I've watched a lot of movies in the past few days, which is the kind of small video that cuts the overall plot of a movie to about 5-25 minutes, and what I remember most clearly in my mind now is the helpless but endured life of the heroine in "I Have Lived My Life Like This".

The movie "I've Lived My Life Like This" is about Gui Mei, a girl who went to Taipei to join her cousin because of the war, because she lived in her cousin's house for a period of time and caused her cousin's dissatisfaction, and her cousin also suspected that her husband was interested in Gui Mei, so she tried to get her married quickly, Gui Mei knew that she was disgusted, so she followed the recommendation of the matchmaker and married a divorced man with three children. When the matchmaker introduced the man, she said that the man had a regular job in a big hotel, did not smoke or drink, and was a good man. After confessing to the man that she gave her fiancé for the first time at the age of 19, and later came to Taipei to find her fiancé but was separated in the end, and the man also expressed no dislike, Gui Mei married the man.

Then Gui Mei found out that her husband was good at gambling after marriage, and later after being fired by the hotel owner for gambling during work hours, she was even more confused all day long, not looking for a job, Gui Mei took the only valuable things left on her body to pay off her husband's gambling debts, because she was about to have a child and needed a sum of money, so she borrowed a loan shark, and was also stolen by her husband and used to gamble. In the end, Gui Mei went to the casino and forced her husband to repay the money with a knife, and when she had tire gas, her amniotic fluid broke, and she gave birth ahead of schedule. At this time, her husband didn't dare to gamble, and later, under the introduction of a friend, he and Guimei went to Japan to work as servants for a Chinese couple. They can take two children with them.

Here is an introduction to Gui Mei and her husband's children, her husband has three children, the eldest is a son, the second is a daughter, the third is a son, the age is about 12, 8, 5, and then Gui Mei and her husband gave birth to a pair of dragon and phoenix fetuses. In the end, they decided to take their eldest husband's eldest son and the youngest and weakest daughter of Katsura Meisheng's dragon and phoenix fetus to Japan. It's hard to be a stepmother, the second daughter, has always disliked Gui Mei, until Gui Mei came back from Japan, the second child was pregnant with her boyfriend's child at the age of 16 or 7, her boyfriend refused to be responsible, and her husband felt that the second child was very ashamed and beat the second child, and Gui Mei fought with her husband in order to protect the second daughter, and finally accompanied the second child to the hospital for an abortion, and the mother-daughter relationship between them improved. At that time, Guimei's pair of dragon and phoenix twins had just been born, and when she asked Guimei to take two of her children to Japan, and Guimei knew that she couldn't take both children with her own children, and she had to be separated from the newborn child and bit the quilt late at night and refused to cry, I was really moved by Guimei's helplessness and depression.

The picture came to Japan again, Gui Mei and her husband worked as domestic servants for the Chinese family for a period of time, and Gui Mei also learned a delicious beef rice from the cook of that family, because the hostess of the family slandered Gui Mei for deliberately staying in the male host's room for a long time and seducing the male host, so Gui Mei encouraged her husband to resign and work in a restaurant outside, so that when she earned enough money to return to her hometown to open her own restaurant.

Later, after spending a few years in a restaurant, they were tired and fell apart every day when they came home, and because they had no labor license in Japan, they had to hide in a small attic every time the Japanese police came to inspect and lived an undignified life, and finally saved enough money to go home and open their own braised meat restaurant "Xia Fei House". But after a while, the husband had an affair, and a woman came to the store with a child on her back and said that her husband was in prison, and Guimei's husband said that he would take care of the two of them, but he didn't recognize anyone when he put on his pants. Gui Mei is very angry at her husband's betrayal, so she immediately runs away from home to work in a textile factory, planning to pick up the children when she settles down. Of course, this exodus ended soon after, and Guimei's house was in a mess, the third son's son burned himself, and the second daughter's daughter ran away from home, so her husband took Gui Meisheng's two twins to beg Guimei to go home. Of course, for the sake of the children, Guimei will also go home.

Time passed like this, Gui Mei is old, the eldest son was sent to learn cooking because he was in Japan, and finally married a Japanese lady and had children to settle in Japan, the second daughter finally decided to inherit and use a new way to operate Gui Mei and her husband opened the "Xia Fei House", the third son opened his own company and had his own happy family, and the twin brothers and sisters graduated from college and reached the age of talking about marriage. And the unconscious husband, who has been gambling and making trouble all these years, has also accompanied him to the age of gray hair. When the children grew up and they grew old, Guimei's life ended.

Guimei's life is particularly in line with the experience of most people in their lives, to work hard to maintain a family, to choose the side of compromise after fighting in the friction of the family, to exhaust herself in order to feed a family and give her children a better education and life. In particular, Katsura Mi's compromise with her gambling husband, her fawning over her stepdaughter, her careful balance between her husband and his ex-wife's three children and her own two children, and her forgiveness for her husband's choice after cheating - this seems to be the kind of life of a good woman who knows how to uphold family and prosperity, and knows tolerance and concession that her elders admire. And Guimei's ending is also like the ending of a good woman they expected, her children have a successful career, and her children and grandchildren are full.

I think it's good, but I feel like I've been living for others all my life, and I have no other life possibilities because I refuse to give up my husband or children, so I can only take them in the best direction as much as possible.

At the end of the film, the second daughter's daughter took a walk with Guimei, and the daughter asked, "Don't you really blame your father for women's affairs?" "That's Gui Mei's husband's cheating. At that time, Gui Mei just said lightly, anyway, husband and wife, there is always one to endure. The daughter retorted, "Why is it always a woman who endures?" I always felt like you shouldn't be so tolerant of Dad. Gui Mei smiled and replied, maybe you're right, but you won't tell me to divorce now, right?

My thoughts are a bit like the second daughter in the movie, although as a woman I think half of my mother's life only has children, which is so sad, she doesn't have a life of her own. If she had chosen to work hard outside, she would have had a more gorgeous and wonderful life. But as the beneficiary of my mother's choice to sacrifice the rest of her life, I don't want her to be absent too much in my life. Also, the beneficiary should be banned, otherwise there will always be a suspicion of being cheap and selling well.

Today's Xiao Lai: My little fat man (my brother)'s recent mantra is quite interesting: "Children make choices, I want them all" - the application scenario is generally to ask which of the two snacks is like this. I'm thinking, it seems that the person who says such a thing is a child, although adults can choose between buying A and buying B because they have their own financial resources, but compared to the occasional "AB to", the vast majority of cases in the adult world will have one more action to measure, no matter what situation they are, what they do, what choice they make, isn't it?

2020.1.28