If you show her once, she will get used to seeing it a second time, anyway, you won't care, the score test is hers, you have worked hard to review, but she has no trouble to sit and reap the benefits of the fisherman, do you say this is fair?

She fell into a short silence, what he said did not make sense, no one had ever cared about her feelings, she was afraid of offending people, she did not dare to say a word more, let alone say a "no" when others turned their heads to look at the answers to their test papers during the exam.

Xiao Han raised his head, a pair of timid but affectionate eyes seemed to blend with his gaze in an instant, and only a light touch touched his heart.

That was something she hadn't had in the past 17 years, and the air of dusk condensed a layer of golden light, ethereal and misty, reflecting their state of mind at the moment.

Xiao Han gently rested his head on Xiao Ziyu's shoulder.

They didn't speak, and even their breathing became clear.

The two Xiao love, green and sprouting.

Until many years later, they never understood whether the love that they had never confessed was considered a first love?

Xiao Han has always taken a wait-and-see attitude towards love, she feels that the heroine of the story cannot be her, but the development of everything in the world has its own laws. She is grateful to Xiao Ziyu, they are the same kind of people, before this, she has always locked herself in a dark cage, Xiao Ziyu's appearance not only gave her the key to open the cage, but also warmed her long-term cold and lonely heart. She began to feel that she was not unnoticed, and that she would listen with her head held high and make playful gestures to get someone's attention during class.

Xiao Ziyu is the kind of boy who is very popular with girls in the class, tall and thin, elegant manners, he doesn't talk much, but his expression is very dignified, and he is very calm, so some teachers or class cadres always love to let him help do things.

Xiao Han once wondered nervously, did he like himself? If you like it, why hasn't he even said a sensational word like "I love you" after so long? If he doesn't have feelings for her, why help her out of the lonely world of being alone again and again, and stand up when she is most helpless?

He still asks her homework as usual, if she has a topic that she can't do, he will definitely put down his studies to help her, and if he can't think of it, he will ask other classmates. Because he knows Xiao Han, she will never take the initiative to ask others questions.

The story is still quietly developing, until the twists and turns of that text message make it change dramatically.

On July 7, the sun turned cloudy.

Xiao Han prepares for the final exam at home, the final exam of the first semester of the third year of high school.

Mom and Dad are watching TV in the living room - "Eighteen-Year-Old Sky".

Xiao Han didn't know that when she read the last sentence of Li Qingzhao's "A Cut of Plums" - "I frowned, but I was in my heart." The mobile phone she put in the living room vibrated for a moment, it was a text message, and the sender was Xiao Ziyu.

There was a knock on the door of the room.

Mom and Dad had gloomy faces and their phones in their hands.

Xiao Han, you tell your parents, are you in love at school? There was an irresistible majesty in Daddy's voice.

Xiao Han was most afraid of him since he was a child, especially when he lowered his voice like now, he was really angry.

Mom took out her mobile phone helplessly, Xiao Han, a person named Xiao Ziyu sent you a text message just now.

As soon as she heard the name Xiao Ziyu, she felt like she was being shocked, and she couldn't help but get excited, and even reached out and grabbed the mobile phone in her mother's hand.

A text message from Xiao Ziyu.

I like you, it's easy to type, it's easy to write, and it's easy for others to say, but why can't I say it in front of you. Today is Tanabata, solemnly say to you, I like you. ”

Yes, he finally confessed and chose the seventh day of the seventh month. Originally, she was like Lin Daiyu in the Red Mansion who was looking forward to love but waiting for the arrival in a panic, hiding the expectations in her heart very well, looking forward to it on the one hand, but refusing and contradicting it on the other hand.

Between them, there is a bottom line that cannot be crossed.

Dad took a hard puff of his cigarette and exhaled a misty smoke, as vague as the twilight they had been together that day.

Dad said, Xiao Han, you are going to take the university entrance examination.

I know.

You must know that your mother and I both have high expectations for you, and your uncle's youngest son, who is also your cousin, took the exam last year, don't embarrass our family.

I know.

The purpose of your high school is just to get into college. Obedient!

I know.

So, what is the choice between love and learning?

Mom and Dad all looked at her with great expectation, they both knew their daughter too well, she had no courage to rebel, only to give in.

Study hard. She bit her lower lip, tears circling in her eyes.

Xiao Han is still Xiao Han, destined to be lonely alone.

She walked alone on the tree-lined path sprinkled with bits of sunshine, went to the cafeteria to eat as soon as she got out of class, and walked alone on the way back to the dormitory after evening self-study......

Xiao Ziyu came to find her, he waited in her dormitory all night, and shouted loudly, he said Xiao Han, are you so desperate to make up your mind?

