Chapter Forty-Nine: A Long-Lost Embrace
The summer vacation of graduating from high school is a bit long, especially the days when I look forward to the college entrance examination score line, it seems that almost every day is counting, counting the days, the college entrance examination scores should come out in these days.
Shen Xia was working in the playground at this time, she learned from the boss here for a few days before learning to tie all kinds of balloons, and occasionally the balloon was blown to the point that her hand was very painful, but slowly she got used to it. She helps to sell it every day, and she can get a reward of seventy or eighty yuan a day, and she can also watch the happy appearance of those cute children receiving balloons from her hands, which makes her inadvertently feel better, the smiling faces of the children are always the purest, they have no distractions, and when they come into contact with them, Shen Xia feels that her mood is much better.
Although she didn't know if she had been admitted to the university she wanted to do, she still had to make some preparations. She didn't want to drag down the third brother anymore, he should have started a family a long time ago, and he should have planned for himself, but he was dedicated to her, and now that he finally has a girlfriend, how can she let the third brother do this for her. Even Lili is also a good girl, knowing their situation, she followed the third brother without regrets, never mentioned marriage, buying a house and a car, and said that she would go to college together, but Shen Liang refused, because Shen Liang knew that she also had a younger brother studying at home, and most of them also relied on her to pay for living expenses. Shen Xia looked at the two people who had been planning for her, she felt how many good things she had done in her previous life, and she had only become the third brother's sister in this life, so that she could meet a sister-in-law like Lian Lili.
As soon as the college entrance examination was over, she told the third brother that she was going out to work for the summer vacation, but the third brother didn't let her, saying that she should have a good rest, she has not relaxed since high school, and has been working hard, he is a little distressed in his eyes, and finally the college entrance examination is over, how to let her relax and relax. But Shen Xia felt that this was a waste of time, her time was precious, and she couldn't afford to waste it, the third brother said that she couldn't do it, so she had to let her come out, but it was still stipulated that her working hours were not allowed to exceed 8 hours a day, Shen Xia knew that this was the third brother's biggest concession, she could only discuss with the owner of the playground, fortunately, this boss was also a person who opened the yin, and did not embarrass her.
Shen Xia finished selling the last balloon and finished her work today, a group of students wearing junior high school uniforms passed in front of her, she suddenly remembered those classmates in high school, whether they had sarcastically mocked her, blamed her, or defended her, and comforted her, I don't know where they are now? Even if they hate her no matter how much they hate her, they still become passers-by as soon as they graduate from high school, who will always remember those small contradictions in the past? Those who sprinted for the college entrance examination with her in the past, are they looking forward to the notice of admission to the college entrance examination like her? Most of them are people from different cities who are assigned to high school, and now that they have graduated and separated, they have returned to their own place, right? They haven't been together since the last reunion, and they just have some contact with each other. She occasionally flipped out Xu Ting's classmates to see, and there were all kinds of photos of her classmates on it, so sunny, so dazzling, so nostalgic. She started to miss them a little, and although she didn't really talk to them much, and some didn't even know where they were from, she did like the feeling of being with her classmates, listening to them talk about things from all over the world, and seeing their unpretentious smiling faces. It's a pity that when she likes this feeling, they are already facing parting, and she thinks that in the future university, she must cherish the time with her classmates. And all of these things are not found in the Shen family's group.
"Natsu-chan."
Shen Xia wandered for a while and was about to call it a day and go home from work, when a voice stopped her, she was stunned, and turned to look at her, familiar and unfamiliar.
Shu Xiaoxiang finally found out that she was working here for a summer vacation, and she also wanted to try her luck, but she didn't expect to really meet her, she felt very sad, and she had to do everything possible to see her children. Xiao Xia, this child, is too indifferent to her, probably because she has been ignoring her feelings all along! thought that as long as she didn't value her, the Shen family would not send her away, but she forgot that she was just a child, and she longed for maternal love more than anyone else, she had been called "broom star" by the Shen family and had never received a trace of love, but she didn't expect that even her own biological mother would treat her like this, did she despair from the bottom of her heart? In her memory, she seems to have kissed herself, she pushed her away with her own hands, and now she is almost a stranger, who caused all this? Every time she thought of this, she felt that her heart was about to be broken, and the flesh that fell from her body had no affection for her.
"You're here." A breezy greeting, Shen Xia looked at her, she seemed to be much older, although her hair had been specially tidied up, she still had white hair, even if she had some rouge water on her face, she couldn't cover her haggard appearance, her mood was also extremely complicated at this time, the person in front of her was her mother, but she didn't know how to get along with her, she always avoided her before, but now she felt that her heart seemed to be touched a little, a little unbearable.
"Do you still hate me?" Shu Xiaoxiang's eyes were a little red, was she finally willing to stop and pity her, a mother?
"I hated it before, but now I don't hate it." She has already forgiven her father, what if she forgives one more mother, it's just that she is still not used to being close to her, after all, after so many years of estrangement, her heart will not be opened in a while.
"Konatsu...... You've really grown up. Shu Xiaoxiang looked at her, her height had surpassed herself, but she was a little thin, and her eyes were a little warmer, no longer as cold as before.
"Yes, we have grown up, but you have grown old." Shen Xia said very little, I don't know why, she suddenly wanted to hug her, probably after so many years, she still had some longing to return to her arms in her heart, what kind of feeling was that? She couldn't tell herself, but she had this thought.
"I'm sorry, over the years, I haven't fulfilled my responsibilities as a mother." Her daughter was a little touched by this, and it was probably the most beautiful sweet word she had ever heard. Shen Xia didn't speak again, just stepped forward and hugged her, this hug has probably been longing for each other for a long time, but it hasn't been spoken, Shu Xiaoxiang is also a little trembling, it turns out that she can still hug her daughter like this, all this is true, not a dream.