Hey, I'm very depressed now, I opened QQ, and when I looked around, there was no one to talk to, and I went around there, and finally came here to talk......

In fact, find someone you want to talk to... Yin, but she's not online, her family conditions are not very good, maybe she won't know that it's the Year of the Monkey when she sees the message I sent her......

Girlfriends...... Hehe, it used to be really suitable for heart-to-heart talk, but now... Not necessarily, the more I feel up, the less pure this friendship becomes, and now we... It feels like friendship has gone a little sour... I went to play with her yesterday, but it didn't feel very good, and it was far from being as easy as blowing up the kitchen with Yin's women (we went to Yin's house to buy vegetables and cook together a few days ago)

In fact, I envy their friendship, and I can see that they treat each other sincerely, without any ...... Distracting thoughts, playing with them feels very relaxed, but with girlfriends...... It's very tired, it's tired, but I still have to force a smile

So when I wanted to talk to someone just now, I vetoed her at once... Forget it, I'll talk about my troubles first, and after talking about the above thing, I'm more blocked nowT^T

My mom always said that I couldn't buy vegetables and cook when I was so old, and I said every day... Who's child, the same age as me, what can everyone do, in short, devalue me worthless...

I wondered if I had tried it. Did you make me do it?? Right! You don't want me to take the initiative, uh-huh, yes

But why do you want me to stir-fry a dish and call it there for a long time?? I felt like I'd blow up the whole kitchen!

I also buy groceries and cook, but you never gave me a chance to show it! Today you took your brother to the doctor and was not at home, and yesterday you clearly said that I would solve the cooking problem, but why did you end up handing it over to grandma??

Right! In the eyes of others, your mother loves you! She is reluctant to make you tired, hehe, that's really thanks, but I don't need it, I don't need this so-called love

Other people and my mother often say to me, why don't you appreciate and appreciate what your mother has done for you and paid so much?

I remembered a sentence on the Internet "I like apples but you gave me a box of bananas" I think this sentence is very illustrative of my thoughts, you don't give me what I want, what do you make me appreciate to you??

I think I'm a very self-reliant, I want to be independent, I don't want to rely on others for everything, but my mother always wants others to rely on her, yes, I can understand the feeling of a child who has relied on herself since she was a child and doesn't need her, but he can't let me always develop the habit of relying on her!

She developed that habit for my brother, asking my mother to take the meal all day, asking my mother to wash the clothes, and even the fruits to be cut up by my mother one by one and put them in front of him before he ate them

I'm so annoyed right now...... I can't pour out the taste in my heart, and I don't know how to organize the language to pour out......

Anyway, under her nasty umbrella... My results......

At home, there are people who help their parents stir-fry and cook, and I will take a look at it......

More than a dozen hands were raised together, and my head was lowered, and I wanted to lift it, but I didn't have the confidence...

"Eh, how do you cook at home?"

“……………… Huh"

That's why there was a fried kitchen organized by me and Yin, and we had a lot of fun that day, five or six of us went grocery shopping and cooked together, just our children, without the participation of adults... I was really happy and my cooking skills were appreciated by them... Really happy......

In fact, the upset is not that she won't let me cook, but that she doesn't trust... I sent her a picture of me stir-frying that day, and she said she was going to let me cook in the future...... But in the end...... It's not distrust......

Right... I'm just useless in her heart...... After all, with the backing of my brother's achievements... Hehe... Confessed...

Come on, so be it... The bitterness in my heart still can't be expressed in words, just like doing a Chinese reading problem, knowing that this is the case, but I just can't express it, that feeling...... It's really uncomfortable... Writing it down all the way, it feels like it's all changed... deviated from what I thought in my heart...... Come on! Take it yourself............ This reminds me of one thing...

"I'm going to move all my stuff back, and I'm going to divide classes next semester"

"What! Then aren't you going to the regular class?"

That's right... That's my mom's first reaction...... However, after the results came down, it did not ...... Hehe...... Trust? hehe

At that time, I secretly cried in the bathroom, but in the end, when I finished cooking and eating with Yin, I was able to say it lightly... It's not easy... Maybe... Behind every breeze... Both

Anyway, it should heal in a while...... It's time to get used to it......

…………………… Time Dividing Line..................

Yesterday, the third day after I finished writing this......

Ay...... Last night, it was also the fourth day that my mother took my brother to Guangzhou, and my mother, who had not heard from her, suddenly said "I haven't eaten" on QQ last night

"Hmm"

"Is Dad back?"

"No," he answered honestly at the time, without thinking too much about it

A few hours passed.........

"Hasn't Dad come back yet?"

"Come on, he just said he would bring me something delicious," I replied honestly

"Oh"

And then...... There is no then→_→

At this time, my dad also came back, he knocked on the door and I opened the door for him, he looked at his phone and said, "Mom just asked you if I came back"

"Uh-huh" I still didn't think too much, and answered honestly, but I had a little doubt in my heart, how did he know

"Did you say I didn't come back?"

"I ......" Before I could finish speaking, I heard my mother's voice coming from my father's phone......

"Fooling around outside every day, what time do you get home at ............"

It dawned on me that my heart was hurt a lot...... I haven't been in touch for a few days, and as soon as I get in touch, I come with a purpose......

My heart hurt at the time, but now that I think about it, it's still hurt... I don't like meaty words and things, so I never say or do those meaty things

I like to hurt others, and when others are sad, I still lose, and I lose you the greatest comfort I can give, and then some people don't like my character, so I said "glass heart!" Stay away from me! ”

But I didn't expect that I was also a glass-hearted ...... 5555~