could only intensify. Because everyone is happy to be a rumor-booster, not a wise man who stops abruptly, in order to add some fun and color to the mundane work, and cheating and divorce are undoubtedly the best talking points.

Su Xia had palpitations and worries, would one day he be at the center of public opinion and become the talk of others?

During the winter vacation after the year, various childcare classes were not open, Su Xia went to work, and Xibao was taken care of by her mother Xia Qin. Grandma Jin Yahui can't be counted on, and she has been shirking it for physical reasons since she was born, and she has become even more bland after the official divorce.

One day after work, because Xibao watched cartoons excessively, it caused a dispute between Su Xia and Ms. Xia Qin.

"He can't watch cartoons for that long, his eyes will be bad!"

"He has to see it himself!"

"How many times have I said that he is a child and needs to be disciplined and restrained by adults." Su Xia was a little angry, and when it came to some problems, such as playing games and not drinking water...... Just say that you can't manage it, but not that you are conniving, blindly satisfying your children or trying to save time and effort, adults and children are happy.

"I can't take care of it! I can't even control you! Who can I manage! As she spoke, Ms. Xia Qin became excited.

"Say Xibao, what are you doing with me."

"If I hadn't seen you like this, I wouldn't have come!"

"What's wrong with me?!" Su Xia was completely enraged by this sentence, it turned out that the person she had always thought was safe and strong, but in the eyes of others, it was just "look at you like this"! The person who said this was none other than his parents, who thought they were firmly supportive and trusting of themselves! It turns out that from the day of the divorce, others should have thought that you were pretending to be happy, hiding your sorrow, or really sad, but you didn't know it.

"What do you say! You're forty years old, and you have a son, what will you do in the future! Mom even whimpered a little at this point.

Su Xia's heart softened, and she understood the deep worries and uneasiness about Su Xia's future under the appearance of her parents' ignorance, and the guilt of her parents swept over her heart, and she said easily and eloquently: "First of all, Ms. Xia, I am not forty, I am thirty-six!" In addition, even at the age of forty, the age of forty has faded from the youthfulness and recklessness of the twenty or thirty years old, I think it is the best years of my life, and I now have independent judgment and the ability to support myself, and I am very satisfied; A son is just right, there is companionship in life, and men are unreliable, except for my dad, of course, except for his temper, haha. ”

"Does it stink? It's stinking to death! I can live with him for the rest of my life, I don't believe you let him try someone else. Ms. Xia Qin suddenly came to her senses.

"Yes, that's why you're excellent!"

"Don't hold it here, you, what can I do in the future." Ms. Xia Qin sighed as she set up the prepared dinner.

The current Su Xia is undoubtedly tragic and tragic in the eyes of her parents, a woman who is nearly forty years old is divorced in middle age, has no future in her job, and is raising a young son alone in the metropolis, which parent would not worry.

"Why can't you see your husband all the time?" The neighbor asked suspiciously, a stay-at-home mother of two children about thirty-five years old. The eldest and Xibao were born in the same year and are half a year apart, so they often play together.

"Oh, he's on a business trip, he's stationed abroad."

"Don't you come back for the New Year?" The neighbor continued to ask, his face full of disbelief or knowingness.

"Yes, their project is overseas, and they only come back once in a few years." Su Xia prevaricated with reasons that he had imagined countless times in advance, including how to reply by thinking of various details.

During the Spring Festival when Chen Xuan was away from home, Su Xia only went back to his parents for thirty or one or two days of the new year, and he would return home in the afternoon of the first day of the new year to escape the strange eyes and interrogations of the seven aunts and eight aunts. I officially went through the divorce procedures this year, but I simply didn't go back. Whether or not to go through the formalities is still different in my heart, although this person has disappeared for several years. When I told my parents a few years ago, my parents didn't say anything, and then they took the initiative to come to Su Xia's house for the Spring Festival this year, so the whole family spent a lively Spring Festival with Su Xia at Su Xia's house. The neighbor on the other side of the door didn't see Chen Xuan as expected.

"Oh, it's not easy for you." Although the neighbor is said to have two children, she is at home full-time, has a live-in aunt, and her parents often come to help, so in her opinion, the lonely Su Xia should be extremely hard.

The gossip of colleagues, the inquiries of neighbors, and the worries of parents may be unintentional or concerning, but they all have a pair of colored glasses for divorce, like a dagger stabbing Su Xia's already overloaded heart.

Su Xia has no intention of hiding her current life status and marital status from anyone, as far as the current Su Xia is concerned, although she is still so eager for a happy married life, she no longer thinks that marriage is a necessary way of life for life, there can be thousands of forms of life, and there is no single standard and definition of happiness. But Su Xia really can't predict and judge how destructive the separation of parents and family breakdown is to a child, Su Xia has no experience and feelings to refer to, so she can only do her best to maintain and fill the illusion of "love", even in the face of neighbors and colleagues...... doubts and "gossip...... Just to maintain the childlike innocence under "Carmen", which is no different from others.

It's the same, it seems easy, but it's actually difficult. A happy childhood can heal a lifetime of pain, and an unhappy childhood should be healed with a lifetime, lest it be different from others, and bury inferiority complex and hatred in a young heart. Su Xia often pondered: "Who can guarantee it, how much effort it takes, and how much luck it takes to keep it from the public trajectory of society, no different from people." ”

After a day of work, the full and tired Su Xia looked at the sleeping Xibao, and said in her heart: "I hope that I can do my best to cover the sunshine and colors of your childhood, and I also hope that you will give me the courage and strength to tell the world in the future." ”