It's been a month since the start of school, and a lot of things have happened, but I really don't want to talk about it now, because there are too many, and then I wrote a diary, and now it's all over, and I don't feel anything, I can't write how I felt at that time

Anyway, it's just not the same as I imagined, and it's a little wrong...... I don't like it a little, but in terms of classmates, I may have my own reasons in it

I'm in a situation where I'm alone, and everyone else is in pairs, and then I'm walking alone, but! I love it!

In the beginning, I had to be alone because I didn't have any friends in the same class as me, only three of them were in the same school, and then even if it was a new start, I thought that I must be super cheerful before I started school! Don't let others give me the word Wenjing, I didn't expect it, I didn't expect it, but in the end, it was still quiet, and this time I couldn't refute it, because I felt that I was really quiet

I don't want to, I was worried about being cold or something, but I didn't expect it! One by one is crazier than me!! I'm the kind of person who listens quietly when there are too many, and when I don't know anyone, I listen quietly, and then ...... And then I don't know why, I'm on my own anyway

They didn't isolate me, they were very good (some things are still bad) and very welcoming, I just couldn't fit in, or I didn't really want to get in......

They...... We're a little different in our thinking, aren't we...... I think it can be said that there are three views, emm...... For example, once two of them went out of school to buy milk tea or something after evening self-study, and then the level leader checked the number of people, and found that the number was wrong, so they looked for the head teacher, and then the head teacher didn't know where to look for it, so he called their parents

I think this is normal, I have to find your parents in advance, and then I must look for it, otherwise who will be responsible for what happens?

Then when they came back from self-study in the evening, they gathered in that strange place, blaming the teacher for looking for parents for everything, why did they look for them, they were not stupid and would not die outside...... Whatever, and then blame the squad leader, why don't you help them hide it, in short, it's someone else who is wrong, and I feel that I am at fault, but the biggest fault is someone else

(ㅍ_ㅍ) (ㅍ_ㅍ) emm……

There is one more thing, there is a five minutes before class in our Chinese class, which is to give you a talent show, storytelling, and then a girl is holding a guitar on stage, but she may be a beginner or nervous, so it is intermittent, I think it's very good, it's good to have this courage, it's great, and it's not easy to carry a guitar from afar, right, our classroom is still on the sixth floor [laughing and crying]

Then I went back to the dormitory ......, "I thought she was holding a guitar up, but when I heard it, I laughed ......" "I think it's so funny, how can such a technique be used to perform......"

what？！ ((유∀유|||))

This kind of thing, happening every day, always makes me feel suffocated, I just listen quietly, I don't want to say anything, really speechless

Then, every day is noisy, there is no moment of quiet, fortunately I will not be affected too much, although it is noisy, but I can still sleep as long as I want to, but what when I don't want to sleep......

I remember it was Thursday night, and I didn't feel sleepy, but I lay down at eleven o'clock and got ready for bed, and I didn't fall asleep until two o'clock! Snake eyes!! That's because they quarreled until two o'clock!! The reason why the quarrel stopped at two o'clock was because there was a classmate who kept flipping like me! I haven't been asleep! It took a few words to stop!

Tell them not to make noise, they don't listen, sometimes listen for a second, sometimes just ignore it, it's really tiring

Then, there was a classmate who felt that she was shi, and she felt that everyone was, and she said something like this, "I think those people in the class who study every day are so good!" I'm going, I love to study so much and still come to this class? It's not too tiring to dress every day."

I really don't want to comment on this anymore, it's disgusting to me

So after this list, it seems that I don't need to make this kind of friend anymore, just I have a deep sense of suffocation just when I am usually together, and low-quality social interaction is not as good as high-quality solitude, this sentence still makes sense

I'm happy to live alone.,Go wherever you want.,Do whatever you want.,And then the life is in order.,Although sometimes something breaks down.,But you can still knock him out.

I'm used to being alone now, I have someone who wants to follow me, I'm not happy anymore [laughing and crying] I don't like to wait for people, I'm very annoyed that someone will stop me when I want to leave and let me wait, you refuse, she has to insist on staying, and she can't insist on refusing in front of the big guy, so you can't make the interpersonal relationship so stiff

I usually walk fast, unconsciously fast, and then put, there is someone to follow you have to take your time, usually walk on campus, radio put on a good lyrical song, I like to listen to walk slowly, just the feeling of listening to the song and strolling around the campus I super like, and the main color of our school is red and white, and then the arrangement is very comfortable, the overall layout is very good

At this time, I like to walk slowly, and then think about other things in my head, and enjoy this feeling there, but only when I am alone, if there is another person around, the whole feeling changes again [manual blackface]

So I still enjoy being alone, and there's nothing inconvenient about being alone, anyway, I don't like to trouble others if there's anything, and I can do it myself, the same ...... If someone bothers me with something they can do, I'll despise him (¬_¬)

I'm not an independent person, and they're not all shortcomings, they still have good points, and then our relationship is not so stiff, it's the usual classmate relationship, and then the classmates in the class get along okay

It is...... I kind of want to be a little transparent, but I can't...... At the beginning of the school year, the teacher wanted to choose the class cadres or something, and I was originally indisputable, so I read the Chinese texts there, and then ...... The head teacher just stared at me

"That female classmate, the one who reads the book, yes, it's you, you come to be the representative of the math class, it's very reliable at first glance"

[Manual vomiting blood] Although there is a little joy in my heart, but! It's a sad thing! I'm math, that's all, medium

And then I usually don't have anything to do so I can only stay in the classroom to study, saying that I am studying but usually absent-minded, except for staying in the classroom I really don't know where to go, and I don't want to go, the classroom is on the sixth floor, the fifth floor of the dormitory, if I don't have to do it, I really don't want to climb......

Then I became the first to leave the latest, and I can only take the book there to read it, otherwise I can't do anything, I don't have any interest in the student union or anything, and then the club... It's all about the basics, I don't know a fart, if there's something else to do, I don't look at it every day

And then the big guys just stared at my grades!! Staring at it every day!! I#&@! I also shout every day that I am a student bully, what a bully!

I really can't say it! Then I took the exam, the grades were miserable, and then I was discussed, and I kept persuading myself not to care! Don't care! It's impossible not to care at all, I don't dare to stay in the classroom now, I run to the balcony to see the scenery as soon as school is over, and then when they are all gone, I really don't know where to go

And now the ideological struggle is almost done, and I don't care about others! It really doesn't matter! Just be yourself. Let them go Bibi! Speaking of them, it's okay to get tired

That's right! I almost forgot what I wrote this for!

This school, I don't think it's bad, it's good, but a handful of people reject it and always dislike the school, so I remembered a sentence from our junior high school chemistry teacher

"You dislike others as garbage schools, and schools dislike you as garbage students!"

I think that's so true! It's okay to complain about the school, but there has to be a degree, it's almost enough, and I hate staying in this school every day, why don't you leave?

"You think I don't want to go."

Then you should go, can't go? That's a blind comparison

If you see that others are unhappy and can't get rid of others, you can only choose to accept it, and if you come, you will be safe~~

La-la-la, that's all! The holidays are really rare!! Monthly vacation! Although I don't want to, I still agree, because it's really impossible for me to study seriously at home, and it's good to be able to restrain me, I guess it's going to be less and less in the future, maybe it's possible to appear once in a few months, and you can't show up once, because there's really no time, but what! I! All the time

Let's play~*٩(๑ ́∀'๑)ง*

2018.10.4