Chapter 105 - Becoming the kind of person you don't want to be
Thinking about it like this, Fu Zichen slowly calmed down, the matter between him and her was definitely not that simple, he didn't care before, after this, he would play this so-called lover game with her.
After figuring it out, there is still a reason to see Su Manyu again, and it is such an upright reason, Fu Zichen's anger just now, and the unknown pain slowly disappeared.
Standing up, maybe he had sat for too long, or he had drunk too much wine, and his hands and feet were a little weak, and at the moment when he just stood up, Fu Zichen's whole body shook a little. When Han Zichuan saw it, he immediately went over to help him. Fu Zichen shook his head to signal that it was okay: "Take care of Gu Yiyan, I'm fine." I'll go back first, and we'll meet again next time. After speaking, he closed his eyes vigorously, and then opened them, his eyes were much clearer, and his expression was more resolute.
Suman, this game has just begun. This time, it's up to me to set the rules!
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Suman, who has always liked the big bed the most, is now lying on an empty big bed, and for the first time he feels that this bed is too big. The big one made her feel cold all over, too big for her to reach the border. It's as if the whole person is immersed in the sea, and there is no sense of security.
Tightly curled up in the quilt, a pair of godless eyes open, little by little waiting for time to pass quietly. From the sun going down to the bright moon in the sky, and then to the morning sun, the whole night passed.
Originally, Su Manyu felt very tired, thinking that as long as he lay in bed, he could fall asleep, and as long as he fell asleep, he didn't have to think about anything. But she didn't expect it, but stared at the sky outside slowly brightened, the sun came back, and she didn't fall asleep, even if it was only for a while.
Fu Zichen was often not at home before, and when she was alone, she still slept until dawn, didn't even dream, and slept peacefully all night. Why not now?
Because he was lying upright on the bed, his body was a little numb, Su Manyu blinked, but found that his eyes were so dry that there was basically no way to close them.
She didn't relax for a second throughout the night, even if she told herself again and again to relax and rest, even if she wasn't sleepy, it wasn't good for the child in her belly, but she couldn't close her eyes.
Maybe she didn't dare, not that she couldn't, because once she closed her eyes, she would remember what Fu Zichen said when he suddenly appeared yesterday and his expression at that time.
Song Miao has said many times, it is too strange for her and Fu Zichen to be together, he is a proud and domineering man in his bones, and he must not be able to bear to be deceived and fooled by women, so they must not be able to, Su Manyu felt that she was right on the surface, but it was only now that she realized that although she intellectually warned herself to recognize the reality, emotionally, she let herself fall.
It's like when I returned to the apartment that night, I saw Fu Zichen waiting for her. Even if the tone is not good, she is still uncomfortable, but I have to say that the moment she heard his voice, if she didn't restrain herself, she would definitely rush into his arms.
It was precisely because she found her own mood that Su Manyu tried her best to show indifference, at that time she didn't dare to face it, or she didn't give herself a chance to face her heart, and she used some extreme words to warn herself that there was no turning back when she fell in love with someone like Fu Zichen, and if she lost her heart, she was afraid that she would never be able to keep things anymore.
In front of him, she could only do her best to control herself, trying to leave herself a little way out, but now it seemed that this was no longer necessary, because she now understood that she had already fallen when she allowed her private thoughts to tell everyone that the excuse was to retaliate Yayun. She had previously told Song Miao that she was in love with Fu Zichen, and she used the word "love" for the first time with strong feelings. However then she gets scared, so she always rebels and tells herself that she doesn't love him.
naively felt that as long as she insisted in her heart and told herself a few more times, she really didn't love it, but she remembered that she fell in love with Fu Zichen and admitted it in front of Song Miao, but when she met Mrs. Fu later, she was really scared.
Just falling in love with him makes you unbearable, and you let yourself fall into that unbearable situation, doesn't it? Even though she had thought about it before, she really didn't dare to admit it in the face of Mrs. Fu's disgust and Fu Zichen's neglect at that time.
Maybe she had hypnotized herself too successfully before, so she thought she didn't love him anymore. However, after Song Miao warned her repeatedly, it was only now that she realized that everything was just a lie that she had lied to herself.
Obviously, she loves him deep into the bone marrow, and there is no way to get out of it. This is her sorrow, she can actually fight for such a man who began to hate herself, and love so much that she can lose herself.
For so long, she has never bowed her head to anyone in her memories. She thinks she is proud, and this arrogance is not much less than Fu Zichen. But after facing her own heart, she began to think, what is this pride?
