I was about to listen to the memories of six or seven years ago when I heard a knock at the door. Lin Jiangnan looked back a little puzzled, as if he thought he had misheard.

"There's a knock on the door." I say.

At the same time, the knock on the door sounded again, rhythmically three times, neither light nor heavy. Lin Jiangnan put down his wine glass and went to open the door, I sat on the sofa and waited for him to come back to continue his wine and his story, but I heard him say at the door: "Why are you here?" ”

Then a female voice laughed and said, "Didn't you say you weren't at home?" ”

I put down my glass, straightened my hair, and stood up.

There was a tuk tuk of my heels hitting the floor at the entrance, and I walked around the coffee table to the door. There was a young girl with long hair standing at the door, the same age as Lin Jiangnan, with a lightly powdered face, looking quiet and pretty, she was slightly stunned when she saw me, and turned back to Lin Jiangnan and said, "Do you have a guest here?" ”

Lin Jiangnan didn't introduce each other to us, but if I guessed correctly, she should be Wu Yu.

"Is there something you're here for?" Lin Jiangnan asked her. I glanced sideways at him, and felt a slight impatience in his tone.

"I went to Europe with my parents for the Spring Festival and brought you things. I didn't meet you when I went to your sister during the Spring Festival, so I thought I would go back to Beijing and bring you directly. Wu Yu didn't care, still smiling, picked up the bag in his hand and shook it, "Didn't I tell you?" ”

I feel a little embarrassed to stand here. So he stretched out his hand and took off the coat hanging on the coat hook at the door, and said to Lin Jiangnan: "I've been bothered for a long time, so I'll leave first." ”

"It's okay, just wait for me for a while."

I smiled noncommittally, and said to myself that I wasn't really stupid. The phone I didn't find was on the cabinet in the entrance hallway, so I took it and put it in my pocket, and then put on my shoes.

Wu Yu put the bag in his hand on the ground, took two steps into the house, and shouted while looking around: "Ami, Ami." Then he asked Lin Jiangnan, "What about the cat?" ”

I raised my eyes and glanced at Lin Jiangnan, and waved my hand casually, "Let's go, first, when you have time to turn around, you can go to my cat and pick it up." There is no hurry. With that, I pushed open the door and left his house.

I had just gotten up in the morning when my parents came, and I didn't have time to change my clothes, so after a fight, I grabbed my coat and came out, so I'm still wearing my own loungewear. Fortunately, I am lazy every day, and I don't want to change my clothes when I pick up the express, so the loungewear is not very exaggerated, and I can wear it out.

It's just cold!

Spring and autumn style of home clothes, it's okay to have a coat wrapped on it, but the legs can be offended, and a small breeze can blow through, and I feel that the blood in my legs is going to be frozen.

I shuddered as I walked out and opened the software to call for a taxi, and the car was called, but the master who grabbed the order was quite far away from me, and called me to wait a few minutes on the side of the road, and he arrived immediately. I stood in the cold wind, feeling like my teeth were going to crumble, and I was looking forward to it.

Just as I saw the taxi, Wu Yu walked up to me. I smiled at her tremblingly, she looked at me twice, and asked me, "Are you Lin Jiangnan's girlfriend?" ”

"It's not." I waved at the slowly approaching taxi from afar.

"So what's your relationship?"

I'm a bit of a head at that. I glanced at her, "What do you think we're in relationship?" ”

She didn't speak.

The taxi stopped in front of me, I opened the door, and said to her again: "I don't know you, if you have any questions, go ask Lin Jiangnan, I can't tell you." I got into the taxi and closed the door, shivering uncontrollably, "Master, Fuchengmen." ”

When I got home, my parents were gone, so I quickly kicked off my shoes and ran to the heater to lean my legs up. My legs were already frozen, and I waited a while for the heat to come back to life.

Piggy was lying on the sofa, with the tip of his tail flapping gently, very lazy and comfortable. I poured a cup of hot water and held it, sat down next to it and scratched the top of its head, it squinted its eyes and raised its head to push my fingertips, "Ami? "I call it.

It didn't have any special reactions. I smiled, "You have a lot of names." ”

The room was quiet, except for the sound of pigs purring. The quilt that Lin Jiangnan covered last night was still on the sofa, so I pulled it over and covered it on my lap, then turned on the TV and found a variety show to watch.

However, my mind is not on TV, but still recalling what I did six or seven years ago, what I said, in what state I met Lin Jiangnan, who was eighteen years old at the time, and whether I left any psychological shadows on others.