Yes, he didn't understand, how could he possibly understand why she seemed to be a different person to him overnight, maybe this was the real her, but he never knew.

The girls in the dormitory couldn't bear to listen to it, and they said Xiao Han, don't go too far.

Xiao Han is reading the 33rd chapter of "A Dream of Red Mansions", the part where Jia Baoyu was beaten.

She thought, there are some things, it's better not to break through, the passion is over, it should always be light and light, Jia Baoyu has been fighting for so long, but she still can't escape the fate of being beaten. Going along with it is sometimes the best way to protect yourself.

She remained silent.

It rained so hard that night......

Everyone consciously covered Xiao Ziyu and ignored Xiao Han.

They all said that Xiao Ziyu is so stupid for you, such a woman is not worthy of you like this, hot and cold, when the interest comes, you are a treasure, and after the interest, you are nothing.

Xiao Ziyu didn't give up, he said I'll wait.

Wait, wait, wait.

The long wait was exchanged for a mutilated ending, at five o'clock in the morning, Xiao Ziyu left without looking back.

At this time, the rain has passed and the sky is clear.

Xiao Han let out a long sigh of relief, which meant that she could put all her mind on studying without any interference, and she really couldn't afford that kind of stalemate.

In MissWu's English class, she played with a newly purchased ballpoint pen with her right hand, pausing to scribble and write, and still reciting words in her mouth, looking innocent.

She didn't know why she was pretending to show him on purpose, though she didn't know if he was still paying attention to her.

Their seats were separated by three tables in a row and two tables in a horizontal row, and Xiao Han was sitting in front of him.

MissWu's class is still full of lively atmosphere, this young female teacher tries to use her youthful vitality to lead this group of children who are younger than herself, they have long been weighed down by the four heavy burdens of "key universities", and then gradually numb.

She was a little excited, don't be like this, students? Don't hang your head all day like an old woman on the verge of death, you are only less than 18 years old, you shouldn't be like this!

Only 18 years old? Why does Xiao Han feel that he is so old that he is about to die?

Is it because of Xiao Ziyu's departure?

They were the same again, unrepresented, as cold as ever, as if none of this had ever happened.

Xiao Han no longer has any hope.

What is youth, she doesn't know how the word crazy is used for its decoration, she only knows that she is like a child waiting for love, with a beautiful dream castle like Grimm's fairy tales, but when the reality is mercilessly placed in front of her, she has to extinguish all her illusions.

This may be the best for both of them, only fairy tales with no ending at the beginning are just fantasies. "Going to university" is the most cruel but also the most important.

It's just that when Xiao Ziyu, who was dressed in a clean light blue school uniform, silently took Ye Haiou's hand to the cafeteria to eat, she still felt a little sad.

After that, the college entrance examination was carried out uneventfully, and Xiao Han was admitted to a local second-class school, listened to his parents, and took economics.

MissWu's wedding invited several students who had taught, and Xiao Han was also invited.

Dressed in a white wedding dress, MissWu warmly entertained Xiao Han, and she said that among the students I have taught, I still have a good impression of you, and I like to drag my chin with one hand and turn the ballpoint pen with the other hand during class.

Xiao Han just laughed vigorously.

MissWu asked her if she had a boyfriend, she shook her head, on the college campus, couples can be seen everywhere, but she is still alone, she doesn't dare to communicate with others, she doesn't dare to say a word in front of others, she still participates in the evening self-study on time.

Before college, she always felt that she was studying for the university entrance examination, but in fact, it was not, it turned out that studying was just a way for her to escape from reality, and only by living in exercises could she forget the choices and fears in front of her.

MissWu took her hand affectionately, like a big sister who hadn't seen her for a long time, she said Xiao Han, you and Xiao Ziyu are really a pity, during that time, the teacher saw that you were very close, and thought that you had decided to be together, the teacher could see that you both liked each other, but why did you separate in the end?

Xiao Han still laughed, laughing a little like self-deprecation, MissWu, you won't understand.

MissWu said that the teacher naturally doesn't understand and doesn't want to understand, but the teacher just wants to tell you that the man the teacher is going to marry today, we have been in love since high school, and we have been in love for ten years through ups and downs, and finally we are together.

That moment was forever, and when MissWu walked into the wedding hall to accept everyone's blessings, she suddenly felt that she had already gray hair.

The smile of the young man who had the same surname as her and was willing to share the ups and downs with her was frozen on the face of time, and he could no longer touch it or find it.

If she insisted blindly and no longer hesitated, she would naturally not choose to escape and give up, then she would be able to enter the palace of happiness with him like MissWu.

The end of the story is that Xiao Ziyu finally became Ye Haiou's boyfriend, and in the four years of college, they loved each other and worked hard for their common ideals.