Chapter 36: I Am Your Confidence
She was silent, and Wei Ye's hands were down, a little frustrated.
The little girl's hands were nervously clasped, and her face changed. Those who hesitate want to speak and stop.
"I ......, I ...... I don't know why you didn't kill me, this, there is no reason. There is a reason for everything. ”
She was looking forward to Ai Ai, and finally spoke.
"Don't say you like me, I know you're just teasing me." She looked up at him and added.
"I don't know what you're thinking. I don't know about you. She peeked again to see if he was angry.
"So I doubt you in my heart, and that's the reason for my narrow-mindedness. I apologize, I'm sorry, I overstepped and misunderstood you, and I won't be like this in the future. From now on, I won't tell you your secrets anyway. ”
She simply craned her neck and sincerely apologized.
Wei Ye's sharp eyes slowly sank with her every move. It turned out that the little lady was so resistant to him and afraid. Why couldn't he see it in the past?
"You're afraid of me?"
Zhao Lian leaned slightly, bit her lip unconsciously, and stopped looking at him.
Wei Ye smiled bitterly, sure enough, inadvertent honesty hurts people the most.
"You don't believe me, either?" After he finished speaking, he retorted to himself, "No, it's who you never trusted." ”
The little lady seemed to have been greatly wronged, and silently turned sideways to wipe away her tears.
It's so sad, Wei Ye closed his eyes and didn't want to say any more. For the first time in the two lives, the little lady didn't appreciate it, and she didn't believe him.
Zhao Lian didn't want to cry, she also knew that crying anytime and anywhere was disgusting and annoying, and she used to hate this the most. No one knew that she rarely cried in modern times. Lively, cheerful, optimistic, strong. Those are already far away, vague.
She will be so optimistic when she arrives here, she is a strong person. That's what she thought before today.
Wei Ye punctured all of this and told her that this was not the case, and that she saw her vulnerability.
Since the day I came here, I have been very cautious and always pay attention. There is no time to be at ease, and there is no time when you are not afraid. No matter how she bluffs, numbs herself, and faces it optimistically, the nerves in her head will not relax.
She's what she hates now.
Wei Ye saw it clearly, and said with mixed tastes: "You don't have to be like this. I'm also an anomaly, but I'm still alive and well.
"How can this be compared?"
"Everything in the world is mostly figured out."
"No, it's different everywhere."
Zhao Lian endured the abdominal pain, uncomfortable, and said softly.
"What do you want from me? Am I bad for you? ”
Zhao Lian shook her head, what's good, either scare her or scare her, but she didn't dare to say.
And what Wei Ye was thinking about was what's wrong, he had never been so attentive, he promised that little lady that he had never been so close to any little lady, thinking about how he coaxed her, Wei Ye felt a strong discomfort in his heart.
"What do you want me to do?" It's not a forced question, this is probably the last time he asks.
Such a helpless tone Zhao Lian was uncomfortable to hear, she didn't want to be like this, buried deep in her heart, and the thoughts that unconsciously disturbed her could no longer be hidden, and they were vented together.
"I'm scared. I couldn't convince myself. I have no way to rely on anyone. It's too dangerous here, and it kills people at every turn. Parents and elders, dignitaries and nobles, anyone can despise women, the same thing, it is easy to fight or kill. I don't have the confidence, after being discovered, what I buried in my heart is when you killed me, and I want to forget it, but I can't. I can't numb myself no matter how much I can. ”
"Such a place is like duckweed, I can't help but think about it, I don't dare to believe you." Zhao Lian pinched herself painfully, a little cold.
In a slightly cramped room, the little lady is huddled together. Wei Ye was stunned, he didn't say anything, he knew, his little lady was so pitiful?
Is this the source of anxiety? What he didn't think about, yes, he just came back again, surrounded by familiar surroundings, relatives and friends. And the little lady came to this strange world alone, she had no confidence, and she was even more pitiful.
No confidence, huh?
He gave.
