And so, in the twelfth year of our marriage, we divorced.

The disintegration of anyone's married life cannot end so peacefully, and with the disintegration of married life, it must be a chicken feather, a lose-loser, attack each other, and hurt each other, politicians and celebrities are like this, dignitaries and dignitaries are like this, and I am no exception. If anyone can really achieve a peaceful and friendly end of a marriage, either they have no love for each other from the beginning; Either that, or the wound isn't deep enough. If you have loved deeply, it must be a kind of unwillingness, and it must be a piece of chicken feathers! When Ye'er began to file for divorce, I had lost hope in this marriage, and I was fed up with Ye'er's long-term gambling and occasional ambiguity, so I readily agreed to go to the Civil Affairs Bureau with Ye'er to go through the divorce procedures.

The end of a marriage, if you have not experienced bloody injuries and pain all over your body, then you will not easily choose to let go. The so-called letting go is just because this married life makes you feel the heart-rending pain, makes you feel physically and mentally exhausted, and makes you feel hopeless; The so-called letting go is actually just a kind of helplessness.

I'm no exception, and Ye'er is no exception, even if Ye'er secretly carries me behind my back and has done a perfect seamless connection, but if there is no bloody injury to each other, no heart-rending pain and struggle, who wants a gorgeous turn and a perfect exit, it will be impossible.

That morning, when I went through the divorce procedures with Ye'er and returned home so calmly, I looked at the empty house and thought that my twelve-year marriage with Ye'er was over.

It was the bitter cry of a heart-wrenching, heart-rending man! This kind of crying is not because I am not strong, but because I have been strong for too long, and I finally can't cry unscrupulously in this empty old house.

After 12 years of married life, I am taking care of almost everything in the family, doing laundry, cooking, taking care of the baby, earning money to support the family and tutoring the children。。。。。。 Almost everything is paid by me alone, and Ye Er has been gambling for a long time and occasionally ambiguously in the past twelve years, opening shops and dance halls, and the money she earned has long been lost by her. In the past 12 years, I have gone all the way, and I have not felt much happiness, but I just feel that I have blindly paid for this family and for the baby, and the process in the middle is so depressed, so depressed, so lonely, lonely and helpless, and there are more helplessness and bitterness.

But at that time, I was still so stupid to think that Ye'er might have to file for divorce just because she lost money in gambling; I'm still so stupid to think that Ye'er must love me as much as I love her; I'm still so stupid to think that Ye'er must love this family and baby that has been built with great difficulty through wind and rain。。。。。。

However, I was wrong, I was completely wrong, this kind of mistake, one mistake is a lifetime; This kind of mistake has made me pay a heavy price in my future life!

I am a sheep, a kind and warm sheep, and there is no evil in my heart, so I can't imagine the ferocity and evil of the wolf in any way. Even now, I have passed the age of destiny, although I have been able to see through a little human nature, but I can't learn the ferocity and evil of wolves after all, because people with good thoughts in their hearts can't learn the evil ability to harm people no matter what, even in the future life, I also try to learn some evil people's harm skills, but after all, I can't learn, but after all, I can't learn the essentials, but after all, my conscience can't get by! Because the evil and improper views of people like Ye'er are brought in their bones, and they are brought by their mother's womb. The wolf, from the moment it came out of its mother's womb, regarded eating sheep as its vocation; The wolf, from the moment it came out of its mother's womb, took eating sheep for granted.

Ye'er is also such a person, with wrong views and evil hearts, but I am still like a kind and warm sheep, believing that Ye'er is also such kind and warm, I don't know that Ye'er at this time, when I cried alone, she had happily thrown herself into the arms of another man! They were cheering, they were celebrating, their joy was built on the pain of sprinkling a handful of salt on my wounds, a heart-rending pain. The pleasure of this affair will be temporary, and they will repay it for the rest of their lives, and the truth is, it really is!

There I was crying and retching, crying bitterly, and it was no longer food that came out of my stomach, but bitter bile! But I didn't know everything Ye'er was planning for me behind my back, so I picked up the phone and said to Ye'er: "Let's remarry, isn't it because of money?" If the money is gone, we can earn it again, but if there is no home, it will be completely over, and the baby will not have a complete home in the future, let's remarry. ”

I clearly remember that on the other end of the phone, Ye'er didn't say a word, Ye'er was so calm and indifferent!

"How much money did you lose in gambling, I want to borrow money to pay it back, and in the future, we will live a good life with the baby, divorce, which is the most unfair to the child!" I then said into the phone.

"Will you give me money to help me pay off my gambling debts?" When it came to money, Ye Er on the other end of the phone hesitated a little and asked me.

I hurriedly went back and said, "Yes, no matter how much money you lose, I will find a way to borrow money and pay it back, and when the money is gone, we can earn it again, but if the home is gone, then everything is over." ”

Ye Er on the other end of the phone hesitated again, and then said, "Okay, you wait for me to think about it, wait for my call." After speaking, Ye'er hung up the phone, no matter how I called, Ye'er never answered the phone, and finally simply turned off.

Although I was so painful at the time, but through the tone of Ye Er's voice on the phone, I could clearly feel Ye Er's inner peace and indifference, although I also felt a little incredible at that time, and vaguely felt that something was wrong, but I never thought about Ye Er in a bad way. Yes, when you don't have a heart to hurt others, you will never think that others are hurting you! How sad my love is, in Ye'er's heart, my love seems so funny and cheap, even so humble!

Later, I knew that Ye'er was lying in the arms of her cheating man to answer my call, and they were thinking about how to use the opportunity of me to ask for remarriage to pay off her gambling debts to defraud me of more money.

The so-called love, but that's it! The woman I have never forgotten is so vicious in her heart!