After Zhu Xi left, Mo Bei packed up his things and prepared to lie down for a while, and not long after lying down, Fang Xinzi came back.

Mo Bei lay on the side and propped his head and looked at her with a smile: "I thought you were happy." ”

"How is it possible," Fang Xinzi glanced at her with a smile, "Lonely men and widows, you have to come back before dark, and I said that you would accompany me, but you ran away by yourself." ”

Mo Bei was at a loss and did not argue.

Fang Xinzi didn't grasp it, changed the topic, and talked about what happened when he entered the door: "There was a person at the door just now, I asked her if she was looking for someone, but she ignored me and left directly." ”

"Who?"

"It's kind of familiar, short and chunky."

Mo Bei listened to the description and thought of Zhu Xi first.

Has she never left?

Not long after Fang Xinzi came back, it started to rain, and the thunder shook the window, maybe it was about to enter autumn on the calendar, and it also panicked, grabbing the tail of summer and slashing vigorously.

Fang Xinzi was so noisy that she couldn't sleep, lying down and playing with her mobile phone.

The heavy rain lasted for more than an hour, and after the rain, the afternoon heat was swept away, and the wind was wrapped in moist water vapor and the slight smell of earth.

Mo Bei poked his head out of the bed, and the sky began to darken. She flipped through her phone to see the weather forecast for the next few hours, and the next rain was in the middle of the night.

She rolled over and pulled her slumber waist and found the restaurant she was going to check in this week from the memo.

Seeing her get up and change her shoes, Fang Xinzi couldn't help but ask, "Why do you have to go out every Saturday?" ”

If she hadn't been with her, she would have thought that Mo Bei was going on a date.

"Pay the grain." Mo Bei straightened his shoelaces with his feet, and pinched his throat to learn Bei's mother's tone, "Don't just because the school has a playground, you basically go out, girls still have to go out to make friends and have fun, don't wait for others to stick to your cold ass, take the initiative and make an appointment!" ”

She uttered those bitter tones with an expressionless face, disobedient like a ventriloquist, Fang Xinzi fell on the bed and laughed so much that she almost lost her breath: "Auntie...... Auntie is also heartbroken in order to make friends with you. ”

Mo Beizhi stood up and stood beside her bed, his eyes looking at her through the gap in the bed rail, "Friend, do you want to make an appointment?" ”

"About!"

While Fang Xinzi went to the toilet, Mo Bei poured a glass of water to moisten his mouth, suddenly remembered Zhu Xi, and sent her a message asking her if she wanted to be together.

Zhu Xi replied quickly, and when Fang Xinzi was tidying up, she also knocked on the half-covered door.

Fang Xinzi forgot about it after seeing it, but he felt familiar, he didn't remember who Zhu Xi was, and Mo Bei didn't explain much, the three of them put an umbrella in their bag and went out.

The restaurants that need to be checked in are also sorted out by Beima, and the quality of life in Mobei can be high or low, and it is lazy, and it can't do such a delicate thing. When she received the admission letter, her family began to search the Internet for various attractions, restaurants, and amusement places in the city, hoping that she could go out for a walk and not stay at home.

This week is a French restaurant.

The dessert is good, the amount is just right, I didn't eat very much, and I can walk for a while and make two skewers on the side of the road.

Fang Xinzi was a little depressed, she was used to Mo Bei not liking to talk, even if Mo Bei didn't say anything, she was comfortable and would not put pressure on people.

And Zhu Xi, she seems to be very uncomfortable, I don't know if it's because of the environment of the restaurant, or because she is not familiar with Fang Xinzi, she can't wait to shrink herself into a corner to become a wallpaper when eating, the more she tries to reduce her sense of existence, the more restrained she becomes, but it makes people uncomfortable.

It's just that she is Mo Bei's friend after all, and Fang Xinzi can't say anything, so she just pulled the hem of Mo Bei's clothes: "I just came out, I want to go to the night market to buy something." ”

Zhu Xi followed behind Mo Bei, there were a lot of people in the night market, seven or eight o'clock, it was the peak, Fang Xinzi had her destination, and she was crowded quickly in the crowd.

Mo Bei grabbed Zhu Xi's wrist, afraid that she would lose it. However, in the crowd, the hands of the two people holding each other are very in the way, and once Zhu Xi can't keep up, he will trip others.

"What are so many people holding hands? It's not too crowded, it's neurotic! ”

"Show your affection to a wide place, okay?"

"The man is not bad, the woman is ......"

"This look...... It's really love. ”

Zhu Xi wanted to escape.

There are so many people here, she doesn't know any of them, but they can still judge her with their eyes and words.

In such a vast place, with so many people, no one has an attitude of identification with her.

Contemptuous, playful, demeaning, curious......

They don't have bad intentions, they hate themselves......

Zhu Xi looked at the front of her, the road was occupied by everyone's feet, she couldn't settle down, she couldn't move forward, there was nowhere to stay.

She tried to break her hand out of Mo Bei's palm, but was clenched as she was about to leave, and the skin there was hot from being squeezed with force, and she was pulled and took a big step forward.

