The roads of Yuanjin Lane are all flat and stocky square stone slabs, and the high-gate compounds of every family are also inhabited by royal relatives and nobles, which look somewhat rigid and arrogant during the day. At this moment, Yuanjin Lane, because there has just been a light rain, the slippery road reflects the slight moonlight and the lights lit in front of the doors, and the dense air is mixed with the unique smell of earth after the rain, which makes this Yuanjin Lane add a bit of ordinariness and softness.

But Sikong Shaoyang didn't care how these scenes were different, for him, it was the same everywhere.

Suddenly he stopped, "Come out" as if talking to himself, without looking back or moving.

After a period of silence, Su Wu, who was hiding in a corner behind Sikong Shaoyang, walked out.

"Brother Shaoyang." She whispered with her hands behind her back.

"Why did you come out so late?" Sikong Shaoyang was not very surprised that the person who followed him all the way was Su Wu.

"I ...... When I went to look for you that day, I saw that your hair crown was a little old, so I chose a new one for you. As she spoke, Su Wu took out the things she was holding in her hand, spread out the handkerchief, and there was a red gold hair crown engraved with auspicious cloud patterns in it, with a red jade jade embedded in the center, looking up at him with anticipation and a little shyness.

"No need, I'm fine now, thank you." Sikong Shaoyang rejected her almost without hesitation.

Su Wu looked at those silent eyes and felt that her heart was falling a little bit.

She didn't take back the hands holding the crown of her hair, and Sikong Shaoyang didn't have the slightest intention of accepting it.

"Brother Shaoyang, you hate me, don't you? Don't you even look at this crown? ”

Sikong Shaoyang didn't respond to her, only said: "It's getting late, I'll send you back, otherwise your house will be worried." ”

"What if I want to follow you?" Su Wu felt as if the little seed in her heart suddenly began to grow wildly at this time, and she couldn't control herself, so she said this sentence that surprised even herself afterwards.

Seeing Su Wan's resolute face, Sikong Shaoyang did not say anything more, but turned around and continued to move forward. Su Wu continued to follow him for a distance that was not long or short.

Su Wan soon found out that this road was not the way for Sikong Shaoyang to return home, but she still stubbornly followed him. Soon, they walked out of Yuanjin Lane, and after turning a few more streets, Sikong Shaoyang stopped at the mouth of a noisy alley where strings of vermilion lanterns were hung high.

The noisy and chaotic flow of people, the smell of cheap rouge gouache, and the ambiguous shouting of the women dressed in red and green in front of the door, Xuan Yue immediately realized what kind of place this was, and turned to look at Sikong Shaoyang with a shocked face.

"Why, do you want to follow me?" Sikong Shaoyang's tone carried a hint of mockery.

"You... Have you never had me in your heart? Then why did you go to the border city to save me?! Su Wu almost exhausted all her strength, blushed and asked.

"To the border city? I'm only going to rescue for the benefit of Dongzhao, not you, in other words, I will go to the rescue if anyone goes to the border city to be a fine worker. ”

Seeing Su Wu's slightly trembling shoulders and tears that were almost bursting out of her eyes, Sikong Shaoyang approached her, lowered her body, pinched her chin, and slowly leaned towards Su Wu's face, Xuan Yue stared at his eyes in panic, and her whole body was stiff and overwhelmed.

Sikong Shaoyang suddenly stopped when he was about to touch Xuan Yue's lips, "I don't have any interest in the little girl at all, especially the daughter of a noble family like you, who is extremely boring. But...... If you go and learn from those women in the market, maybe I will look at you a few more times. After that, Sikong Shaoyang actually pointed to the women in the streets and alleys who were wearing heavy makeup.

Hearing these words, sadness, humiliation, and loss all hit Su Wan's heart, and she raised her hand, "Sikong Shaoyang, you bastard!" ”

Sikong Shaoyang was already ready to meet that slap, but unexpectedly, Su Wu's raised hand was withdrawn again, and the golden hair crown in her other hand was slammed to the ground, "Smack!" Her heart was shattered to the ground along with the red jade.

Finally, Su Wan turned around and ran away, and the sobbing sound was quickly drowned out in the noise around her.

After watching Su Wan's back disappear, Sikong Shaoyang squatted down and picked up the golden hair crown and the red jade jade that was broken in half, gently rubbed it in his hand, and sighed secretly.

"I'm sorry, Su Wan, people like me really don't deserve your love."

Almost every night, Sikong Shaoyang will wake up from the same nightmare: scarlet blood is full of dreams, his eyes are full of countless corpses, Sikong Shaoyang stands alone in the middle of those corpses, when he wants to see the faces clearly, the gray sky will rain heavily, blinding his eyes, the rain mixed with the blood of the corpse flows to Sikong Shaoyang's feet, cold and biting, he can't move or scream, everything in the dream is so quiet, quiet to a little weird, only one voice sounded repeatedly:" Why am I still alive? ”

When Sikong Shaoyang was sixteen years old, the catastrophe completely destroyed everything about him.

The war that year can no longer be described as tragic, the casualties on both sides are countless, and the last remaining people are relying on their will to attack each other with body collisions, Sikong Shaoyang saw his brothers fall one by one, and he only had one breath left, facing the last two enemies who stabbed him with a sword, Sikong Shaoyang was ready to resist desperately, although he could no longer hold the halberd.

"That's it, let's end it."

Then Sikong Shaoyang felt a sharp pain, but it was not the pain of being pierced through his body, but he was sent out with a spear by his brother, who was also the general of this battle.

A second before he was completely unconscious, he saw his brother shouting something to him, and then died with the two enemies, and then Sikong Shaoyang also fell.

After I don't know how long, a heavy rain poured down, and Sikong Shaoyang gradually regained consciousness and consciousness, and it turned out that he was not dead.

Looking at the corpses all over the ground, his brain was blank, as if he had been stimulated, he didn't remember who these were, he forgot who they were working for, and he forgot who they were beaten like this, and he only had the voice in his head that had been echoing repeatedly since he woke up: "Why am I still alive?" Why am I the only one alive? Everyone died, but I was cruelly allowed to live in this world. ”

When he was able to stand, he left the place and began his wanderings like the walking dead.

He wandered around, filthy and smelly, his hair disheveled, and his mouth kept saying, "Why am I the only one alive?" Everyone he saw thought he was a madman, and they drove him away with disgust, and some even punched and kicked him, and threw dirty water and garbage, but he did nothing about it.