Reading the book and seeing everyone here, you should know that I am a person who talks a lot of nonsense, not only in the article, but what I say is mainly reflected in the outside of the article, the writer's testimonial. Because I'm always confused about what I'm going to do, and it's becoming more and more obvious as I get older. I'm not just coming to the new environment of the university, I don't have much time to leave this campus, to chase my own life, but when I really face all this, the pressure of Shanda began to press on me, and I have loved so many years in a line, I have been a failure for many years, the author's opponent and parents are readers, so when facing you, when I feel lost, I always can't help but not confide, not to doubt myself.

I've always prided myself on being a good writer, and I think I've done a great job of conceiving a lot of the bridges, and I don't think anyone who sees Kayan can recognize this, but I know how many other wonderful designs I have in my own folder besides Kayan, but I've hit a wall with all of them, and I can't show them to you. But in fact, no matter how good I think it is, or how good a few people think it is useless, a few problems that I can't tolerate have been appearing, and I can't even find a solution. When Ka Yan's book does not meet my expectations, not to mention that the quality of the report card and the quality does not meet my expectations, my self-doubt always cannot help but appear: I think good, is it really good, can I really write well, and even, am I really suitable to be an author?

I'm still young, but I always feel that this generation is actually not long, so the goal that can't be achieved when I'm young, I don't have the courage to guess if I can achieve it if I am given a few more years, so I keep telling myself that I am not young, there is really not much time left for me, what should be done in one or seven years, I don't have the courage to wait until eight, because I am afraid of failure, I don't have the courage to take my youth to fail again.

After reading Ka Yan, everyone should also be able to see that I am not willing to take the road of Xiaobaiwen to earn subscriptions, I want to write something with style and taste to compare with the gods, I basically don't read Xiaobaiwen, and my idol is also greasy and innocent...... No matter how much I write like Xiaobaiwen, there is a heart beating under my words that I am unwilling to do so, I don't care if this road is right or wrong, but for me, a loner, I have been walking for nearly six years, but maybe this is like a child who can't walk and then learns to run, I fell all the way to the point and now can't get up.

If I used to, I would have had more patience to wait for something, but now, I really don't have much courage to wait.

The wandering toad boss told me that online writing is a job of luck, I am just bad luck, I think he may be comforting me, I sometimes feel that I write badly, why do I want others to think that they write well? Besides, what is the use of thinking that I write well, after all, people don't like it...... Or, even if, as the toad said, I am only related to luck, then I may not really be a moldy mold for three years, but a moldy mold for a lifetime?

I don't have the courage to guess this possibility, and the length of time, just like I don't have the courage to guess my future.

The girl I like is going to go to graduate school, she is very good, she is very good, how can I be qualified to stand with her as a street writer? Should I go to graduate school? This is not for my life, at least it is not hanging from a tree, but the last thing I dare to face is the fact that maybe I am dying from beginning to end on the road of being a writer.

The more I liked her, the more irritable I felt.

Cold water, cold water, you are really useless, everyone thinks that you may be a powerful person, never expected that you would go to a nest to see yourself clearly.

In the heat of the moment, I wrote this, sorry for the time of the code word to say this nonsense.

In my heart, I am still willing to be the Monkey King, but I need time to think about whether I am not a supreme treasure with three moles on the soles of my feet from the beginning to the end.