When you do something for the first time, the excitement and the joy of success are enough to make a person full of hope for the future.

He had never known this feeling before, the kind of situation of being suppressed everywhere, being snubbed everywhere, and attracting people's eyes everywhere, as if it would never happen again from now on.

Qin Junhao felt that today was his lucky day.

It was a day to celebrate, so he opened his backpack and pulled out a canned beer.

He's going to toast to the future, and his future will definitely be different from what it used to be!

At the age of seventeen, although he had a father and a mother, they never pretended to him.

He endured all the rejection, even verbal abuse and domestic violence.

Even the warmth sometimes made him tremble, for fear that the next second would be his hell.

Her mother had been crazy for as long as he could remember, and he didn't know if the madness would be inherited, and he was always worried about it.

They lived in a sanatorium, which was huge, like a deserted castle, with just him and his mother in it.

No! It's not the two of them, either! Sometimes, a very gentle female doctor often came to visit them, and even sometimes brought him good food or took him out to play.

When he was older, he went to kindergarten, then elementary school, junior high school, and high school.

He thought that if he left home, he could stay away from his mother, and he couldn't stand his mother's sometimes gentleness, sometimes irritable, and sometimes hysterical.

That scared him, that was his nightmare!

In his memory, the touch of the knife on his delicate wrist was still fresh in his memory, making his wound that had already healed faintly painful.

I also looked for my father, but he, the father he had never met and only met in photos, had become someone else's father.

Perhaps, he shouldn't have gone looking for it, and if he didn't look for it, he wouldn't know the truth.

Originally...... He's just an illegitimate child......

It's a presence that can't see the light!

The Qin Group doesn't need him, it's dispensable.

He was twelve years old.

After that, he was not only afraid of his mother, but also hated and resentful.

Mom's situation is still the same, she freezes the time, she doesn't know that her son has grown up, she doesn't know how to cook, and she doesn't know what year or month.

She spends most of her day in a daze and sleeping.

Whenever this time, Qin Junhao feels that it is the most stable time.

But there were occasional occasions when he was asleep in his room and didn't wake up until the tingling sensation came.

The same place was torn apart.

He forgot to close the door, he should have closed it, but he wanted to enjoy what it was like to be in his own house without closing the door.

But he was disappointed.

The wound didn't hurt the first time, and he resisted the moment the stinging pain hit, and he was no longer the weak he was at the beginning.

He didn't want to die.

And his mom doesn't get it yet! It irritates him!

In high school.

He chose to live on campus.

Stay away from that horrible sad "castle".

"Mommy won't be fine......"

"It's good to have Aunt Gao to take care of her......"

"She doesn't need me, I've grown up......"

"She's not fit to be a mother, she's never really seen me ......"

"She's a madman, a madman who thinks about killing her son all the time......"

On the day we moved out, the sky was overcast and a light rain was falling.

Aunt Gao wanted to keep him, saying that his mother couldn't do without him.

"I don't believe it...... Aunt Gao, she never needed me, she almost couldn't see anyone......"

As the rain subsided, he got into the taxi and closed the window.

In the rearview mirror, the "castle" gradually zoomed out, and the rain and fog hit the car window, hazy his eyes.

The car became oppressively breathless.

A good night's sleep.

Qin Junhao's dreams are full of memories of the past.

In his memories, all he could see was a hopeful contact with a new life, and then he fell into darkness again and again.

Aunt Gao once said, "After darkness is the dawn."

For this reason, he has never stopped pursuing that glimmer of light.

He dressed himself in thick armor, optimistic, positive.

The hint seems to have really worked a little bit.

The classmates have become cute, and they used to be alienated and indifferent to him, as if it was because he was also alienated and indifferent to them.

You smile at them, they smile at you, you greet them, and they greet you.

"Good camouflage." Qin Junhao thinks.

He no longer cared about the whispers between his classmates behind his back, nor did he care about their verbal temptations when facing him.

He only sees what he wants to see.

It doesn't matter if they're looking at his mother or his father.

He sees them as a way to make friends.

Knowing someone seems to start with curiosity, hehe.

Of course, if he ignores the pity or disgust or disdain in their eyes, he will really be friends with them sincerely.

Whether it was elementary school, junior high school, or high school, he always saw so many familiar companions.

Get acquainted with his family and talk about his origins.

Maybe they didn't mean to expose his family situation, but they really hated it.

He knew that his appearance was changing little by little, elongating, metamorphosing.

This metamorphosis has always brought him the curious attention of strangers at various times.

Then......

It's annoying!

He pretended not to care, and everything was well hidden.

In high school, he had a few good buddies.

It seems that over time, people will know how to think and understand, right?

This is a mature mode of getting along, and this mode of getting along is not annoying to him.

Although it was inevitable that some people would not like him, he understood that they were jealous of him.

As the buddies said: "With your appearance, temperament and family, that proper noble son!" Fascinated by thousands of girls. Can't flirt with girls? Just kidding! Just your model's body and face, just standing upside down! Not only women fall, but men also have to fall! Hahaha! ”

That's what his iron buddy Silly Fork said.

I opened my eyes with a smile and picked up my phone sideways, and the screen on my phone showed that it was still charging.

The charge is weak and not fully charged.

Unplug and turn it on.

As soon as I turned on my phone, the alarm went off.

Five o'clock in the morning.

The alarm is loud.

Ding Zero Zero - Ding Zero Zero -

Bump –

Looking up, two stout men broke into the door.

"Ahh Well, I'm sorry, I'm not a monster! It's true! I'm a foreigner, hahaha, it's a specialty of my place! Hahaha, don't panic don't panic! ”

I thought they were here to catch demons, but when he saw the girl who came in after they pushed open the door and gave up his position, he put away his phone stupidly.

He didn't know what this girl's name was, but he had seen it yesterday by Mrs. Wei's side.

After Bai Shao saw that there was no special situation in the house, with her hand-waving and ordering, the two family members closed the door and went out.