Chapter 11: Self-Doubt
When Yin Nian returned home, Liang Zhicheng had already prepared dinner.
In the past few days, Yin Nian's appetite has not been very good, and his stomach always aches faintly.
In the two years after graduating from college, she worked too hard, ate irregularly, and had chronic gastritis, and then she quit smoking and drinking, and after eating regularly, the stomach problem slowly improved, and in recent years, she basically didn't have much stomach pain, it seems that it was three days ago, she had a stomach pain, she felt that it might be caused by excessive anxiety and lack of sleep.
Yin Nian put down his chopsticks after eating two bites of rice.
"Isn't it unappetizing?" Liang Zhicheng asked.
"It has nothing to do with rice, maybe I don't digest it well." Yin Nian said.
"Is it a stomach problem? Why don't you get some medicine? Liang Zhicheng looked concerned.
"No, it should be fine in a few days."
Liang Zhicheng poured a glass of water for Yin Nian, Yin Nian has always felt very thirsty recently, sometimes she gets up in the middle of the night to drink water, she took the water cup, and drank it in one go, in the process of drinking water, she found through the glass that Liang Zhi was staring at her, but when she put down the cup, she saw Liang Zhicheng bowing his head to eat.
Yin Nian drank a glass of water, leaned back on the sofa, squinted his eyes, and silently looked at Yang Yang who was eating.
Since the quarrel that night, Yang Yang has never said a word to Yin Nian, Yin Nian took the initiative to apologize to Yang Yang, show favor, and ask for warmth, but Yang Yang just didn't say a word, and hid when he saw her, as if he was very scared, which made Yin Nian have a headache.
In the face of the silent Yangyang, Yin Nian couldn't fight, couldn't scold, and even felt guilty for speaking loudly, in such a situation, Yin Nian really didn't know how to communicate with Yangyang, so he could only hope that time could smooth everything out and let their relationship slowly improve.
Yang Yang felt Yin Nian's gaze, put down his chopsticks, got up and walked to the bedroom.
"Have you eaten enough, Yangyang?" Liang Zhicheng asked.
Yang Yang nodded, didn't speak, and walked straight into the bedroom.
Yin Nian looked at Yang Yang's disappearing back and sighed lightly.
That night, Yin Nian had nightmares again after falling asleep, she dreamed again that Yang Po crawled onto the bed bloodily, dragging her feet, Yang Po's hands were cold to the bone, and the blood vessels in her body seemed to be frozen, cold to the bone marrow, Yin Nian woke up and found that Liang Zhicheng had gotten up.
"Another nightmare?" Liang Zhicheng stood beside the bed.
"Yes...... Or is it Yang Po......" Yin Nian swallowed a mouthful of saliva.
"You've been under too much pressure lately." Liang Zhicheng handed over a glass of water, and Yin Nian drank most of the cup in one go.
Liang Zhicheng continued: "You can't eat, sleep, and have nightmares, and I'm a little worried about your body. ”
Yin Nian took a long breath: "I don't know what's going on, in fact, I've relaxed a lot in the past two days......"
Liang Zhicheng said: "Your state is very bad, you may not be aware of it, but I can see that you care too much about this matter, too much to prove your innocence, the more this is the case, the greater the pressure." ”
Yin Nian frowned slightly, feeling a faint pain in his stomach.
Liang Zhicheng asked tentatively: "Otherwise, let's go see a doctor tomorrow." ”
"Stomach problems?"
"Stomach problems to see, but I think your pressure is too much, and it is necessary to relieve it."
"How?"
"Look at psychiatrists and the like, by chatting with them, relieve stress, only when there is no pressure, will you deal with this matter more calmly, otherwise your body will collapse before this matter is resolved."
"No, you don't." Yin Nian succinctly refused, lay down and continued to sleep.
Liang Zhicheng didn't say anything more, turned off the light, and lay down.
