When I read this passage at the beginning of Rousseau's book "The Reverie of a Lonely Rambler", I blurted out the following sentence: I met you too late, come, brother, hug. (But this seems to be very disrespectful, [scratching your head])

"If, as I hoped, I could remain in my current state until I left this world, then when I open these records, I will be reminded of the beauty of the time when I first wrote, and the time that has passed will be restored. In this way, it can be said that my life has doubled. No matter how people treat me, I will once again experience the charm of communication, and my aging me will meet me in another era, as if I am reunited with an old friend who has forgotten my old age. ”

This quote resonated with me a lot, or gave me an explanation why I like to record so much, as I insist on writing something every day. It cannot be said that the reason why Monsieur Rousseau said that he recorded it the way he did is the reason why I liked it, but that I learned from his explanation a very reasonable and wonderful explanation of my own practice. People are happy to be speculated in good faith. When we know that our behavior is close to us, that we feel that it is so, and that we are described as an explanation of our tastes, we will recognize it and be happy about it.

Next is the familiar time to release excerpts, and after a few selected excerpts, it will be a period of hard work after watching the tear glands.

1. "Even if people take away these manuscripts (the ones that Rousseau originally recorded) during my lifetime, they will not be able to rob me of the joy that writing has brought me, nor can they erase the memory of writing from my mind, nor can they deprive me of the lonely and silent thoughts whose source will only pass away with my soul." ”

2. "I have learned from my own experience that the source of true happiness is ourselves, and if a person knows how to feel happiness, then others cannot really make it miserable." ”

3. "I have always hated things in the shadows, and I have a natural hatred for darkness, even if I have been surrounded by darkness for so many years. ”

4. "Therefore, being straightforward and honest with all things is the most abominable evil in the world, and I am vicious and cruel in the eyes of my contemporaries, and the only sin they can see in their eyes is that I am not as hypocritical and cunning as they are." ”

5. "They didn't convince me, but they didn't make me feel at peace." Their arguments never convinced me, but they shook my faith. I felt like I should respond, but I couldn't find a strong response. I found that my problem was not to make mistakes, but to be stupid—my mind knew how to respond, but reason couldn't. ”

6. "There is no mortal who can compare with my early quests in terms of eagerness and sincerity, but after that, I decided that my life should focus only on those feelings that were really important to me. Even if the result I expected was wrong, at least the fault would not make me a sinner, because all the efforts I made were to avoid committing any sin. ”

7. "If you want to be fair to others, you must first be honest with yourself, which is the respect that an upright person should give to himself out of self-esteem. ”

When I read the book "Reverie of a Lonely Rambler", I remembered that I wanted to find a job transcribing books or lyrics from ancient times, whether it was to take stock of shells, pick up stones, or pick flowers and grass. Of course, it's better to have a fantasy job – I can definitely do well. I was still wondering when I would be able to retire, when I would be imprisoned on such a secluded and scenic island as Monsieur Rousseau did.

Mr. Rousseau's view of things is a bit extreme, yes, Mr. Rousseau's view is a very incisive interpretation of the rules of the world, but it may be that Mr. Rousseau is too immersed in his own world, so he does not want to get close to others, understand others, and live peacefully with others - of course, from his writing, we can guess that maybe the "bad guys" in his world are really very bad, constantly releasing malice, so that people can not bear and approach.

When I read this book, I sometimes feel that I am quite sleek, because it feels like I get along well with the outside world; Sometimes, I feel like a point in my heart is being hit inaccurately by a slightly offset arrow, and my eyes can't help but be hot; Sometimes I feel that Mr. Rousseau's handling of some things is really too kind, and if this matter is put on me, I will definitely make trouble, and I must make the other party feel bad······ When I realized that I was constantly saying "if it were me", I was very happy, so it seems that Xiao Lai is a person with personality, because he has a specific way of dealing with things.

In fact, I envy Mr. for his love and hate for the world he is in, and I envy Mr. for finally finding inner peace and tolerance, and I also envy those people who are so-called "society" - understand people's hearts, understand the rules, and have the ability to navigate the rules and regulations that can be seen and invisible - they have a wonderful life.

If there is any other feeling, it is: I am old (with picture [Red Panda sighs]). As I watched, I thought about it, talked about it, and wanted to cry — but in the end it was all that was left upstairs. I'm really getting older.

Today's Xiao Lai: I plan to start again, because I feel that my current self is living in a daze, but I don't know what I want. How to open, first mention a list of ideas, although it seems that it is not beneficial to the appreciation and what to do, and I don't know which direction I should run, but first find something to work on. It's better than doing nothing.

So I ordered a song "Once I Thought About a Hundred". This song, I must start the game.

2020.3.14