Chapter 13 Finding the crux of the matter
"Brakes?" Yuan Yi asked suspiciously.
"Ever since the rescue incident, Yang Po has often appeared in my dreams, constantly pulling my right foot...... Was she blaming me for not hitting the brakes in time? Yin Nian said in surprise and suspicion.
"Can you tell us more about the process of saving people?" Yuan Yi held his chin with his right hand and tapped his nose with his index finger.
Yin Nian hesitated for a while, and finally took a long breath and told the whole process of how she rescued Yang Po and how she was falsely accused.
After listening to this, Yuan Yi said: "Do you think that your excessive stress, lack of sleep, and nightmares are because you are affected by the behaviors of Yang Po's children?" ”
Yin Nian hid his right foot under the sofa: "Maybe...... I can't do anything about them, they're just a bunch of scoundrels, and they really give me a headache. ”
Yuan Yi continued to ask: "Have you ever thought deeply about why you have such a big emotional reaction in the face of their behavior? Why do you feel uncomfortable, why do you have trouble sleeping and eating? ”
Yin Nian lowered his head and thought, "Maybe...... It's because I'm afraid of losing face, I'm afraid of what people will say about me, I'm afraid of people's questioning eyes...... I'm afraid that the perfect image I created in people's minds will collapse......"
Yuan Yi summed it up and said: "Are you afraid of what others will say about you?" ”
This sentence was like a hammer, knocking on Yin Nian's heart, causing a crack in a place that had been imprisoned for a long time in her heart, and a cold current gushed out, making her whole body tremble.
Yin Nian knew that she was right.
In reality, Yin Nian is a confident and strong woman, never flinching, very tenacious, what she recognizes, must be completed, and she is a perfectionist with strong execution, but, deep in her heart, she has always had a strong thirst for people's praise and recognition, and it is this desire that has made her successful in her career.
She is the one who finds herself in the recognition and praise of others.
Because of this, when people began to doubt her, distrust her, point, ridicule, and ridicule her, there was a problem with her self-evaluation system, which was a backlash in confidence caused by excessive praise demand.
After the backlash of confidence occurred, Yin Nian's mentality followed suitably changed, and the change in mentality led to a change in behavior, so she began to be afraid of eye contact with others, and began to take the initiative to stand in the corner of the elevator and began to walk behind her husband......
"I'd love to say I'm not afraid...... I've always been a very confident person, and that's what people say about me...... But now, I'm really scared......"
"In the past, you were too perfect, or rather, you made yourself too perfect, you were immersed in a perfect atmosphere, and you couldn't see the whole picture of reality, in fact, in this world, no one is perfect, everyone has more or less flaws, and everyone will encounter all kinds of thorny problems." Yuan Yi said in a slow, firm and powerful voice, "And the vast majority of people in this world live in the evaluation of others, they care too much about other people's opinions, and they tremble every day, so that they lose and forget themselves, but they don't know that they are the most important one, only by jumping out of the framework of being judged by others, calming down and looking at their real needs, can they find their true selves and get real peace of mind." ”
Yuan Yi's words were like an initiation, making Yin Nian figure out the problem that had been blocked before, Yuan Yi was right, she was too obsessed with shaping her perfect image, the more perfect she was, the easier it was to collapse.
This time it was falsely accused, and it was an opportunity to collapse.
Could it be that her pressure comes from this?
Yin Nian was a little surprised, a little confused, and a trace of excitement and joy, mixed emotions filled her heart, making her speechless for a while, not knowing what to say.
