Chapter 19 Mourning is greater than dying

When the heart is calloused, it no longer hurts; When love is dead, it is alive.

The two betrayals and lawsuits and divorces have exhausted Su Xia's love, and the complete dead heart has built a solid wall for Su Xia, and the relationship between the two has been completely put on death row, and Chen Xuan is the death row prisoner.

When the death penalty was given to this marriage, Su Xia also completely let go of her emotional obsession and longing for someone. It is impossible to say that there is no hatred at all, but it is precisely because of the hatred that Su Xia no longer has pain - the tangled struggle of separation, and the reluctance to give up, but she is determined and indomitable.

This afternoon, Su Xia had a meeting out of the house, and the meeting ended earlier than after work, so the meeting went home first. When he arrived at the door, Su Xia naturally took out the black tassel backpack on his right shoulder, which was a birthday gift from Su Xia to himself in Chen Xuan's absence, and he had to love himself on days when no one loved him. A small one, simple and exquisite, the things that are packed every day are very simple, a small wallet - containing some commonly used ID cards and change, a keychain - home and office keys, a bean paste-colored lipstick, Su Xia likes this kind of color that is not ostentatious and sets off the complexion, a pack of tissues, a few small black hair ties, that's all.

So it's no exaggeration to say that the second Su Xia put her hand in, she immediately realized: "Oh no, the key has fallen in the office again!" ”

What to do?! This kind of trivial thing that used to be commonplace is now incomparable to the sky for her. Before, she didn't even need to look at the mobile phone address book to call Chen Xuan in a second, and said coquettishly: "Hey, ......" The tail note is infinitely elongated and soft.

"What's the matter, daughter-in-law?" Chen Xuan will always pick up the phone as soon as possible, whether it is work or eating.

“…… Well, I can't get in......" Su Xia was a little aggrieved.

"Hey, did you forget your key this time or did you lose it again?" Chen Xuan asked unsurprised.

"Forgot ......"

Chen Xuan breathed a long sigh of relief, thinking that it didn't matter if he forgot to bring it, if he lost it, he would have to change the lock again, and the lock had been changed more than once at home, "You can play at the door for a while, I'll go back early in a while." ”

"Okay." Su Xia sat comfortably and happily on the soft shoe-changing stool at the door and enjoyed the happy "closed-door" time, watching dramas, shopping, and novels...... I am very happy, the WIFI signal at the door is still very powerful.

Su Xia's house is a detached family, and there is an independent hall of about 6 square meters outside the door, and Su Xia has made it a more shoe area. The entrance hall against the wall is customized with a whole side of the shoe cabinet leading to the roof, which can accommodate all kinds of shoes in spring, summer, autumn and winter, and a 50cm high retro solid wood carved soft leather shoe changing stool is placed on the side, which is practical, beautiful and comfortable. Every now and then, Su Xia couldn't help but praise herself: You are so wise and intelligent! Therefore, forgetting to bring the key is a super insignificant and commonplace little thing for Su Xia, Chen Xuan is used to Su Xia's loss of everything, and Su Xia is very dependent on Chen Xuan.

Now Lao Yan is flying separately, and it is not what it used to be. After the divorce lawsuit, Su Xia and Chen Xuan have become completely strangers. Now with my son, my son goes to kindergarten, and I can't let a kindergarten child carry the house key with him, just because he has a confused mother.

Chen Xuan has the key to the house, and his unit is only ten minutes' drive away from home, but he is no longer Su Xia's person who can be on call and can call at any time, nor is he the person Su Xia will subconsciously think of when he encounters any hardships, but he really forgets a person from the bottom of his heart, just die in his heart, he doesn't exist, how can he contact a dead person or someone who has nothing to do with you. Only by completely digging out the dependence on him from the bottom of my heart can we completely break it. Only when you truly understand that you can only rely on yourself now, and get rid of psychological dependence, can you really start.

It's easy to forget a person, but time will accumulate strength, and dependence will slowly become blank.

Su Xia found a lock-picking company, and then gave Su Yu a spare key, but no matter whether Su Yu's home or unit is too far away from Su Xia, it is better to have more protection than no psychological comfort. Later, following the advice of others, it was replaced with an electronic fingerprint lock. The advancement of technology has brought too much convenience to singles. Su Xia concluded that he was not afraid of being single, but he was afraid of not having money, haha, the acquaintance was also in place.

However, the trivial matter of changing the lock unintentionally became a "strong evidence" for Chen Xuan to slander Su Xia in front of his relatives and friends, and he couldn't go back if he had a home.

"Sister, what are you doing?" On the morning of the weekend, my sister Su Yu called.

Su Xia was very surprised that she could receive a call from Su Yu before eight o'clock in the morning, you know, Su Yu didn't open his eyes before ten o'clock on the weekend.

Su Yu works in an import and export trading company, mainly for the import and export of various concrete and chemical materials, etc., business trips and overtime are commonplace, so weekends are a rare time to rest, of course, but also a little lazy, except for work and study, nothing can arouse her interest.