Mo Bei tilted his head and said to her, "Be careful." ”

"Mobei!" Fang Xinzi was waiting for them at the mouth of a small alley, "This old lady's fried ham sausage is particularly delicious, do you want it?" I'm in for a treat. ”

"Thank you." Mobei did not refuse.

"No...... Thank you. ”

Zhu Xi refused, Fang Xinzi knew in his heart, so he didn't say much, explained the number to the old lady, and stood on the side of Mobei and waited.

Fang Xinzi has a lot of words, and she can talk with Mo Bei in ten sentences, but she is not familiar with herself, she is powerless for Zhu Xi, and she can't show it. But once she stopped talking, the atmosphere was completely dead, and she was looking for some popular topics, hoping that Zhu Xi could occasionally interject a sentence or two.

However, Mo Bei was able to answer a few words, but Zhu Xi remained silent, lowering his head and not knowing what he was looking at.

Zhu Xi is very envious of them, Fang Xinzi, Mo Bei, mother, younger brother, roommates, they can accept and reject very calmly, and they can express their thoughts generously.

She can't, she's used to hiding her thoughts with no, even if it's something that doesn't need to be rejected or compromised.

The hot oil scalds out the salty aroma of ham sausages, like a knife cutting meat, around the trachea.

Zhu Xi found that he couldn't stand it.

She clasped her fingers, dug out a crescent-shaped mark, and anxiously pushed the words out, but when she said it, she was still cautiously asking for advice: "I'm a little uncomfortable, I want to buy medicine." ”

Mo Bei looked around, and the pharmacy was across the street.

"We're waiting for you here."

Things aren't good yet, just enough to wait.

Seeing her leave, Fang Xinzi asked, "Who is she?" It's so shy, and I'm so careful when I eat that I don't dare to eat it. ”

"When school started, she helped me with my luggage."

"Oh...... Oh! Come to think of it. ”

When Zhu Xi came back, Mo Bei was on the phone, it sounded like a family member, and the object was changed halfway, she responded patiently, answered all questions, and was very docile.

Mo Bei had no interest in shopping, the weather was unstable and it might rain at any time, so the three of them went back.

Zhu Xi said goodbye to the two and returned to the dormitory, there was no one inside, and the roommates all went home.

She had also returned home.

She took out the pills and folded them on the table, the liquid she was taking was cold, the taste was spicy, mixed with the freezing air after the rain, she shivered, pinched the bottle with her fingers and turned around, and raised her head to drink half of the bottle.

The spicy rush into the throat and into the stomach, the bubbles accumulate and swell, pushing the dinner up, and the stalk is in the throat, and there is a dull pain in the chest after crying.

Only she knew that she was so calm at the moment.

The spicy taste melted away in the stomach, and some crispy and numb warmth rushed to the top of the head.

Zhu Xi took another big sip, and the liquid in the bottle bottomed out.

The vision was foggy and writhing, and the crying in his throat melted unconsciously. She leaned back in her chair, her toes gently kicking the ground, humming some unknown ballad.

She took the last sip, the staccato tune in her nose like a lullaby to sleep, and the wine as warm and sweet as milk.

Zhu Xi tilted his head and closed his eyes, and his mind flashed back to the day when the new students registered, and the local students were called back to the school to receive the new students. The sun was so strong that it was so hot that people couldn't stand on their feet, and when she saw Mo Bei across the road, there was only one thought in her mind, this person must be very unheat-absorbing.

She thought it was amazing to herself, and she actually opened her mouth before everyone else, "New, new life?" ”

The matter of reporting to Mobei fell on his head.

They laughed at her silly, and in the heart, she knew, from their eyes, the corners of their mouths, their fingers.

At noon, on such a hot day, the initiative is to go back and forth, whoever goes is stupid.

She knew Mo Bei's gender, and at that moment, she was secretly happy in her heart.

Mo Bei really doesn't look like a girl, she cuts her hair so short, her eye colors are different, her temper is not good, I heard that she got into a fight with someone on the fourth day of military training, and was posted on the school forum.

She was a little happy, though very immoral, but she felt happy.

In this school, in this world, there is another person, she is different from everyone else, but like herself, she is out of place with her surroundings.

Later, even if Mo Bei seemed to be very welcome, even if she got along well with the people around her, she knew that Mo Bei was not happy.

Zhu Xi hadn't seen her happy.

Mo Bei is also an unhappy person, no one accepts her, and she doesn't accept others.

How can there be such a person?

Zhu Xi covered the quilt, she was cold, but her stomach was hot, she shrunk herself into a ball, the night was like a dark wave, lapping and smearing everything, she felt trapped in an island, the bed under her rose and fell, and was about to be submerged by the black water, but no one found her, no one was willing to reach out and pull her.

How can there be such a person? Do you want others to be as unhappy as you are?

She closed her eyes humming an out-of-tune song and saw a patch of white and colored strips.

It was Mo Bei's hand, with a few cooling stickers between his fingers, a candy-colored young woman.

"It's too hot, you'd better stick it up if you want to go out."

That shouldn't be something Mobei would buy.

How can there be people like yourself in the world?