Like Xu Yijing, Yao Feng was also quietly liked by me, and I liked it from the moment I entered college. But I am different from Xu Yijing, who is a kind of action, I hide my liking. Even Xu Yijing didn't see what was hidden.

At that time, Yao Feng was unattainable for me, and I needed to look up. Look up to his spirit, look up to his self-confidence, look up to his creativity and imagination in his professional display, look up at his wide range of interests. I didn't know that he was from a good family at the time, but I just thought that he seemed to be different from us, galloping freely and taking life at his fingertips. He is like a good cook, everything around him is his condiments, and he can cook brilliantly even if it is boring.

I quietly followed him, like a fan who was not in the circle, until he suddenly looked at me and told me that he had been following me for a long time.

When he confessed, I thought it was like a joke.

I asked him what he liked about me, and he said he couldn't tell. He said that he passed by the playground one day and saw me waiting for someone, and it seemed that he couldn't wait for a long time, so I picked up a flyer, folded a paper airplane, and threw it around by myself and had a good time. I thought I was stupid to hear him, but he said it was funny.

He said I was funny and always at ease.

Maybe he was a prophecy, or maybe he had a premeditated plan, and I was able to live comfortably, so there was no psychological burden for him to leave.

He believed in me so much and I thank him.

On the night when Xu Yijing recalled and complained about Shao Jie, I also reminisced a little by the way with red wine. This bottle is high in tannins and sour in the mouth, and some people are good at it, but I can't do it.

"You didn't contact Yao Feng later?" Xu Yijing asked me.

I shook my head.

"You don't know why you broke up?"

I drank the wine and smiled, "At that time, I was young, too second, too stupid, and I was strained by my own personality, even if I broke up, I didn't want that person to collapse in Yao Feng's heart." I want him to believe that it's okay for me to be pestering and not being nostalgic. Then I tried to ask him countless times and ask him to give me an answer, but I couldn't find a reason to contact him. ”

"Give yourself an answer, isn't that a reason?"

I shook the wine in my glass, "Excuse me, but I'm afraid." ”

"Afraid of what?"

"Maybe I'm afraid he'll tell me that those three years were all fake?" I looked up at Xu Yijing and smiled miserably, "I don't know which result is better, whether it's so unclear or better to wake up and realize that I've been stupid for three years." ”

Xu Yijing was stunned, reached out and hugged me, "Okay, don't say it, don't say it." ”

I waved my hand and told her I was okay, "It's been seven years, it's not that bad, I just didn't expect this to be so big." I just can't trust anyone right now, can you understand? As long as somebody likes me, I'm like, 'Oh, you're just talking about it now,' and I don't believe that love lasts. ”

"But I don't think Lin Jiangnan is that kind of person, that kid is quite reliable."

"What kind of person is Yao Feng like? Isn't he reliable? My heart was blocked, and I breathed a deep sigh, "I've read a lot of romance novels over the years, I only read sweet, I only read reunions, I hope I can convince myself." But the first thought that comes to mind after reading a book is always this: How is that possible? This is too fake. ”

Xu Yijing's cheeks were crimson, she held her cheeks and looked at me for a while, and said, "Let me tell you, I didn't like to eat onions when I was a child, and I wanted to vomit when I saw onions." Later, I don't know when or why, I suddenly liked it, I can't remember why, I just know that I love to eat now. ”

I looked at her puzzled, I didn't know why I was talking about Yao Feng, and the topic suddenly turned to onions.

Xu Yijing patted me on the shoulder violently, "Honey, I mean, we don't know others, and we don't really know ourselves. We don't know when or why we will suddenly fall in love with someone, just like I fell in love with an onion; We don't know that we will get tired of being alone from time to time, just like I am tired of Shao Jie. ”

"It's like a tongue twister."

"Don't interrupt." Xu Yijing was very dissatisfied, and saw that I was well-behaved, so she continued: "So you don't have to force yourself, let alone worry, there's nothing wrong with being single." ”

"I'm not in a hurry, you've always been in a hurry." I shook the wine in my glass, "I said I don't want to be in a relationship." ”

"Don't be so repulsive! Although I don't know how I fell in love with onions, I'm sure that at least once, at least once, I ran away without seeing the onions, and I gave the onions a chance, otherwise I wouldn't have loved them at all. You know what I mean? Even if you still don't like to eat it in the end, at least give the onion a chance, and give yourself a chance. ”

Others poured chicken soup, but Xu Yijing poured me onion soup, jumping nose and spicy eyes.

Xu Yijing saw that I didn't speak and poked me again: "You tell me the truth, do you like Lin Jiangnan or not?" ”

I continued to shake my glass, and my head shook with it, "I don't like it." ”

"Pull it down, I don't believe it!"

"Then you're asking a fart."

I have forgotten a little about how Xu Yijing and I slept on this day, anyway, when she woke up the next day, she had already gone to work, what a ruthless person.

I opened the curtains and a new day came.

It's a day of doing nothing, I don't have to go to work, and I don't have anything to do or solve. I finished my breakfast in the sunshine, swiped my phone, and decided to go to my parents' house to discuss the trip.

