The hour hand pointed to 22:15, and Xi Bao had fallen asleep. Halfway through the bedtime story of "I Am a Tyrannosaurus Rex", the blurry little eyes closed unobediently, and the soft and gentle breathing was under the thick eyelashes. A day of kindergarten life, running and playing with his friends after school has exhausted the energy in his small body.

Since it is the initial adaptation stage of sleeping in separate rooms, Su Xia needs to be coaxed to sleep every night. Su Xia put the storybook aside, gently moved the stout little arm that was hanging on her waist to prevent her from slipping away and stuffed it into the corner of the quilt, and when she got up to go back to her bedroom, she only heard the sound of "click" opening the door lock, and Chen Xuan came back.

Su Xia quickly closed the door of her son's bedroom, draped in a thick cotton nightgown, the winter night was still a little cool, and tiptoed towards the atrium. Chen Xuan was putting down the black briefcase at the shoe cabinet in the foyer, and inserted the size 44 leather shoes diagonally into the shoe cabinet partition. Because Chen Xuan's shoe size is too large, the space at the door is limited and the depth is very narrow, Su Xia specially customized a beige European-style pattern shoe cabinet with an inclination of nearly 60 degrees, which is integrated with the other furniture in the house.

"Why are you coming back so late these days?"

"At the end of the year, all kinds of meetings, especially we are responsible for safety, all kinds of inspections at the end of the year. Son asleep? Chen Xuan changed his slippers and put the leather shoes he wore into the shoe cabinet, and said in a low voice with a complacent expression.

"I fell asleep, and I fell asleep in the middle of the story. I go out early and return late every day, and I can't even see my father's figure. ”

"Isn't this a hurry?" Chen Xuan walked to the living room.

Su Xia turned on the slightly dim headlights in the living room, originally only leaving the corridor lights, while pouring the water in the thermos pot into Chen Xuan's exclusive purple sand cup, and asked dissatisfiedly: "It's all the New Year, how can there be so many things, isn't your unit New Year?" ”

"You think they're all as idle as your unit." Chen Xuan retorted angrily. Chen Xuan often laughed at Su Xia's group Xuanke as an idle position, but Su Xia understood how saturated her daily workload was, and how many miscellaneous things there were in the department at the end of the year, especially when Su Xia was seriously understaffed. But Su Xia didn't refute, because there was no point in simply wasting his tongue to refute, and denial did not necessarily lead to affirmation, so he said: "There is warm water in the cup, drink saliva and wash up and go to bed early." ”

"Okay, you go to bed first, I'll just sleep in the living room tonight, so as not to disturb you too late."

"Whatever you want." Su Xia took a sip of warm water, went back to her son's second bedroom, tucked the quilt that Xibao kicked open, and then went back to her bedroom to get ready to sleep.

Counting up, this is the fifth year since Da Xibao was born to sleep in separate beds. At first, Su Xia took her son all night, and chose to sleep in separate beds for fear of affecting Chen Xuan's work during the day, and then he thought that the three of them sleeping together were too crowded and continued to sleep in separate beds, and then gradually got used to not being next to each other. Although Xibao has slowly exercised and can sleep independently, Chen Xuan always has various reasons not to sleep together.

Habits are paralyzing, not should. Susha didn't realize that the marital crisis was approaching or had already come again.

The next day, when I woke up at six o'clock, the living room was empty, and it was empty and silent all around, obviously Chen Xuan had gone to work, except for the two-meter-long fabric sofa and a slight depression in the middle of the pillow indicating that he had come back last night.

Su Xia got up in the gap between squatting in the toilet and used to brush up on the news headlines, and looked at the WeChat circle of friends, only to see Chen Xuan's circle of friends showing a morning glow photo from the perspective of the office on the 14th floor, with a one-word narration "morning", and the bottom end showed 45 minutes ago.

"He's quite relaxed, he goes to work at nine o'clock, and he doesn't know what to do when he goes out so early and returns late." At that time, Su Xia simply thought that Chen Xuan was serious about his work and had a motivated attitude, and he was looking forward to her husband's promotion as soon as possible.

Su Xia hurried to the toilet, washed up, put on simple makeup, changed clothes within thirty minutes, and woke up Xibao, who was still sleeping crookedly on the bed, while choosing clothes, "Xibao, get up!" Otherwise, we'll be late! "Under normal circumstances, except for some wake-up gas and occasional crying on Monday and not wanting to go to school, at other times, as long as you control the time to fall asleep at night, Xibao will get up immediately in the morning, and then change into the clothes that Su Xia has selected and put next to the bed. Su Xia mixed honey lemon warm water, the two of them took a sip, and hurriedly went out.

Send Xibao to the kindergarten first. "Son, quick!" Since parking is prohibited at the entrance of the kindergarten, the car can only be parked on the side of the road two or three hundred meters away from the kindergarten at a time, and then the mother and mother pull each other forward and trot. The security guard at the intersection of the kindergarten always quipped when he saw this: "Mommy is almost late again!" "Yes, only if you don't waste a minute, Su Xia can make sure that she arrives at the unit before eight o'clock goes to work at a fast speed, but Xibao is always the first one in the class to arrive.

Although she was in a hurry, although she couldn't catch up with the sumptuous breakfast in the canteen of the unit no matter how much she could, and she could only take advantage of the work break every morning to eat a bite of bread or make a cup of cereal or something, Su Xia was fortunate and satisfied enough, because she could balance work and take care of her son, she could not spend more than half of her salary to pay her aunt who was not at ease, and she could escape from her mother-in-law to help with all kinds of conflicts. Nothing that can be solved with money is a thing, and in the same way, anything that can be solved by paying is not a thing. Every weekday, day after day, rain or shine.