Who has said that women are always more emotional than men, especially after encountering love, no woman is completely rational unless she is not really in love.
The biggest difference between a woman and a man is that once a woman falls in love with someone, she will devote herself wholeheartedly, will be desperate, and even put herself in disregard for love, but men will not.
Hearing such remarks before, Suman disdained and even disgusted them. She always felt that women should have their own dignity and arrogance, how could they put themselves in such a low position? In love, two people should be equal.
Until today, Suman Yu knew that one day she would actually become the kind of person she didn't want to be.
She knew that Fu Zichen was angry and felt that she had been deceived. However, if she told him that she loved him, and that the alleged revenge was just an excuse for her tolerating her approach to him, would he forgive her?
Not long ago, Suman developed the habit of touching his belly. I have to touch it from time to time, as if I really touched a child.
I don't know if it's because too much happened, or if she's too sensitive, she's always worried, not because of Fu Zichen, but because of herself, or because of the child, she always feels that this child will leave her. When I was examined in the hospital, the doctor said that the baby was very healthy, but I don't know why she had this feeling, especially recently, only when she touched her belly did she feel real.
Sit up and blink, because of the sourness of long-term fatigue, tears began to flow unstoppably, Su Manyu didn't seem to feel any of these, lowered his head to his stomach, didn't know whether to comfort the child in the belly or comfort himself: "The baby is okay, Mom is fine, wait for Mom to find Dad, explain clearly, and tell Dad that there is a baby, okay?" We'll all be fine. ”
Everything will be fine, it will be fine.
Now that she has made up her mind, no matter what happens, she will explain everything to Fu Zichen, including the night she just came back, the night she was humiliated, which is also the reason why she regained Yayun.
Will he be ...... after knowing everything?
However, no matter what he decides, she still has to try, and if by that time, he still can't forgive her, so he will die.
After making up his mind, Su Manyu got up and prepared to go to Fu Zichen after washing, anyway, he would go back to the company, and when the time came, he would go directly to the company to find him, and he could explain everything clearly.
Before I could enter the bathroom, the phone rang on the big bed. I didn't plan to take it, because at this moment, in Su Manyu's heart, there is nothing more important than seeing Fu Zichen.
However, after hesitating for a while, she took out her phone and glanced at the screen.
That was Su Hongtian's number. She frowned, what was he going to do with himself?
After thinking about it, I came out of the company yesterday without explaining anything, maybe I was looking for myself because of the company's affairs? No matter how capricious Su Manyu is, he doesn't dare to joke with Su Shi.
"Hello? What's wrong......"
"You'll be right back." Before Su Manyu could finish speaking, Su Hongtian interrupted her, his voice was very cold, and there was a hint of anger when he listened carefully.
Where to go back? Firm? But she doesn't have time to go to the company right now, so ......
"I have something to do, so I'm not going to the company today."
"You don't need to go to work, go home now." The more he talked, the more angry he became, and after speaking, he hung up the phone without waiting for Su Manyu to respond.
Listening to the busy sound in the microphone, Suman was a little puzzled for a while, what was going on? How could he suddenly call himself, the man who never took the initiative to let her go back to the Su family didn't care about anything at the moment, didn't ask anything, just such a phone call, what the hell was ......
The first time I heard that Su Hongtian was so anxious, even if Su Manyu had something big, he couldn't do it, and the Su family would definitely go back first.
The moment he entered the bathroom, Suman thought. However, the world is unpredictable. Sometimes, just a turn can have a different outcome.
It was also Suman's decision at this moment that made the subsequent plots appear as a matter of course. Not too early, not too late, just just listening to those words, it was enough to crush all her expectations and love.
As soon as Su Manyu returned to the Su family, he felt that something was wrong, although the Su family became a little deserted for various reasons, but it would never be like this. From the beginning of entering the gate of the Su family, I walked through the front yard full of flowers and plants, and there was no one, as if it was an empty city.
Frowning, he glanced at the location of the garden. Su Manyu had a vague sense that something was about to happen, but she didn't expect that when she entered, she would see such a scene-
Su Hongtian sat on the sofa next to him and sighed in a low voice, Lin Jingmei hugged Su Yayun's shoulders and patted her shoulders from time to time, looking a little domineering as if she was arguing with Su Hongtian about something. It's Su Yayun, who I just saw yesterday, and at this moment she is lying in Lin Jingmei's arms, as if crying......?
In an instant, Su Manyu understood, when he received the call just now, why Su Hongtian's tone was like that, as if he had slapped her before, as if he owed her something, until now, he had never said a word to her like before, but today......