So far, it's been replaced to four hundred and thirty-seven chapters, ahem, I also know that the progress is a bit slow.

But I don't have the impetuous mood I had at the beginning, and I won't forcibly skip the plot for the sake of a quick ending. During this time, I thought a lot, about the plot, about the characters, and the worldview in the book.

From the beginning, I wanted to write group portraits, writing about everyone's different thoughts and different pursuits, and also set off the cruelty of this world and the helplessness of the protagonist and other supporting characters from the side.

But helplessness does not mean resignation.

They all know that "the world is going to end", and they all agree with this statement, and there is no hope in sight.

And yet do nothing?

No!

They have a firm belief that they have something to protect, and even if their strength is meager, they are not even as good as the enemy, but they still have to fight, they must be tenacious, and they must open the way to the future.

How do you know if you don't try?

At least until death actually comes, they are alive, they can move, and they can resist.

A third of the book has now been written, and a total of two main characters have died, one is Liang Wan and the other is Cheng Shuangshuang, both of whom died for their ideals and beliefs, and even did whatever it took to do so.

They are similar, but they are different.

Liang Wan is a typical Foundation mentality, and when her parents were killed by pollution, she was already an adult, and she was extremely impressed, so she hated pollution, and her sister Liang Rong (Liu Xiuxiu) was young at the time, so her emotions towards pollution were not as strong as hers, and these were the reasons why the Foundation chose her to go to Xia Ren's side, not Liang Wan.

Because if it was Liang Wan, she might rather give up the task and kill Xia Ren, a pollutant with huge growth potential, in advance.

The purpose of Liang Wan's final action was not only her duty as a "weapon", but also her hatred of the apostle.

Even though she knew that she might lose control at any time, she still wanted to hunt down Liu Fusheng, even if the entire people in Jupiter City would be buried for her choice.

Cheng Shuangshuang is different.

She had never been in contact with the apostles before she died, let alone hated her.

But she looks weak on the outside, but on the inside she also has an unshakable side, which is to fulfill her duty as a gardener.

This duty was not given to her by the banquet, on the contrary, Cheng Shuangshuang's banquet did not go well, and even after the banquet, she completely lost her identity as a human being, lost her family and friends, but she was not able to gain the power of being a gardener.

It can be said that the banquet not only gave her nothing, but deprived her of everything.

She didn't know what she could do or what she should do, so she could only hide and cry alone.

Later, she met Jiufeng, who was also a gardener, and the strength and gentleness of the other party carved a deep imprint in her heart, and Jiufeng became Cheng Shuangshuang's only relative, and it was also her only connection with the world.

She worships Jiufeng.

In the small hospital room, the girl in the hospital gown sometimes looks out the window at the sky, imagining how beautiful and powerful the sister is fighting against what kind of nasty pollution she is, and how handsome the scene must have been.

Every time I think of this, the girl's heart will pound, and I look forward to it and yearn for it.

But his body, which is weaker than ordinary people, can't support Cheng Shuangshuang's dream.

She doesn't wear shoes, and when she steps on the floor barefoot, the soles of her feet will be unbearable, and the skin on her arms will bruise if she pinched it hard, let alone fight monsters.

Cheng Shuangshuang wants to prove her worth in this world, and she wants to be able to stand side by side with Jiufeng one day, what a joy it will be.

Then the opportunity came.

The breath of the apostles appeared in the city.

The bloodline instinct began to stimulate her desire to fight, urging her to quickly leave the cage-like ward and release the beast in her heart, and the image of Jiufeng appeared in her mind again.

"I'm going to be like her."

As a weak person, Cheng Shuangshuang ignited the heart of the strong, but in order to achieve her goal, she was also unscrupulous.

She deceived Gauler into taking his gardener's blood, even if it would make him unable to chrysalis forever.

The price of forcible transformation is heavy, Cheng Shuangshuang knows that he can't last more than a few hours, and this flawed body will collapse, but the girl is no longer weak, and she has no fear in the face of death.

Cheng Shuangshuang finally killed the apostle, proved the value of his existence, and fulfilled his ideals.

However, at the moment of death, she still has regrets: the concern for her loved one, the guilt and self-blame for cheating on Gaole, and the lament that she cannot enjoy the life of a normal girl.

Before writing this book, I only wrote a 300,000-word essay on the eunuch who fought on the street, and it was a bit difficult for me to set the goal of this book.

When I wrote more than 400,000 words, I was already aware of the pressure, the more I wrote, the more I felt that I needed to write more and more, what appeared in front of me was a huge deep pit, and at the same time there were several Lanxiang excavator professional teams in the continuous expansion of the scale of the pit, at that time I was really a little desperate, I couldn't figure out how to make up the pit.

I don't know what other people are like, but when I wrote this book, one of the troublesome points is that each distinctive character has its own story and thoughts, and these things are counted in my heart, but if I don't write it, it will be difficult to make this character concrete in the reader's mind, but if you want to write, you must add more pen and ink, and what is even more troublesome is that many characters' stories have nothing to do with the main line, and readers are not looking at the game setting.

If you think about it, the reason why I feel that there are many problems is that I am not capable enough to show the charm of a character with simple brushstrokes and attract readers to take the initiative to understand him.

In addition, I don't write well enough, sometimes I want Xia Ren to be vulgar, but I feel that it's too wasteful of time to pretend to be with ordinary people, and I can't pretend to be a stronger enemy, the reason why bad guys are bad guys is partly because they will use their advantages to infringe on your interests without scruples, and enjoy it, if Xia Ren pretends to be Liu Fusheng in the early days, I think there is a high probability that Liu Fusheng will let him feel how developed people's pain nerves can be, and then come to a whole family tidy package, and several people will expose the corpse on the street together.

The reason why Liu Fusheng didn't kill Xia Ren when they met for the first time was that Xia Ren didn't make him feel disgusted, and on the other hand, he was a little jealous of Xia Ren.

If Xia Ren dared to say a word about NMD at that time, Liu Fusheng's jealousy would immediately turn into excitement.

It's a bit of a talk, anyway I'm alive and updating all the time.

It's a little slower, though.