When I was in college, I did often go to play badminton, at that time Yao Feng said that I was a professional player, the level of the primary school playground, we played in our own school, and we often came to Jiaotong University, because my family had just moved at that time, and the house on the side of Fuchengmen was still hesitating whether to rent or sell, so it was empty.

So the empty house became a utopia for me and my friends. We run away from school, and after playing ball, we gather here to drink, watch movies, play poker, and try to hover on the edge of bad schooling like a bunch of good kids who lack imagination.

What year was that? It seems to be 2008, and we all watched the Olympics in the house of Fuchengmen. Calculating the time, Lin Jiangnan should not have gone to college at that time, Yao Feng and I were very fine at that time, and we even talked about the future at that time. I thought that when we got married, we would redecorate the house so that these friends could come to the house and drink, watch movies, and play poker.

So I stopped my parents from selling the house, telling them that I thought the house would continue to rise. My selfish intention was to keep the house and live with Yao Feng in the future, but the irony is that my real plan fell through, and the reason for the nonsense came true.

House prices have really gone up. It's so wicked.

After graduating from our senior year in '09, I found a company to start my career, Yao Feng wanted to go to graduate school, but I heard that his family was against it. I don't know why his family objected, because he didn't talk to me much about his family. I used to think that he was not honest enough, but he thought that he should solve the affairs of his family by himself, and he should only give me the result, not bother me with the whole process.

At that time, I thought it made a lot of sense, and I was quite moved.

But after the breakup, I wondered from time to time if he was hiding something from me, whether I didn't really know anything about him, I only saw what he wanted me to see. When I was in love, I believed in him so much, so after the breakup, this trust went crazy.

At night, I couldn't sleep at night, thinking about our three years repeatedly, reviewing our relationship bit by bit, trying to sift out the information I had missed, the details I had overlooked. Then I found that I began to doubt everything, curled up alone in an airtight corner like a person with paranoid personality disorder, suspicious of him and of me.

And then what? How did I get to that time? I kind of forgot.

At that time, I quit my job because I couldn't concentrate on my work at all, and my mental state was very poor. I borrowed my dad's bicycle and traveled all over Beijing, everywhere Yao Feng and I went, as if hoping to meet him again, even though I knew he wasn't in Beijing anymore.

At what point in time did I meet Lin Jiangnan? Obviously, that node of mine was sealed by me, and even if he told me about it today, I couldn't remember it.

Forgotten, completely forgotten. As he said, even the act of 'forgetting' itself has been forgotten.

My phone rang, and I came back to my senses. Everyone was laughing on the variety show on TV, but I had no idea what they were laughing at, and I looked so silly.

My dad sent me a message that the steamed crab was in the pot and made me think about eating it.

"Okay." I replied to him.

"Your mother is sad too. Xiaomi, don't hate your parents, think more about your mother's goodness, she cares about you very much. ”

My dad never spoke to me like that, and when I argued with my mom, he always stood by my side indiscriminately. As I stared at my dad's message, I felt my nose sour again.

The words of parents are always very easy to hit the most irresistible place in the heart, probably because they have never been defensive against their parents. The warm-hearted, the sad, and the heart-piercing are all driven straight into the door of life.

"No, it won't." I replied to him.

I went to the kitchen and saw a steamer on the stove, and the three green crabs in the morning were already red and lying in the pot. I cut the ginger and garlic and mixed the vinegar myself, and brought out the crab. I looked at the three crabs and thought of this cold winter day, and my mother received the seafood from my uncle in the morning and sent it to me non-stop, and suddenly she was not so angry.

The smell of crabs wafted through the house. The pig smelled the fragrance and screamed at me. I changed the show and continued to watch it, munching on crabs and picking out some meat to feed the cats. Maybe people's mood will affect the aura of the environment, and when I started eating crabs, the house didn't seem so quiet and dull anymore, as if everything came alive, and the laughter in the show no longer seemed so silly.

My mobile phone was also active, first Yan Hua sent me a message, asking me if I had time tomorrow, she was going to invite people from the company to have a meal together, she said that she would go back to her hometown in a few days, and she would not come back.

I was a little surprised, but not so surprised. Yan Hua always has to make a choice, either go back or stay, just these two, it's not worth making a fuss about choosing whichever one. The text on WeChat is just an invitation to dinner and party, and there is no emotion, but I am still a little sad.

Yan Hua's side has just been finalized, and Xu Yijing's news came again, asking me how it is here.

"I'm fine." I said, "What's going on with you, I didn't have time to ask you in the morning." ”

She replied to me after a while, "I can't buy a ticket for tomorrow, so I booked a ticket for the day after tomorrow to go back." ”

"Done?" I asked.

"Let's go back and talk about it."