"I just finished breakfast, and now I'm going to send Xibao to the math thinking class." Su Xia replied while hurriedly preparing to go out with Xibao.

"Oh, I'm going to look for you, let's go shopping today!" The younger sister pretended to be interested in her tone.

"What?! Are you going shopping? "You must know that although Su Xia and Su Yu are sisters of the same father and mother, they are simply heaven and earth, very different, two extremes.

As I said earlier, only study and work can wake up Su Yu. And Su Xia is different, in addition to work and study, fitness, fashion, and beauty are all her favorites. Take shopping as an example, Su Xia can do it without eating or drinking and shopping all day long, still with high morale, and he is simply happy when he returns with a full load. Su Yu can spend the four seasons with a sweatshirt, and he would rather lie on the bed than step into the mall for half a step, so Su Yu's invitation to go shopping early in the morning on the weekend made Su Yu confused.

But Su Xia quickly understood what was going on, he should have been "instructed" by someone and had no choice but to "do what he liked". Shopping must have been the idea of my mother Xia Qin. Although since the discord with Chen Xuan, Su Xia rarely mentioned their affairs in front of her parents, Su Xia didn't say it, and her parents didn't ask too much, for fear of adding trouble to their daughter, it didn't mean that they didn't care or worry. To be able to wake up Su Yu early in the morning must be her parents to give her a broken thought to accompany her sister more, worried about what happened to Su Xia.

"You go shopping, I'm not available. I'm going to send Xibao to class quickly. Susha replied. Su Xia is indeed not free, she works on weekdays, and on her days off, in addition to picking up Xibao to class, she is to eat and play with her, and she also has to see sewing and needles, cleaning, housework, cooking, etc., the word "shopping" is too far away from her.

"Then why don't we take annual leave and go somewhere?"

"Stop! We're going to class! Su Xia said and entered the elevator, only ten minutes before the eight o'clock class, about to rush over, at this time Su Xia was extremely proud of his skillful driving skills - of course, driving a speeding small electric donkey.

"Okay, you go first, I'll go to your house today......" Su Yu's voice disappeared into the weak signal of the elevator.

Two hours later, Su Xia went home after picking up Xibao, and Su Yu had already appeared at home.

"Let's go, go shopping!"

"Okay, look at Xibao, I'll go shopping."

"Don't mind, together, I've made a lot of money recently, please have a dinner with Xibao."

"Come on, your big meal will be a bowl of mutton steamed buns and a meat sandwich bun." Sister Su Yu prefers all kinds of noodles and cakes, which are particularly affordable and arrogant, while Su Xia is obsessed with those exquisite, petty bourgeoisie, and flashy things.

"Hey, how delicious the food in northern Shaanxi is, what do you mean when you go to eat that steak and western cake, it's unpalatable, and you haven't had a bowl of beef noodles to enjoy it, how many slices of beef can you add to a steak." As he spoke, his face was full of happiness as if he was about to eat a large bowl of noodles.

Hey, the two of them are really incompatible.

"Well, I'll take Xibao to eat beef noodles. Xibao, do you say you like beef noodles? Su Yu turned around and asked Xibao, who was writing and drawing on the side.

"Love to eat!" Xibao replied loudly.

"Well, my aunt will take you beef noodles at noon!" The two hit it off.

"Ding Ding Ding ......" Su Xia's phone rang.

An unfamiliar mobile phone number. "Hello? Hello. ”

"Xia, I'm your Aunt Yang!" The other party said enthusiastically.

Aunt Yang?! Su Xia was confused. But instead of relying on the voice, he suddenly reacted to who it was.

"Oh, Aunt Yang, hello, hello!" Su Xia responded enthusiastically.

"Mmmm, I'm fine, have you been busy lately?"

"I'm okay, just work to take care of the kids. Do you have anything to do with me? Su Xia asked politely, thinking that there must be something.

"Oh, I know that you young people are busy and have nothing to do, but Auntie wants to treat you to a meal."

"Don't mind, I have to invite you to dinner."

"I'm so good at talking, see when it's convenient for you?"

"You're polite, I'll do it, look at you."

"Are you free today or tomorrow?"

Su Xia looked at Su Yu, who was playing with Xibao, "It's okay at noon today." ”

"Okay, then at noon today, let's have a meal together, and Auntie will talk to you about intimate words." Speaking of which, Su Xia had already guessed seven or eight points.

"You two are really going to beef noodles at noon." Hanging up the phone, Su Xia said to Su Yu.

"Who?" Su Yu asked curiously.

"My grandmother's former colleague and current best friend."

"Why did you come to eat for some reason?"

"What do you say......" Su Xia looked at Su Yu with unspeakable eyes, and Su Yu instantly understood.

In this way, a sudden meeting, shopping is really in vain.

Near noon, Su Yu and Xibao were left behind, and Su Xia went to the appointment.