This kind of personality of mine is really bad, I always get hurt, and every time I get hurt, I always reflect on myself, whether I am not good enough, but on the contrary, because I am doing too well, I often get hurt.

A few years ago, when I was assigned to work in that small fishing village, we spent most of our free time except for work, it was a period of rapid social transformation, the economy was developing, and many new terms were emerging, including some new leisure ways gradually moving to the city streets and the countryside.

What I remember most clearly is that people started to wear bell bottoms at that time, and men and women in the streets and alleys were proud to have a pair of bell bottoms, which were very large and large and spread all the way down from the knee to the end of the pants in the shape of a large flar. The funny thing is that when you walk on the dirty dirt road in these bell bottoms, as you walk by, the road behind you will always be dragged clean by your wide bell bottoms, and your bell pants will always be covered with tawny dirt dust, it doesn't matter, when you arrive at the destination, people will cross their legs and dust off the trouser legs, which will not affect people's normal wear.

Later, bell bottoms are not popular, and there is a kind of pants called "running pants" that are popular, mostly black, and bell bottoms are just the opposite, the trousers of the pants are very narrow and small, but the crotch is very fat, the crotch of this kind of pants can even be exaggerated to extend to people's knees, such pants are indeed more comfortable to wear than bell bottoms, maybe wearing this kind of pants is more suitable for running, so it is called "running pants", this kind of pants will be sewn on the back of the trousers with a small rectangular white cloth label, people compete to expose it, By the delicacy of the label, so as to judge whether your pants are genuine or fake, for this reason, several young people in society will fight on the street for this, and if you don't get it, you will usher in a fight.

In addition to the change of clothing fashion, the most popular at that time belonged to billiards, whether it is urban or rural, there are open-air billiard tables everywhere, we are bored after work, a few people will go to the dock of the small fishing village to play billiards, this is the most lively place in this small fishing village, there will be many hawkers to sell fish and shrimp here, there are several restaurants, small hotels, barber shops and the like, of course, its liveliness will also attract nearby social youth to come here to play billiards.

As we went back and forth, we got to know these young people, because their relatives such as younger brothers or sisters would attend our school more or less, so they were always very polite to us. At that time, I always envied them, thinking that they should be the real life of the like, chic, fun, there is a sense of righteousness, all day idle, full of swearing, bullishness, dominance, and they always eat in the restaurant every once in a while, our salary at that time was only seventy or eighty yuan a month, if we want to go to the restaurant to pay for the meal, it is simply impossible.

Then one day, a young man named Xiaolinzi we knew warmly invited a few of our colleagues to his house on Saturday night, and we really couldn't shirk it, so we decided not to go home this Saturday and went to his house for dinner and drink.

When he got off work in the evening, he came to the school and took us to his house for dinner, and when he walked to the dock, he said that he wanted to buy some food and go home, but he saw that he had turned over his pockets, and only turned out a few dollars and a few dimes, and finally enough to buy a few fish, and when we were competing to pay for him, he was beaten to death and did not agree, and his tone was resolute that if we were asked to pay for him, then it would be ridiculed on the rivers and lakes. And repeatedly explained that there are still many dishes at home, and it is enough to buy a few more fish.

His family lived in a small village four or five miles away from the school, and when we followed him all the way to his house with a smile and laughter, his father saw that we had so many people at once, and hurriedly greeted him warmly, and we sat down in the main house, waiting for the food to be served and then we could start drinking.

It wasn't very long, and the dishes were served, a total of four dishes. One is dried radish, one is the leftover tofu that his family may eat at noon, the other is salted soybeans, which seems to have just been made, and the last big dish is a big pot of fish, so a few fish were made into a big pot of fish by her mother, of course, there are almost no fish in the pot, but a kind of pickle that almost every household pickles in winter!

Fortunately, his father usually has the habit of drinking, and there are several bottles of wine that his father usually drinks at home, and the wine is full, and his father is embarrassed to explain, in fact, you don't understand, you would rather eat fish than fish. Grilled fish with this pickle, the pickle tastes the most delicious, because the freshness of the fish has been absorbed by the pickles, but the fish is not very delicious.

We also nodded awkwardly, because we knew best what we had just experienced when we bought fish at the dock, and everything might just be a good face for the young people in this society. There are several young people in us, and we only have such a dish, is it enough to eat? If I knew this, I might as well not have come. If we hadn't come, we might have been sitting at the dinner table at home with our parents eating.

That night, there was a lot of leftovers, and we barely moved our chopsticks, and none of us dared to touch the chopsticks, but we drank a lot of wine.

On the way back I thought: this is not the life I want, this is not the life I envy, behind the surface of their scenery is more poverty and ignorance.

In the subsequent interactions, we slowly diluted our interactions with such social youths, and we also learned that their usual eating and drinking were obtained by improper means. They are really poor, one is material, and the other is spiritual.

Their scenery is always exaggerated on their faces, but the stories behind them are so sunless.

If you want to become a wolf, then your conscience will not be able to pass, you will have trouble sleeping, you will tremble, you will be worried and afraid。。。。。。 I am still myself, and I may be hurt, but I always believe that good luck will accompany the good!

If you don't have the right three views, you are not a person all the way, and you are destined to be unable to be friends!