After a long night, I managed to lose sleep.

Unlike previous insomnia, this is the first time in my life that I have felt anxious.

It's strange that I've never been really nervous at this age.

So I thought about it for a long time.

……

I have always had a lot of plans for my future, and I always think of ten steps when I take one step.

The good thing is that you are always optimistic and confident, and the bad thing is that you always feel that you have a way out.

So for a long time, I fell into a kind of comfortable but infinite effort on the road.

has been gnawing at the old book, arranging a full plan for himself every day but can be interrupted at any time, and self-encouragement has become self-abandonment.

Looking back now, I didn't make any significant progress.

In the past few months, I have tried a lot and won a lot of opportunities, but I am still not satisfied.

Why? I've been asking myself why? Why has there always been an indescribable emotion? It seems to be bound all the time.

Is it because of the parents? Because of the environment? Because of the experience? Or is it because of something else?

I can't find the answer! I still can't find it!

I thought: I'd better leave her (herself) to time!

It's all well and good to plan for yourself, but don't try to grab the results of the 10 steps all at once. Do a good job of the things at hand, learn to make trade-offs, work hard, and keep improving.

There is nothing sad in life, the sad thing is that you don't recognize yourself enough.

So from now on, start a new mental journey.

Progress day by day, and a year later, travel through time and space to compare with your current self.

I want to see how much I do and then judge how much more I can do...... How much can I do!

Don't worry about whether your actions will be approved by others.

You just have to get your own approval.

If you think you can, then you can. Isn't that what reality has proven to be?

Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, even if anyone is against it, even if the family members say no or bad abuse, it's okay.

Fight for the love in your heart!

You're never alone, you'll always have your self watching you ten years later.

How much you give now, what kind of person you will be in the future.

Every drop of sweat and every trough you have now is just to create that self that shines because of love~