Wei Ye squatted beside the chair and said eloquently: "Come to think about it, now you are like this, and it has a lot to do with me. I lied to blackmail you first, I said that I am pleased with you, I pity you and love you, and I don't have time to wait for words to come, but you don't believe it. ”
Wei Ye tilted his head, the little lady had already changed to hugging her knees and burying her head, and she didn't move, so she knew that he had guessed correctly.
"So, I'll give you another reason, my father died, and in the previous life he obviously had more to live, half a year, but he died, on the day I came back."
Zhao Lian pricked up her ears to hear this, and raised her head suddenly, her misty eyes widened.
The person in front of him looked a little sad, and said lightly: "It's an accident." I couldn't save my father, so I tried to kill Zhao Lian. ”
Zhao Lian was stunned, Wei Ye touched her head, and continued: "I didn't lie to you about that Taoist priest, Zhao Lian was really abducted in her previous life. But, I didn't think you were already here, and she, you know, she was gone, and you came. ”
He paused, and then said:
"I panicked. I didn't believe in gods, you know? ”
Her shadow was imprinted in her deep eyes, and she was a little stunned, and nodded. She probably understands. In the age of superstition, these connections to the gods are inevitable, and the fear of suspecting that there is an unknown being controlling one's life can be imagined.
He groaned for a while, and then continued: "I have experienced that feeling of powerlessness, and I have not wanted to experience it a second time. ”
"Just now, you fainted, and that feeling of powerlessness came again. You don't know, from here to the hospital, my hands are shaking so badly. It's not just you who are afraid, I'm also afraid. If you die, I'll be mad. On the way to the hospital, many people have seen this, so you don't have to doubt his truth. ”
Zhao Lian gradually listened and became obsessed.
"So, your existence is my support, without you, I am very disappointed in this world, and I always wonder if this world is real. In this way, you don't have to worry, I will also be your support. Whoever is bad to you, I will do no good. No one can harm you, and even if you are discovered, I have a way to protect you. No one is as eager for you to live as much as I do, Zhao Zhenzhen. ”
"Don't be upset, don't be afraid, you have confidence."
Wei Ye held her slightly cold hand and called her real name.
His words were word for word, slow, clear, solemn, and positive.
No hesitation, no ambiguity. Intense and complex emotions swept in like waves, and there was too much information in it that was suddenly stuffed in, Zhao Lian couldn't bear it, and her thinking was stagnant.
The eyes in front of her were very close to her, and she was not used to looking at each other, so she opened her eyes and missed the dark color that flashed in her eyes.
She doesn't say she believes, she doesn't say she doesn't believe it.
Speaking of which, what else is there to say.
Wei Ye's self-confidence was frosted.
A large man with long hands and long legs squatted aggrievedly in front of a woman, obviously usually majestic, but a little at a loss. He pointed to the hidden wound, to the sore spot, and said to her, "Now, this is my handle, take him, and do not be afraid."
With a drooping brow on her white doughy face, he took her hand and lifted his chin, offering his sincerity like a chubby and fluffy dog: "Eyes can't deceive people, you see." ”
Zhao Lian stroked the warm soft skin, and went up, the usually bottomless eyes, how do you look here, pitiful.
Zhao Lian was startled and wanted to withdraw the hand that was resting on his face, but he wouldn't let go.
"Is that why you married me? Then, you, can you, respect me, like a friend, we treat each other as if we were guests. Zhao Lian said tentatively.
"Yes, I promise you." Wei Ye said in surprise.
He knew that the little lady's attitude had softened, and he believed it, maybe only half-convinced, but it was enough.
Respect, yes, it's not that hard.
As for what friends in general, dreaming.
Suddenly, Zhao Lian's face stiffened and her legs tightened.
Then, the tip of Wei Ye's nose wrinkled, stood up under the brush, and couldn't help laughing: "I'll go and see how the water is boiling." ”
In vain, Zhao Lian was left in place and died of shame.