A few minutes later, Yin Nian suddenly said, "Zhicheng, have you slept?" ”
"Nope. How? Liang Zhicheng's voice was very sober.
"The video you saw in the car that day, how did I hit Yang Po?" Yin Nian's voice was very soft, but the words were clear and the tone was serious.
"I should have read the wrong ......"
"Let's talk about it, even if it's wrong."
"Okay...... I saw Yang Po suddenly appear on the road, you didn't have time to brake, straight crashed up, Yang Po was knocked away, and then, the car stopped on the side of the road, because Yang Po was hit on the other side, after you got out of the car, the dashcam couldn't shoot, I saw here, before I could see the back, you and the police appeared, and I hurriedly deleted the video......"
"The video you see is very similar to Yangyang's narration." Yin Nian said meaningfully.
"At that time, the time was too tight, the video was not very clear, and it was foggy, so I should have seen it wrong......"
Yin Nian got up slowly and stared at Liang Zhicheng's eyes in the dark: "Zhicheng, you tell me the truth, did you really see that I hit Yang Po in the video?" ”
Liang Zhicheng also sat up, and the two looked at each other silently in the dark.
The facial features of both of them were engulfed in darkness, only two pairs of eyes flashed with a faint light, Yin Nian's eyes were straight and wide, and Liang Zhicheng's eyes narrowed slightly, and his eyelids drooped slightly.
Liang Zhicheng hesitated for a long time before saying: "At that time, I did see it, and I did think that you wanted to hide it, if I knew that Yang Po was not dead, I would definitely not delete it." ”
"But if I really hit Yang Po, why don't I have any impression at all, why don't I remember it at all?" Yin Nian seemed to ask Liang Zhicheng and himself.
"There are two possibilities, the first one, I was wrong, and Yang Yang also remembered wrong, you didn't hit anyone, it was Yang Po who slandered you; The second is that you hit Yang Po, but for some reason, you don't remember. Liang Zhicheng wanted to say these words for a long time, but before saying that Yin Nian was either emotional or angry, and now, Liang Zhicheng felt that Yin Nian's emotions were not so resistant, so he took the opportunity to say it.
After a long silence, Yin Nian murmured, "Yesterday afternoon...... When I was driving back, I passed an intersection where an old man was walking slowly on the sidewalk...... When I had a headache, some bits and pieces flashed in my mind: Yang Po's gray cloth clothes, bloody wrinkled face, her body being knocked away like a bird, and a dangling towel...... If I didn't do anything, why did those images come to mind? ”
Liang Zhicheng's voice was very low: "Could it be that you doubt yourself?" ”
Yin Nian shook his head with a painful expression: "I don't know...... I believe I didn't hit someone, but all the signs are that I do seem to have hit someone, and I don't know what the hell is going on...... I just want to get to the bottom ......"
A strange light flashed in Liang Zhicheng's eyes, and it disappeared in a flash, and he lowered his voice and said, "If you really want to figure it out, I have a way, I don't know if you want to try it." ”
"What's the solution?"
"Talking to a psychiatrist can help you relieve stress and relieve your emotions, and secondly, you can analyze this matter from a professional point of view, maybe you will have a different view."
"You think I have a mental illness?"
"I never felt that way, I just think you're under too much pressure, and nothing will happen if you talk about it anyway, many business executives and celebrities have their own personal psychologists, in fact, it's just to find an outsider to talk freely and relieve stress."
"Could it be that I have amnesia?"
"Probably not......
Yin Nian stopped talking, lay down again, facing the direction of the window, with his big eyes open, looking at the starry starry sky, and fell into deep thought.
Liang Zhicheng also lay down.
The night was quiet, one to the left and the other to the right, silent, and they couldn't even hear their breathing.
I don't know how long it took, but I heard Yin Nian whisper: "Can the psychiatrist help me find the truth?" ”
Liang Zhicheng responded softly: "At least, it can allow you to find yourself." ”