Chapter 4: Self-Contradictions
Her mother's maiden name is a Ning, is the concubine of the Sima Lin family in Jiangzhou, because the appearance is not outstanding, eighteen years old has not asked a good family matter, and her father is also a concubine, grandfather does not care about the affairs of the back house, grandmother is not concerned about the concubine, the man is twenty weak crown, should be the age of the parent, but no one has cared, twenty-four years, the title of the father's gold list, in the first part of the scholar family, many scholars want to hire their own concubines to him, but the father himself fell in love with the mother who came to Beijing to visit relatives, and the mother is a concubine, But she was the only girl in the family, and the housemother did not treat her harshly, and the dowry was extremely rich, so her grandfather and grandmother agreed.
Married to the Li family, the scholars pay a lot of attention to it, and they also have their own set of rules for speaking and doing things, as a concubine, although the housemother is not harsh, but she has not taught her the way to survive in the back house, so that she has been married for a long time and is tied, plus the father is not liked by the grandmother, and even the mother is not welcomed, and there is nowhere to tell if he is wronged, and he is depressed over time, and he is sick and bedridden all the year round.
My mother lives in a side yard behind the main courtyard.
As soon as she arrived at Yuemen, Mother Lin greeted her, she was kind and kind and insightful, she was the mother of her mother when she was in the Lin family, and she also had children herself, but she was lost in Jiangzhou, but she followed her mother to the Li family, if it wasn't for Mother Lin's protection, it would be even more difficult to come to her mother.
"The little lady is here, the lady waited early in the morning, and told the old slave to prepare stewed pears", Mother Lin smiled with folds on her face, and her silver-white hair was neatly tidied up.
Qingyan suddenly felt warm, and happily walked to her side and said with a smile: "Mom, why did you come out by yourself, and it is the same for sending a little maid."
Mother Lin said with a happy smile: "Where is it, it has been a long time since you were infected with a cold last time, and my mother has been thinking about you, and I can't wait to be the first to see the little lady."
Qingyan's eyebrows and eyes were crooked, and he helped Mother Lin's arm and entered the moon gate together, and said softly: "Let you remember, it's good now."
"Good...... That's good ......", Mother Lin wiped the corners of her eyes, frowned and said sadly: "But don't look like Miss......"
Qingyan also frowned, worried: "Is my mother still in bed?"
"No, Miss Today, in order to wait for the little lady to let Chunying dress up early in the morning, she is waiting on the soft couch under the window at this time!" Mother Lin's face suddenly became happy, and her tone was much lighter.
Qingyan smiled lightly, and was also happy about it, the original owner's character was not only kind but also twisted, and he used all his thoughts to please the old lady, and rarely came to Ningxin Courtyard, every time the second lady specially sent someone to pass the word, she would occasionally come once or twice, and she was just silent.
Ay!
"Qing'er......" Qingyan just stretched out from the heavy cotton curtain when she heard someone calling her happily.
She looked at the woman who appeared in the middle of the west room and the hall, although a face the size of a palm was not the kind of beauty that the world admired, it may be extremely fair because of her perennial illness, and a pair of watery eyes could tell that it was a woman in her thirties, and at this time, she was still holding a small stove with a peony in her hand.
Qingyan greeted him and called out in a choked voice: "Mother."
"Qing'er, come here, my mother hasn't seen you for a long time, why do you look a lot thinner, but the wind and cold are not good", the second lady Lin Ning said with a smile covering the endless sourness in her heart, and pulled Qingyan all the way to the soft couch in the west room, and the mother and daughter sat down.
"It's all my fault that my body is not angry, and I can't take care of you when you're sick", Lin Ning trembled slightly, brushing her hair with a cautious expression on her face, as if she was afraid that she would refuse.
"Mother, it's just a little cold, you don't want to put it on your body, my daughter is not thin, I don't believe you touch it, there is a lot of flesh on both sides of my cheeks because of this", Qingyan said and brought her right cheek to her hand, and said sweetly in a soft voice.
Mother Lin and Bi Qing came in with Sydney soup just when they heard this, and the two of them put down the celadon soup bowl and covered their mouths and smiled.
"You!" Lin Ning looked at her daughter's delicate face, and listened to her delicate words, and her heart warmed up, sour and astringent, and at the same time added sweetness.
I don't know if it's her delusion, she always feels that today's Qing'er is a little different from the past, but she can't see any difference.
Probably she was overthinking.
Bi Qing brought the soup bowl and handed it to the two, Qingyan looked at the clear pear soup and felt an appetite, and a small bowl quickly bottomed out.
"Qing'er used to be shallow about sweets, but today it's rare to eat a bowl", Lin Ning sighed and frowned and asked, "But is it because the food over there is not good?"
Qingyan replied with a smile: "Mother doesn't have to worry, the sisters eat food from the kitchen one by one, and the people over there don't dare to treat them harshly", she said with some worry: "It's not good for my mother to stay in the house every day for her illness, if it's warm today, why don't you go out for a walk and disperse your sickness."
"Get out? Where can I go? Lin Ning smiled bitterly: "Now that your father is gone, your mother has no entertainment, and everyone in the house is unwilling to associate with me, it is better to stay in the house and suffer their eyes."
Qingyan listened to her complaints and was a little helpless, didn't she plan to live a good life when her father wasn't there.
She patiently whispered: "The peach blossoms in the second room aunt's courtyard are blooming, let's go and take a look, the obedient peach blossoms are bright and beautiful, and when the time comes, ask the aunt to come back and make the peach blossoms drunk, and drink it today in the coming year."
Lin Ning also had a little yearning when he heard this, and asked suspiciously, "When did you get close to the second room?"
"It's close, that's not it, it's just an invitation from my aunt when I went to my grandmother's place to ask Ann to leave today, and I thought that my mother should be walking around, so I thought it should be good there."
"So what did your grandmother say today? Why did you even come to the second room? ”
Qingyan was silent for a moment with her eyebrows and eyes, some things will be made public sooner or later, it is better for her to tell her mother in person, so as not to make her unbearable.
"Mother, Qing'er has something to say to you, don't be sad when you hear it......", Qingyan tried to tell her about the changes in her marriage in the calmest voice, and the premise required her to calm down first, so she took a sip and said slowly: "Today grandmother said that the Pei family wants to withdraw from the family, why don't you give the marriage to the third sister, and the daughter agreed."
"What? You repeat? Lin Ning couldn't believe what he heard, and asked in a sharp and harsh voice.
Qingyan calmly replied to her: "My daughter has given the Pei family's marriage to the third sister!"
"Why do you make your own decisions without consulting your parents, do you still have me as a mother in your eyes, and do you still think I am your mother?" Lin Ning suddenly burst into tears and yelled at Qingyan, showing extreme sadness and sadness for the decision she made, and even some resentment.