When I was standing at the door of my parents' house, I heard their quarrel, and I couldn't help but smile bitterly, remembering what I told Lin Jiangnan about 'the inheritance of not good love'.

They would always quarrel over trivial matters, over changing the channel of the TV, over clogged sewers, over a handful of rotten vegetables. But fortunately, the two of them are always on the same line in major matters, and the division of housework has always been clear, maybe this is the reason why the two of them can continue to live until now?

This is the best marriage state I can imagine, I don't know what Lin Jiangnan said about his parents' marriage is like.

As I opened the door, their quarrel came to an abrupt end, and they stared at me in surprise: "Why are you here?" ”

"What are you two arguing about?"

"Your dad! Poured out the enzymes I made! My mom snorted and complained.

"I don't know what it is, and you didn't tell me!" My dad also snorted angrily and turned his face to look at me, trying to pull me into his camp, "You said that the big bottle of rotten things soaked in water, I saw that the bottle was swollen, and it was supposed to be some kind of drink spoiled, didn't it just pour it!" ”

"Ask me! Did you ask me?! My mother continued to accuse, "We stay in the same room, why don't you know what I'm doing?" I didn't tell you I was going to make enzymes! I don't know what you're thinking day by day! ”

"Oh, you're going to have to take care of me when you say it? You say so much every day, I still remember it? ”

"I don't remember this, I don't remember that, what do you remember?! Just take your mobile phone and look at international relations with that, what does that matter to you! What can you do? I really don't know how many pounds and taels I have. ”

My dad blushed angrily, "What's wrong with me caring about national affairs?" The rise and fall of the world is the responsibility of the husband! ”

"Don't put gold on your face!"

I stood between them and said, "Okay, okay, stop arguing." Once the enzyme is poured, just make another bottle. I told my mother, and then said to my father: "I don't know if you fell anyway, then negligent hurting people is also hurting, right, don't you just apologize and be fine?" ”

My mom and dad glared at each other, probably because they saw that I was not good here and continued to quarrel, and besides, it was really not a big deal in the end. My dad threw his hands and ran to the kitchen, "I'll cook for my daughter!" ”

I took off my coat and changed my slippers, poured myself a cup of hot water, and my mom brushed my emotions alone before asking me, "Why didn't you go to work?" ”

"Resigned." I turned on the TV and said lightly.

"Resigned?" My mom sat next to me, her concern overflowing, "What's wrong?" Isn't it that you are still on a business trip on New Year's Day, why did you suddenly resign? ”

"I didn't want to do it, so I quit."

"Got a new job?"

"No, I don't."

My mother sat next to me for a long time and didn't speak, and when she spoke again, her tone was much more serious, "Sumi, you are not a small boss, you can't always be so impulsive in doing things." You quit your job before you could find a job, what if you can't find a suitable job? ”

"You won't find it." I didn't take my eyes off the TV, but I didn't really watch what was going on on TV.

My mother snorted softly, disdainful of my answer, "You just live too smoothly, you don't have to worry about the car and the house, and we don't need you to take care of it, I really don't know the hardships of life at all." What do you think you have to resign at the end of the year? Just can't do it? Don't say leave yourself a way back. ”

I felt a little aggrieved in my heart, and the words came to my mouth and swallowed back, silent.

"Didn't this company give you a promotion and a raise this year? Can you find such a suitable one again? Seeing that I didn't speak, he pulled me for a moment, "Let me ask you, you are thirty years old, which company should not consider your marriage and children?" Let's not talk about fair and unfair things, social reality is like this, you can't think about nothing! ”

I put the remote on the table, stood up and put on my coat, and my mom stood up too, "What are you doing?" ”

I threw off my slippers and said, "I'm looking for a job." ”

"Who are you making a face for?! I can't say two words yet, can I? "My mom is in a hurry. My dad rushed out of the kitchen when he heard the noise, grabbed me, and said to my mother: "It's not enough to talk to me all morning, my daughter hasn't come over this New Year's Day, it's so easy to come here, are you still finished?!" ”

My mother's face was calm, and it could be seen that she had resisted the urge to continue arguing. My dad wiped his hand on his apron and pulled my coat off, "Let's go, don't pay attention to your mother, watch me cook something for you." After speaking, he dragged me to the house, and while walking, he turned around and said: "Don't talk about working overtime every day, I still let people go on a business trip in the New Year, what kind of bad job is still a baby, quit!" Is my daughter still worried about finding a job? If you can't find me, you can't raise it! ”

"You're used to her, you!"

"Nonsense! I'm not used to whom! "My dad dragged me into the kitchen. The kitchen was filled with the smell of oil smoke and green onions, and my dad smiled at me and whispered, "Your mother quarreled with me, and I don't know where to spread that fire." ”

"Hmm." I reluctantly curled the corners of my mouth, "It's okay." ”

Watching my dad chopping vegetables and beating eggs and doing all the work in the kitchen, I wanted to ask him what it was like to be with my mom for so many years. Do they still have love now? Have they ever been in love?

But it's too hypocritical, forget it, that's probably the way it is.