Yuan Yi's voice continued: "You dreamed that Yang Po was pulling your feet, on the surface it is a manifestation of self-blame and guilt, but in fact, it is also a subconscious reminder to you, wanting you to brake at work and take a break." ”
Yin Nian agreed with Yuan Yi's opinion: "I think what you said is very right, maybe it's time for me to take a break, but, in addition to nightmares, I often have some images of hitting people in my mind, what's going on?" ”
Yuan Yi said: "From a psychological point of view, if you think that you have not done something, but there are often relevant pictures in your mind, there may be two explanations: first, you really did not do that thing, but you have accepted many external hints, which affect your thinking and make you confuse part of reality in your imagination; Second, you do that thing, but for some reason, you forget about it. ”
Yin Nian asked puzzledly, "But if I did do something, how could I forget it?" People can't take the initiative to forget, and sometimes the more they want to forget, the more they will remember it clearly. ”
Yuan Yi said: "When you encounter a powerful stimulus, this stimulus makes you unacceptable in a short period of time, it will trigger the psychological automatic defense system, the main role of the system is to protect your psychological state, so that it does not collapse instantly, after triggering, the defense system will block all the causes and consequences of that incident, as if it did not happen at all, in psychology, it is called selective amnesia." ”
Yin Nian said in surprise: "There is such a defense system, why did I never know about it?" ”
Yuan Yi said: "In fact, everyone's life will more or less trigger the psychological automatic defense system, selectively amnesia to get rid of many unbearable past events, but some things are harmless, forget and forget, but can make people live more easily, therefore, even if this system is occasionally triggered, many people don't know." ”
Yin Nian said thoughtfully: "That...... Can the blocked memories be recovered? ”
Yuan Yi nodded: "Of course you can." Although it can be very painful to forcibly remember a sad past, in any case, facing the truth is the best choice, because even if you have selective amnesia, the effects of it will always exist, and nightmares are a direct manifestation, so in order to solve the problem completely, you must remember that incident again and heal yourself from the pain. ”
Yin Nian lowered his head: "You say...... Did I trigger that mental defense system and forget about the process of hitting someone? ”
Yuan Yi asked quietly: "Have you ever forgotten important things before?" ”
Yin Nian shook his head: "No ......"
Yuan Yi asked again: "Aside from nightmares and flashes of hitting people in your mind, is there anything else that can show that you hit people?" ”
Yin Nian hesitated for a while, and finally told her husband what she saw in the dashcam video, Yang Po's lawyer found a blood towel belonging to her near the scene of the car accident, and what her son saw at the scene.
After listening to it, Yuan Yi thought for a moment and said: "If it was just a dream and a clip of hitting someone in my mind, I think the possibility of you hitting someone is relatively small, but now, with these external evidence, I think the possibility of you suffering from selective amnesia exists, especially when your son said that you fainted for a period of time after a car accident, which is a sudden behavior that patients with selective amnesia often have, sometimes they wake up and forget after a sleep, and sometimes they forget after suddenly fainting, which is equivalent to a switch." ”
A trace of panic passed over Yin Nian's face, although she thought of this possibility, but when Yuan Yi said it reasonably, she was still a little difficult to accept, which not only meant that she might have selective amnesia, but also that she might really hit Yang Po.
After a long time, Yin Nian whispered, "If it's really selective amnesia...... Can you help me remember that memory? I want to know the specific details, I don't want to be so vague ......"
Yuan Yi quietly glanced at the wardrobe in the corner: "I can use hypnotherapy to awaken the part of your blocked memory." ”
Hearing that he was going to be hypnotized, Yin Nian was inexplicably a little nervous, but he still nodded: "When will it start?" ”
Yuan Yi said solemnly: "Today's consultation time is almost up, and I also have to prepare the process, tomorrow, or this time, we will hypnosis again, how about it?" ”
Yin Nian agreed, and then glanced at the wall clock on the wall, it was already four o'clock in the afternoon, and the time here seemed to pass very quickly, and before he knew it, it had been more than an hour.
After that, Yuan Yi learned about Yin Nian's childhood experience, parental relationship, married life, and family situation, and also asked Yin Nian to say what she liked and hated.
At half past four in the afternoon, the first psychological counseling ended.
When parting, Yin Nian unconsciously glanced at the vermilion wardrobe in the corner of the wall, she had already noticed that during the consultation, Yuan Yi looked at the wardrobe at least three times, could it be that there was something hidden in the wardrobe, or was there any special meaning?
Why do you need a wardrobe in the counseling room? Yin Nian was a little puzzled, but she felt that this might be Yuan Yi's personal fetish, so she dispelled the idea of asking.
After sending Yin Nian and Liang Zhicheng away, Yuan Yi returned to the consultation room, closed the curtains, sat on the armchair, and looked at the empty sofa opposite with an expressionless face, motionless, as if petrified.
After a long time, there was a soft "crunch" sound somewhere in the room, Yuan Yi woke up like a dream, slowly turned his head, and looked at the vermilion wardrobe in the corner of the wall, with a solemn expression.