In fact, Chen Xuan's unit is closer to his son's kindergarten and more convenient, and his work time is exactly an hour later than Su Xia's.

"The kindergarten is near your unit, and it's just a matter of the way for you to pick up and drop off your son."

"I arrive at the unit at six or seven o'clock every day, and he only enters the kindergarten at half past seven, what's wrong with it?"

"The problem is that you don't go to work until nine o'clock, and it's too late to deliver it at half past seven."

"You drive, I walk, why should I send it?"

"The car is for you, you drive it, you send it."

"I don't drive, the roundabout at the entrance of our unit is so congested, and the car is not going fast."

"It's not enough, don't talk about the car in the future. You finish sending it at half past seven, and when you walk to the unit, isn't it only eight o'clock at the slowest pace? ”

"I won't be able to eat breakfast at eight o'clock!" Chen Xuan retorted very seriously, as if he would die if he couldn't eat breakfast.

"I deliver it every day, when can I have breakfast?!" Speaking of this, Su Xia became emotional and said loudly.

Chen Xuan saw that Su Xia was in a hurry, his tone immediately softened, and he said in a gentle tone: "You see that our director arrives before eight o'clock every day, it's not good for me to be late, not to mention that I am walking to send, I am not tired when I walk, my son is tired, and besides, if it suddenly winds, rains, or snows or something, what should I do, is my son not guilty." ”

Su Xia is too lazy to waste her tongue and calculate, maybe a mother is used to taking care of her, and she is servile, so she thinks that everything is within her own right, even if she tries her best to do it.

Chen Xuan is the only son in the family, and his parents are divorced. His father, Chen Wei, and his mother, Jin Yahui, were introduced to each other and got married after a year of love. Mother Jin Yahui is the youngest of the five siblings in the family, Manchu, grew up in the imperial city since childhood, was pampered by her brother and sister, since she was a child, she is also a sense of superiority, not afraid of the eldest lady's temper, extroverted, but also has a ruthless fighting spirit, work ability, interpersonal skills are extremely prominent, but there is some lack of family management and children's education management, and the father is just the opposite, introverted and unsociable, and also opposes his mother's various interpersonal interactions, especially with other members of the opposite sex, so there are constant conflicts after marriage.

When he was three or four years old, his father had no home because he was working in other places, and then his mother cried all kinds of things, and later separated, and often instructed Chen Xuan, who lived with her, to call and scold his father, and directly scolded "Chen Wei, you bastard!" Come to a sticky end....... ”

After marriage, when Chen Xuan and Su Xia mentioned it, they were full of pain, he said: "You know that I was a child at the time, becoming a tool for them and an outlet for my mother, do you know how much pain I had!" ”

"I know." While responding, he hugged Chen Xuan with both hands. The petite and thin Su Xia had enough to hug Chen Xuan's entire waist with her hands in a circle, and her body was buried in Chen Xuan's chest. Comfort is not the covering of volumes, it is the transmission of each other's temperatures.

Su Xia lives in a traditional, happy and complete family, although her father Su Guangchen is as stubborn as a cow, she talks the same, her mother Xia Qin is very chattering, her parents also look down on each other, and they are constantly arguing, but they have never separated, and her sister Su Yu, who grew up with her since she was three years younger, so Su Xia can't feel the great pain and trauma that divorce brings to a child, but seeing Chen Xuan, who is one meter nine, crying in pain, she can deeply feel the darkness and struggle that Chen Xuan buried deep in her heart.

"My mom was very good to me and gave a lot, but I didn't love her and even hated her." Yes, my mother-in-law loves Chen Xuan very much, especially after the divorce, she was deeply shocked, and she always felt that she owed her son something, so she responded to Chen Xuan's requests, and gave meticulous care in life, from cleaning socks and underwear to studying and working. But she didn't realize that she was a victim of marital betrayal and the victim of Chen Xuan's childhood.

"It's all in the past, there are no perfect parents, think about her good, how can you have everything you have now without your mother?" Su Xia was comforted, and it was also her true thoughts.

"I know she's giving a lot, but the trauma is really deep." Chen Xuan continued.

"Yes, how cruel it is for the hatred of parents to be transferred to a child." Su Xia thought a little sadly. The broken marriage is already a harm to the child, how can the child be used as a tool, a mother who is hoarse in pain and even close to madness forces the child to curse her father with her own mouth, sandwiched between the two ends of the dearest, which is tantamount to a thousand cuts for a young child who has lost his father's love! But Su Xia can't even say his true thoughts and opinions. Su Xia has seen too many women in the novel and the news who have become a fool, a madman, and a resentful woman in the face of betrayal. If you don't do anything and don't persuade people to be kind, it's not that the parties are not there and can't be judged, the most important thing is to heal the trauma and look at the sun.

"Well, Mom's life is not easy, let's live well in the future. Don't think about the past, everything is forward! Su Xia cheered up.

"Well, we are now a family, and I will definitely be good to you in the future and will never betray you! I swear! Chen Xuan said with great determination. It is a curse on the trauma of the past and a vow to live faithfully in the future.

"Hmm!" Su Xia nodded heavily, then jumped up with the body attached to his chest, his lips were precisely attached to Chen Xuan's, and the two kissed.

However, all vows cannot survive the washing of time. More and more people left early and returned late, and an ominous premonition, or a familiar feeling, hit Su Xia. No matter how much a person hates the influence of the original family, how to fight against the misfortune of the original family, but that seed has long been sown in his heart, and unconsciously, it grows quietly in a certain situation.

A woman's perception of emotional changes has always been talented, but her complete trust in Chen Xuan, her dedication to her family, and her determination of her feelings anesthetized Su Xia's sense of touch and sobriety. Until the day I went to the hospital.