The red monster is completely gone.

Gu Yang beckoned, and the little black balls disappeared on the spot.

The limited food of a piece of iron every day forced the elegantly rolling little black balls to starve to death.

They hadn't eaten a full meal in a long time, and they were so hungry that they gnawed all the monster bones.

The soldiers looked at Gu Yang with awe.

Gu Yang smiled at them.

"Major Gu Yang, there is another place that needs support. Adjutant Lin Huo shouted.

Gu Yang hurriedly turned around and got into the car: "Quick!"

Time passed quickly in the midst of the support, and by the evening the results came out, out of three thousand, with a total of fifty-two soldiers lost, and more than three hundred soldiers wounded of varying severity.

Gu Yang sat on the edge of the campfire and pondered.

Before coming out this morning, everyone was fine, and in less than twenty-four hours, fifty-two people had lost their precious lives.

Gu Yang's mood was a little complicated.

Life is so fragile.

What are they throwing their blood and their heads for?

To have a full meal?

For the sake of the country?

Are these so important that they are more important than life?

Today, a soldier died at the feet of Gu Yang, and he died laughing, laughing with relief.

In the midst of spiritual disasters, too many people have lost their loved ones and loved ones, and for them, every day of their lives may be a torment.

Only the tense battle can make them temporarily ignore the fact that they are alone.

Only death can make them let go of everything.

People are never a simple piece of paper, and writing a few lines can represent all of them.

"Major Gu Yang, what are you thinking?" said Adjutant Lin Huo, fiddling with the fire with a tree branch.

Gu Yang sighed: "Why do you want to be soldiers?"

Adjutant Lin Huo was stunned, he didn't expect Gu Yang to ask him this.

"Defend the country, defend the people. Adjutant Lin Huo replied affirmatively, "Even if you shed blood and die, you will not hesitate." ”

Burning wood crackled, little sparks flew over the fire, the night wind gently shook the flames, and the flickering light of the fire shone on the cheeks of the two men.

Gu Yang said in a low voice: "The so-called country, the nation, these concepts, aren't they all made up? Then, you sacrifice yourselves for these concepts......

Perhaps due to the influence of the blood in his body, Gu Yang has been a person who has lacked a sense of community and belonging since he was a child.

He was alone.

Nowhere did he feel part of a collective.

He felt like a stone had been thrown into a heap of eggs, and no matter how hard he tried to disguise it, it didn't fit in with the environment.

It manifested itself at a very young age.

When he was in kindergarten, he sat alone at the table and watched them blankly while the other children were playing happily together.

Later, when he went to school, Gu Yang's classmates and teachers had no sense of burden, so they came as soon as they opened their mouths.

At this moment, Gu Yang led an army of 3,000 people on the great task of recovering Shilan.

He still didn't have a trace of the glory of fighting for his country in his heart.

He did this only because he had the rank of major, some privileges, and he deserved to reciprocate.

Adjutant Lin Huo smiled lightly: "Major Gu Yang, you are a small country and a widow, even anarchist. ”

Gu Yang listened to him silently.

"It's too idealistic. At the beginning of man, nature is evil. Without authority in the world, the world would be in turmoil. Adjutant Lin Huo said, "The powerful can bully the weak at will, everyone is in danger, and the whole civilization cannot develop." ”

Gu Yang hesitated: "Development-as long as you are happy, isn't it?"

"Major Gu Yang, how can you be happy without development?" Adjutant Lin Huo said helplessly, "For example, in the past, when I was sick, the doctor asked the patient to worship the Buddha and burn incense to ask for mercy. Now when I am sick, the doctor can prescribe medicine. ”

Gu Yang's heart was slightly touched, and he blurted out: "What if this person won't get sick?"

"If you don't get sick, you will have other troubles, such as eating problems, depending on the sky. Adjutant Lin Huo replied without hesitation, "If there is no hybrid rice, many people will not have enough to eat." ”

"What if this person wouldn't be bothered by anything ordinary people?" Gu Yang asked.

Adjutant Lin Huo was stunned.

A person who is not bothered by anything, if such a person really exists, he can live well alone and does not need anything at all.

Adjutant Lin Huo took a deep breath and asked, "Major Gu Yang, don't you think you're this person?"

Gu Yang shook his head: "No, I'm just asking." ”

"Since no transcendent like you is not, then the vast majority of people are not. Adjutant Lin Huo said, "We all need a collective. ”

"I don't know if the concept of the country and the nation you mentioned was made up. Adjutant Lin Huo paused, "But I believe it, and it's not just me, many, many people believe it." ”

Gu Yang asked, "Who are you fighting for?"

"Fight for the country. Adjutant Lin Huo replied without thinking.

Gu Yang asked again, "What is the benefit of fighting for the country?"

"Let my family, friends have a good life. Adjutant Lin Huo replied quickly.

Gu Yang asked hesitantly, "But do you still have family and friends now?"

Adjutant Lin Huo's pupils shrank slightly, and he fell silent.

His social relationships all collapsed the moment the spiritual disaster broke out.

Parents, siblings, classmates, friends, all gone.

A hint of confusion flashed in his eyes.

After a while, Adjutant Lin Huo said slowly: "Major Gu Yang, some things are very complicated, I am clumsy and stupid, and I can't explain clearly. ”

"For me, the country is my home. ”

"Everyone can be said to be my loved ones. ”

"I fight for my country, I fight for my 'loved ones', and even if there is no return, I am willing. ”

"For thousands of years, something has been fused into our bones and blood. ”

Gu Yang could understand what Lin Huo was saying, but he couldn't.

He's a visitor from another world, he's just been born and raised here.

His soul did not connect and pulsate with the countless people and events that had happened on this land.

Even his bloodline faintly gave him the illusion that he was out of place with his surroundings.

Adjutant Lin Huo said in a deep voice: "Major Gu Yang, it's best not to tell others your words, they may not be able to bear it. ”

Gu Yang nodded.

He pondered quietly.

He had been aware of this question before, but he had never been so eager to find an answer.

It wasn't until today, when the lives of life were passing away before his eyes, that he had a strong throbbing.

How are other people different from themselves?

Why doesn't he feel something that other people hold dear?

Gu Yang still didn't understand, but he had respect for Lin Huo and Cheng Xin because they were willing to sacrifice themselves for the sake of strangers.

Gu Yang thought to himself that he might never be like them.

But he is willing to help them and realize their wishes as much as he can.