I have met many friends in my life, but there has never been a girl who makes me grit my teeth when I think of her, making me live so undignified, leaving an indelible shadow in my heart.

I served as the head of the student council for the first two and a half years of college. Xi, the top few boys in the grades, because I didn't do well in the college entrance examination, so I have always regarded studying as my first task, during which several girls chased me, and I was rejected on the grounds that I had a girlfriend.

Later, when I went to a foreign hospital for an internship, all my positions in the school expired, and I was used to the life of being held by the stars.

I often feel empty in my heart, my grades begin to decline, I only belong to the average in the class, and I often stay up late to play games, my skin becomes very poor, and I feel groggy every day.

Originally, an excellent person mixed up like this, and even the classmates around me were not as enthusiastic as before, I felt very humble, and I began to be autistic, which made me confused every day, and I couldn't see the future clearly.

At that time, there was a couple in the class. In the first semester exams, he suddenly became the top two in the class without warning. I realized how important it was to find someone to study with in college.

I once wanted to confess to a girl who had been chasing me for two years, and I remember one night at a class party, I drank a lot, and she sat next to me with her best friend, and I looked at her with a smile and said a few more words to her, and her face was full of excited smiles.

I still think very highly of myself, I can't let go of the previous halo, she didn't respond to me, it is possible that in her heart I am just a mediocre boy now, it used to be worth her two years to chase, and now after the halo fades, it is so disgusting to say such things.

The first time I met her was in my hometown, I had two blind date experiences, an internship in Changzhou, and this was the second time in Linxian County.

During the winter vacation, I went to my cousin's birthday party at home, but I actually went to see the college students in their village that my cousin introduced me.

She was wearing a down jacket, she was not tall, about 1.6 meters, and her face was a little round, and when she came over that afternoon, I found that she should have just woken up and been called.

I didn't see any spots on my face, and I was worried that she would be a little dirty, so I sat next to her on the sandalwood sofa and chatted a few words and found that she spoke standard Mandarin, which is very rare in my hometown where she speaks all day long.

I knew she was a year older than me, and after a few minutes I felt that this girl was mentally older than me, and she was quite well-rounded.

Later, she said that she would also go to her sister's house in the county center tomorrow, and I was very happy when we met again.

Maybe it was humble, more than a year, at that time I was afraid that we would not be in touch for a long time after this meeting, so I added her QQ and phone number before leaving.

I was lying at home in the county center that afternoon, and I contacted her with trepidation. My parents have cast a huge shadow on me, so I always thought that meeting at my cousin's house might be the last time we had contact.

She answered my phone, the voice on the phone was a little unfamiliar, but it was her, I listened to her voice, not crisp and sweet, but a little cheng. Mature female voice.

At that time, I felt that I was so weak, that I was very bad, that I did not deserve such a beautiful girl, and that I would take a good rest before the call, so that I could have an intelligent conversation with her and not let her think I was annoying.

The next day at the station, she beckoned to me with a white satchel, and from afar, I looked at her with my humble gentlemanly appearance.

On the bus, she told me that she was very annoying. Dear, but seeing me that day reminded her of a star.

Who is she, I asked? She said it was Hugo. I suddenly remembered that some classmates in my sophomore year said that you are like Hu Ge, the younger version of the one.

With a chuckle on her face, I looked ahead and thought to myself. She, because of the meaning of one of her words, when did she care so much about the thoughts of others, which was unimaginable before.

We went to a buffet in Wuzhou International Plaza to eat, and then went to Xiangjiang Cinema to watch a movie, without any discounts, an ordinary 2D movie costs 75 a ticket, that is the most expensive movie ticket I have bought so far, and it is still watching: the predecessor strategy.

But because the movie was almost over, the moment I bought the movie ticket, I saw a girl waiting for me over there, and I felt that everything was worth it.

When the movie ended, there were snowflakes in the sky, I felt that the movie was too uneventful, my mood was a little stiff, and when she talked to me in the process, she didn't respond much.

"Don't you have any feelings for me, we'll see you again without us." The taxis were already open, and she looked me in the eye and said this very decisively, and politely told me that I didn't need to pay for the fare.

"No, I'm very. Enjoy. Hello to you, I'll send you back, I'll go home again. "I still look a little embarrassed and stiff, I should be shy. Shy, I was also naïve at the time, and I was too afraid of losing my girlfriend for the first time.

She wanted to laugh at the look on my face, but she couldn't help it.

When I got home that night, I couldn't believe I had such a beautiful girlfriend.

Our two schools are not far away, both in a remote suburb of Dongfang City, there are very few people, so there are not many bus trips, and for more than half a month, I would go to her school every day after school to look for her, strolling through the normal college where I did not have any acquaintances.

Walking hand in hand with her, later, she told me that I don't have to come every day, but the cherishing of love in my heart makes nothing stop me.

At that time, I was really young and didn't know anything, and I hadn't interned in a provincial unit, so I felt very small.

I still insisted that I would go to her, and when I arrived the next few days, she would show up five minutes late, and I was standing in the pavilion in the middle of the large green beach in front of her dormitory, and most of the students outside were three books from colleges that were not even considered universities, and I didn't care anymore.

I saw a girl in front of the gate in the distance, a girl who looked a bit like my senior sister walked towards me, she was very slim, wearing a pair of white high-heeled strappy sandals on her feet, the girl was smiling at me a little lazily at the moment, I felt that her eyes were a little helpless, maybe she couldn't stand this boy was too positive.

"You're leaving tomorrow, can you run a little longer?" The day before she went to Suzhou for her internship, I walked with her on the playground of the Normal College, and the lights around me were very dark, but I felt that because of her beside me, I felt very down-to-earth, just like I wanted to be frozen in the cold weather in winter. Shivering, but there is a warm fire waiting for him in front of him.

That feeling makes me cherish every minute and every second of the moment, and I wish time could go a little slower.

At about 9 o'clock in the evening, I had just gotten off the No. 96 bus more than 500 meters outside the north gate of Dongyi, and she called me for the first time to ask if I had arrived at the school.

Later, she went to Suzhou for an internship every day I had time to talk to her on the phone, I seemed to have known her for a long time, and every day I told her that I was very tired and hard to study, and asked her about the situation over there, one day she said that when she got off work, there were three men on trams who passed by her and looked back at herself, she said that she was actually very attractive.

"My girlfriend must be the prettiest." I laughed, but I felt a little uncomfortable.

She often mentioned to me her brother, who had a bachelor's degree and a master's degree from Peking University. On the fourth day of her return, she also went to the province. Public. Business. At noon on the day the exam ended, it was the elder brother who now works at the provincial TV station who drove to pick her up.

I don't know exactly what he told her, but she never answered my phone calls and QQ again.

She deleted my Weibo, I will leave a message below to say if I can give it another chance, I don't know what mistakes I made, if you ignore me, I will die to show you.

She didn't reply to me again and again, until one day she answered my phone at noon: "I beg you don't bother me a little in the future, we're over, I have a boyfriend." Her mournful voice echoed in my head, and the phone was hung up again, and I wanted to tell her how much I felt the pain of seeing her, and I couldn't sleep all night.