Jia and I have known each other for half a year, and I have taken him to the Tong Ren Tang of the Bund No. 1 Food Store three times for dinner, and my unfamiliar colleagues thought that the two of us were lovers. I always joke and say, "We're the same sex." ”

I share a small house with him in a small house of only more than 40 square meters, there are three rooms, my husband and I live in the largest room of 20 square meters, there is also a shared bathroom, a narrow corridor and two small rooms, the wall is just pasted with wallpaper, the decoration is very simple, but it looks quite clean.

During that time, my husband went on a business trip for nearly seven months to a remote country, and I couldn't stand the loneliness in my heart and didn't want him to go.

Because the conditions over there are difficult and easy to get sick, other people in the company are reluctant to go, and then their company opened a monthly salary of 30,000 yuan, and said that it is good for the future development and will be promoted, my husband repeatedly tempted me to say that when he makes money back, he will take me to improve the accommodation conditions, in fact, I understand that he wants to make more money to go back to his hometown city to buy a house, he can't stand the accommodation environment here, even the wall, step, horse has a partition.

Half a month after the husband went on a business trip, a man moved in, at first he just moved in when I thought he was a worker here, because the room is very small, a total of only six square meters, only 1600 a month, can tolerate this small environment, and only people with very low wages will live in that kind of room, he is the same as the couple next door, our three tenants basically will not disturb each other, because the shower is in the common toilet, at least one of the three rooms is a partition, The sound insulation effect is very poor, as soon as I heard the sound of the toilet door opening, after a while I thought that the person who went to take a bath should go back to the room, I quickly took a towel and pajamas to take a bath, just went out and saw a man coming from the toilet in front of the narrow corridor, very tall, my boyfriend left for half a month, although he would call me every day, but the loneliness in my heart at that time could not disappear, I also mustered up the courage to look up at him, his face was so white, My heart was pounding like my first love, and then I found myself really reacting when I took a shower.

A number that I hadn't been contacted in a long time appeared in my text messages.

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The first time I saw frost, I just moved to this small house on Damuqiao Road The next day, I still remember that it was the second half of 2017, when I just finished my first year of research, our school's dormitory building had just been built, and most of the air quality in it was not up to standard, I was a medical student, and I attached great importance to my own health, the most important thing is that all the subsidies added up to more than 3,000 per month, so I found a place to live outside the school. The housing prices in Shanghai are really ridiculously expensive, my small room is only six square meters for 1600, I originally wanted to live for a month at most and then sublet out.

Since moving in, my sleep habits are no longer limited by others, but the long nights are long, and I always feel lonely.

At half past five that night, I was severely criticized by my supervisor because of my poor weekly academic report in the teaching and research department, and I didn't want to study at night, so I prepared to wash up early and play with ipad in bed.

I just opened the inner door of the house, she and I saw each other at the same time, we were both stunned, this is also the first time in my history how to clearly see the appearance of a tenant here, not very tall, at most 161, and a little chubby, but the face is very well maintained, very white and clean, looks smaller than me.

"You've just moved in."

I didn't expect her to talk to me, and after my observation in the past two days, the tenants here are relatively honest and easy to get along with, and they come back at night and talk quietly, for fear of affecting other people.

I saw her bright smile and my heart was infected, "yes." “

"You're not still a student, right?"

I don't know why, but she stared at me when she talked to me, and I certainly wasn't the shy kind of person, so I laughed. "In graduate school, there are people in their twenties, and they must be the boss."

She smiled at me again, and I gave way to her, and she took the pot with the white rice in her hand and went to cook the rice. I have a throbbing feeling in my heart, it's been a long time since I've talked to the opposite sex like this.

As soon as I finished saying this, I opened the door and went back to my room, it was so stuffy that I immediately turned on the large antique air conditioner that took up half a square meter of the house, only facing a window in the room. The sound of it running made the room less lonely.

Another couple next door usually comes back at ten o'clock in the evening, and now there are only two of us at this time, so I opened the door to wash an apple to eat, in fact, I was looking for a chance to soak her, she was very happy when I looked at her back carefully in the past, she was very happy, she combed a beautiful head, slender legs, very white, at this time I knew that she was wearing pale pink pajamas, but with a small coat on top.

When she saw me coming, she turned her face sideways and thought of me, and I still remember that look for the rest of my life, just like seeing my husband, and I was almost melted by her, and I forgot all the unhappiness in my heart.

She asked me if you had dinner.

I knew that before ten o'clock, there would only be the two of us in this little house, and I jokingly said, I haven't eaten yet, or you can burn a little more, and we'll eat together.

She didn't reply to me right away, and I saw her movements pause for a moment.

"Okay, then I'll burn more. You go and dig a bowl of rice near the door of my room. ”

When she said this, my heart was in great ecstasy, but my face remained calm.

She said this, and thought of something, but told me that she went by herself, and that I didn't eat the apple, and stood there watching her, admiring the girl hurrying into the narrow corridor, and then came over with her head down and poured the rice into the pot.

I didn't know that she was married, and at my age, it was the most vigorous time, and I especially wanted to find a woman, and I desperately wanted to chase her, and I thought I was fine, and the thought of being able to be a pair with her in the future made my heart feel a pang.

It's a rare opportunity for me to accompany her to wash vegetables and cook rice, and she praised me for being really capable and asked me if my girlfriend taught me. I said that I have been busy with academics, how can I have a girlfriend, if I can have a girlfriend like you, I will cook food for you every day.

She smiled slightly, it was just beautiful, but her eyes and face were not very smooth smiles, I think she probably has a boyfriend, but I don't mind.

When we got to her room, it was really big, almost three times as big as mine, and I was a little stunned. She said that if you are still a student, you can rent a house in Shanghai, and most of them are rich and handsome.

I laughed and said, if you are my girlfriend, I can become a real rich and handsome.

She smiled, and she laughed so happily that my whole being was infected by her. I took advantage of this time to get close to her, and I could feel her body tremble a little. Her expression changed, and I didn't move, so I talked to her about some things about each other, and then she told me that she was married, and my heart was very uncomfortable, like a stone sinking to the bottom of the water, and she felt it and patted me with her hand. She said that her husband had known her since junior high school and had always had a good relationship, but this time she went abroad alone to make a lot of money, leaving her alone at home, and she said she was lonely here. Later, she leaned on my shoulder and cried.

I really wanted to hold her at the time, I didn't move, let her lean on, my heart was very blocked and uncomfortable, I always felt that she was thousands of miles away from me, and we were simply people from two worlds.

In the days that followed, she would rarely come back at five o'clock, and sometimes she would deliberately avoid the time when I came back, and seeing that the cracks in her room were dark, my heart felt as if I was trapped in a dark abyss. I didn't stay any longer, I sublet the house out for about a month, and when I was lying on the couch in the dormitory, with the night view of Xujiahui outside the window on the 20th floor, I always felt uncomfortable that I had lost something.