I have been here for almost a year, and the most common mistake I have made is the rules and etiquette, but fortunately, the people around me are loyal, and I often remind them, and Mama Gongli often asks Aunt Ye to look at me, and brings those books recorded by the servants for me to read and study.

The weather in May has already warmed up, take off those heavy cotton clothes, one by one, one by one is sealed in the dust, they are afraid that they will never come out again in this life, just like me, in this palace wall, alone in this inch of place to live their own spring, summer, autumn and winter, birth, old age, sickness and death.

The Shangyi Bureau sent the early summer clothes early, and at my request, they were all short and light-colored dresses, and today I was in high spirits, so I changed into the cinnabar red clothes that I had changed by myself.

Shouting that Sang Ma accompanied me out for a walk, she put down the work in her hand, and followed me to the imperial garden with Xiaobai, and when she saw the lonely tree trunk, she suddenly remembered the snow and plum blossoms on the night of Chinese New Year's Eve, remembered the palace lamp to find me Ziqing, remembered Ziqing who was afraid that I would alienate my red eyes, and remembered Ziqing who wanted to exchange the position of prince for the Ziqing I cared about, this child always made me feel so distressed.

I saw some people sitting in the pavilion from a distance, I didn't plan to join in the fun, I wanted to take a detour, but I didn't want a palace maid to come over and tell me that their master was invited, so I naturally couldn't shirk it, so I walked along the sheep intestine path.

"The concubine asks Concubine An for her mother." The two women knelt in front of me with low eyebrows and pleasing eyes, which made me stunned.

Thinking about it carefully, it turned out to be Concubine Jing and Han Meiren, who didn't have much friendship with them on weekdays, so why did the two of them think about asking me for peace.

"I'm exempt, I don't know what the two of you are going to do when you see this palace?" Waving their hands to get them up, Sang Ma took a cushion and cushioned the stone bench, and I sat down too.

"The two of us just want to learn how to make dim sum with Concubine An." One of the purple-clothed women wrung the handkerchief in her hand and said softly, the woman had a bright face, red lips and white teeth, and at first glance she was a pampered lady.

"Yes, yes, I hope Niangniang can teach me." The woman in green next to her also echoed.

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The two of you say to me are flattering me in a different way, which makes people feel funny. Remembering that a few days ago, after the first birthday here, the emperor sent the head of the inner palace, Zhao Gonggong, to set up a stage in the Yilan Palace, and invited those concubines in the harem to have fun together.

Now these two people are smart and want to learn from me, but I don't want Huang Fuchen to stay in my Yilan Hall all day long, if they learn, maybe they can keep the emperor and be grateful to me, such a way to get the best of both worlds is also good.

"Change the Japanese palace to send someone to you, the steps of that dim sum are complicated, and the palace will not remember it all for a while." I looked at them and smiled, replied casually, raised the freshly poured tea with my right hand, and took a few sips, which still tasted inferior to the jasmine I brewed myself.

"That's good, of course."

"What Niangniang said is that we were abrupt."

When they saw that I agreed, they relaxed and were more casual, and asked me if I liked the gifts given on that birthday, there were too many people who gave things that day, and I couldn't remember them, but I still laughed and said that I liked them tightly.

However, there are a few things that I will never forget, and I will never forget, they mean a lot to me.

Qi Hao gave a golden hairpin, which is in the shape of magnolia, and it does not lose the elegance of magnolia when it looks rich. Ziqing gave me a purse, a bit like the one I gave to Qi Hao, but it was embroidered with orchids, I don't know which palace maid he wanted to help make this purse, it was very exquisite, and there were some sugar lotus seeds wrapped in dried lotus leaves, and even Chu Mo gave me a gift, but it was the things that Chu Lige sent that aroused my interest, the astrological chart.

I remember all the kindness they have to me, and I think about modern times, if I am angry, I will only live it alone, and I think it is good now, and someone cares.

In this way, there was no pair of chats until sunset, and the two of them were the people I had been here to talk to me for the longest time except for Ziqing.

The two of them are just two young women, but they are locked in this red wall and live lonely, but they are still young in their temperament, I occasionally say a few jokes that Chu Lige said, which makes the two of them laugh and don't listen, Yingying Yanyan makes me have the illusion of falling into the pile of beauties.

In the end, Sang Ma urged me, saying that it was time to eat, otherwise it would be uncomfortable to eat too late and accumulate food, so I invited them, and the two of them were restrained after all, and they still declined my kindness.

Returning to the Yilan Hall alone, I ordered someone to pass the meal, I don't know what to think, let Sang Ma and Bai Zhi share the table with me, they naturally didn't dare, they were so frightened that they knelt on the ground, my heart was very lonely all of a sudden, empty, I just wanted to find someone to eat with me, this little wish, here, it's too difficult.

In just one year, I have experienced so much, felt so much, and borne too much, and learned a lot of things that I once disdained.

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In the seventh year of the first century, early summer.

Five years have passed like a white horse, which makes many people feel unprepared, or maybe they are in a trance. But for me, these five years are as long as thousands of years.

Five years ago, I woke up attached to this body, unfamiliar with life, and had nothing but to be arranged by fate, and was sent by the so-called family to marry an emperor who was twenty years older than me, Xingqing met them and helped them everywhere.

Five years later, I'm still here, and I still can't go back to my time, and this kind of tempered life has finally changed me, and I am more obedient to what happens. It really makes me feel terrible to be like this now.

Am I used to living like this? Is the purpose of my coming here to stay alone in this deep palace for the rest of my life? If that's the case, I'd better kill myself, maybe that's really the only way to go back to modern times.