The inky black juice was steaming hot and had a bitter taste.

Every once in a while, Li Xiaoxue would come to him with such a bowl of decoction that she called "tonic soup", and then watch him finish it.

Faced with this bowl of "tonic soup" that was too familiar to be familiar, Shen Zhongchen suddenly felt tired.

He didn't know what the point of his life was.

"Why?"

Li Xiaoxue held the bowl with both hands and was blowing hot air in small sips.

Hearing Shen Zhongchen's question, she stopped her movements in confusion and looked at him blankly, "Huh? ”

Shen Zhongchen's eyes were scarlet, like an angry lion, and with a push of his hand, he knocked over the bowl containing the "tonic soup" in Li Xiaoxue's hand, "I asked you why!" ”

The hot medicinal juice splashed on Li Xiaoxue's hand, and it immediately turned red.

But she couldn't care about her hot hands at all, she first looked to the side, then squatted down and put the bowl in the food box, pretending that this change had not happened, "You kid, you can't talk well, you still move your hands and feet!" Where did such a big temper come from! ”

Li Xiaoxue lifted the food box, "Wait, my aunt still has the boiled tonic soup there, and my aunt will go and refill a bowl for you." ”

Shen Zhongchen pinched Li Xiaoxue's wrist hard with one hand and didn't let her leave, "Auntie really thinks that what you sent was a "tonic soup"? ”

Facing Shen Zhongchen's questioning eyes, Li Xiaoxue's pupils shrank, and her lips trembled unconsciously.

Seeing this, Shen Zhongchen smiled.

At first he seemed to sneer, but he didn't make much noise. Later, I don't know what came to mind, but the laughter grew louder and louder, and the laughter became more and more crazy.

"You know everything!"

"You still handed me the "tonic soup" with your own hands and watched me drink it yourself. ”

"What am I to you in your heart?"

"If you don't want me to live so much, why did you give birth to me in the first place?"

Facing Shen Zhongchen's repeated questioning, Li Xiaoxue looked very nervous, she looked around, and only whispered after finding that no one came out, "Are you crazy?" What are you calling so loud for! Do you want to bring everyone in? ”

"Do what?" Shen Zhongchen said weakly, "I just want to know the answer." Auntie, you answered my question! ”

Li Xiaoxue's eyes dodged, "Don't think about it..."

"I'm thinking?" Shen Zhongchen pointed to the ground soaked with medicinal juice, "I'm thinking? You dare to say that you don't know that the "tonic soup" you send me every once in a while is poison? ”

From the very beginning, Shen Zhongchen knew that there was something wrong with the tonic soup.

He saw with his own eyes that the doctor handed over the medicine to the maid beside Mrs. Shen, and told her that if the medicine was one per month, the internal organs would collapse and die within five years.

And the bag of medicine was in the hands of my aunt in a blink of an eye.

The aunt smiled and said to herself, this is for her own body.

But he didn't believe it, he didn't believe that his own mother would bring the poison to him with her own hands, and stared at himself to drink it up.

Shen Zhongchen, who didn't want her to be embarrassed, silently drank the "tonic soup" she sent, and then induced vomiting, spitting out everything she drank.

Rao is like this, his body is still eroded by poison, if it weren't for the detoxification of Yao Divine Doctor that Yan Wang Ye found for him this time, he would probably be dead.

But recently, Shen Zhongchen found that his aunt, who would only blindly forbear and retreat, didn't know anything.

She knew that there was a problem with the "tonic soup", but she still served the "tonic soup" to herself and let herself drink it on the grounds that she felt sorry for herself.

Shen Zhongchen punctured the matter, making Li Xiaoxue unavoidable.

She wanted to speak and stopped, and after a long time, she said slowly, "This "tonic soup" didn't kill you, it just made you weaker..."

"My aunt has no ability, so she can't protect you." Li Xiaoxue is defending, and she is also excusing herself, "If I don't do this, auntie, you won't be alive now." ”

"Look at the Shen Mansion, apart from you, which concubine can live past the age of ten?"

Shen Zhongchen smiled, smiling very sadly, "So, I should thank you, auntie?" ”

"Chen'er, you are born to your aunt, how could your aunt harm you." Li Xiaoxue continued, "You are obedient, and my aunt will bring you a bowl of "tonic soup" in a while, you should help your aunt and drink it, okay?" ”

"You and Xiaoxiao offended Mrs. today, if you don't drink this "tonic soup", she won't be able to get angry! Mother, this is for your own good! ”

After Li Xiaoxue finished speaking, she picked up the food box and left in a hurry.

Shen Zhongchen watched her leave, and the faint light in his eyes also dispersed.

He really wanted to die.

What is the meaning of being alive?

He was exhausted, and he lay in front of his yard door, looking at the sky.

It was pitch black, and dark clouds obscured the moon and stars in the sky.

It's like my own life, which has lost all its brilliance.

As if saying goodbye to his short life, Shen Zhongchen tried hard to recall the happy things he had experienced in this life.

However, after thinking about it, he couldn't think of anything other than the short time with Miss Siqi who made him feel happy.

Maybe there are happy days in the depths of memory, but they are buried too deeply, and Shen Zhongchen doesn't remember them anymore.

Thinking of Fang Siqi, Shen Zhongchen stood up from the ground abruptly.

I must have met Miss Siqi before I died.

She kindly sent Genli to protect herself, and if she died after Genli left, would she blame herself?

And I still have a marriage contract with her...

Will she want to marry herself?

If she doesn't want to marry herself, she has to let her find Ruyi Langjun as soon as possible, so as not to get a reputation as a Kefu because of her death.

Yes, you have to ask clearly, so as not to hurt her by making your own decisions.

Thinking of this, Shen Zhongchen was eager to see Fang Siqi.

He didn't care about anything else, found Chen Miao, who had already fallen asleep, bought the porter, and quietly slipped out of the house.

It wasn't until he was almost at the gate of the house that he realized that his behavior was inappropriate.

Coming directly to the door like this, not only will you not see Miss Siqi, but you will also attract criticism to Miss Siqi.

Shen Zhongchen thought for a while, "Chen Miao, I remember that before I left, I told you how to contact Du Juan, right?" ”

"Huh? Yes. Chen Miao, who was woken up, was still a little stunned, and he replied blankly.

"Okay, you go and contact Du Juan, just say that I want to meet Miss Siqi in Furong Garden tonight, and ask her to help."

"Hibiscus Garden?" Chen Miao looked at the sky a little confused, "It's all at this point, it should be closed there, right?" ”

"The shopkeeper there liked my paintings very much, and I had a little friendship with him." Shen Zhongchen said, "If I go to ask him, he will be willing to let me borrow it for a while." ”

Shen Zhongchen thought about a lot of places in his mind, and after thinking about it, it was most appropriate to close the Hibiscus Garden.

If this is the last time I and Miss Siqi meet, then I hope her last impression of herself is good.

"Let's go."

Shen Zhongchen asked Chen Miao to walk, while he drove the carriage on the road.

Before Miss Siqi went to Furong Garden, she still had a lot of things to do.

Living so big, this is the first time that Shen Zhongchen has taken the initiative to plan something for himself.

He was excited, and the power in his body was pouring out.

It's a good feeling.