The experience of being humiliated and I had nowhere to hide has always made me fall into depression from time to time, and I have had this experience twice, once when I liked to debate in college and wanted to go to a debater training and exchange event in Shenzhen, and I was short of money and asked one of my sisters to borrow money.

Since I was in college, this sister would often call me to express her concern for me, and she gave me a suitcase the year I was admitted to college, and she would bring a lot of food to my house twice when I was a child.

I'm grateful for this sister, I'm blaming the real sister in my heart who only calls me once or twice a year, she came to my house to live with me for a period of time when she was a child, and in my opinion, she was my mother's second daughter, and I was very worried that my mother would love her as much as she loved me, but she was really a sister to me, and I really liked her.

I'm blaming me for why the other sisters, who don't have her, call me every week, and she only calls me for a long, long time, and most of the time asks me if I'm short of money, and just like my mom, she doesn't like to talk about my pretentious little things and listen to and discuss my voice for a long time.

When I was short of money and didn't want my parents to know about it, I found the sister who called me a lot.

That was the first time I talked to him, and he criticized me for a long time, and didn't lend it to me, saying that he gambled five hundred yuan with me, not much, a meal, and it was not worth anything, and there was no need to look at the training, these trainings were all fraudulents.

And then say that if I'm idle, it's better to go to graduate school. I sat like this and was told for half a night, the money was not borrowed, and when they began to say, I realized that my move was wrong, I shouldn't have the heart to ask who borrowed the money first, and then repay the money part-time, when I didn't have this ability, I shouldn't have a heart that doesn't meet my current strength.

I opened my mouth to say a word, and I got a night of scolding, it's nothing, 10,000 steps back, I stuck my face out first, so I was red, I was beaten, and there was nothing to say.

What I couldn't get over was that they told my parents about it despite my repeated requests. They don't borrow anything, but they tell my parents about it, whether it's this summer or the next summer, I can't go.

And if I ask them for help instead of telling my parents, it will make my parents feel so cold. Also, when my parents' daughter begged to be in front of others, and they were joking, arrogant, or pretentious to tell my parents, how embarrassed my parents were.

Will you be sorry for causing them trouble, will you be because of yourself?