Chapter 110: The Moon

I didn't go to see him off on the day he left. I heard that Huangfu Chen personally stood in the city tower to watch. Manchu ministers crowded the gates of the imperial city. Full flood. Although I didn't go to see it. But I can think of a scenario like that. People like me. No occasion is suitable for me now.

Mo Xi became more and more silent. Sometimes leaning against the beautiful woman in the cloister outside the temple. One sitting is an afternoon. Just stared at the palace gate. Zhao Di came to me and asked. I was sent away in a few words. Think about it. Can't let Moxi go on like this. Qi Hao has already married a wife. Why did she bother?

"Moxi. You help me to deliver a message to His Highness the Prince. Just say I have something to ask for." I'm standing under the cloister. Looking at Mo Xi in a green suit.

"Ahh Mo Xi heard a voice. Look back at me. His eyes are full of sorrow. It's distressing to look at." Master. Something happened."

"I thought about it. You'd better get out of the palace. You don't have to stay here with me for the rest of your life." I saw her trying to speak. I interrupted what she hadn't yet blurted out." I know you don't want me. But you know it. I'm sick all over my body. I don't know how long I can last it. If one day I go. I don't want you to give me a funeral. Even if you don't need to be buried. But I'm afraid I won't be able to leave the palace in my life. Bai Zhi's girl. If it weren't for me. It's also a blessing. Even if she can't enter the ancestral hall now. But there was still a man willing to guard her. What about you. What do you have. You have nothing but me."

"Master. It is enough for me to have a master. In this life, I have made up my mind." My words. I was stunned and made Mo Xi cry.

My heart has also stirred up a thousand waves. Even with a hint of crying." I know you're faithful. But I don't need to. I treat you as a sister from the bottom of my heart. I hope you can be happy. You think it's for me to get what I want, okay? Either you can take it as if this is my last wish."

Mo Xi didn't speak. Tears flowed. Biting his lip to death. Shake your head vigorously. She fell to her knees. Dust stained her new dress. Tugging at the hem of my skirt. Low sobs." Master. Are you trying to drive me away? Master. Don't you want me?"

That aggrieved look. It's like an abandoned child. I can't bear it.

I squatted down and helped Moxi to stand up. Pull out the handkerchief in your sleeve. Gently wipe that pretty face full of tears. comforted." Mo Xi. I didn't want you. It's because I can't bear you. That's why I want you to be happy. Look at my life. Who has lived for himself? But more than a year. So many lives have been lost because of me. Mo Xi. It's not that I don't desire freedom. It's that I don't have that right anymore."

"Master......"

"I know you have a prince in your heart. But you know you can't be together. Even if I ask for this marriage for you. But the two side concubines of the South Palace. How do you cope with it. The person in your heart is not necessarily the one who will stay with you for the rest of your life. You should learn to keep him silently in your heart. this world. Eventually, someone will show up who is willing to pay for you." I rubbed Mo Xi's somewhat rough bun. This girl. On weekdays, my hair is meticulously combed. I don't think about tea and dinner these days. Don't take anything to heart.

"Will the master also put His Royal Highness the Crown Prince in the deepest part of his heart?" Mo Xi didn't answer me. But he asked rhetorically.

This is a question. It stumped me. Can I put Ziqing down. Can I. He seems to have not come to see me in days. From the return to the palace to the present. I've only seen him twice. And all while I was unwell. Neither of them had a good heart-to-heart conversation. Now I'm looking forward to something.

A wry smile. I don't even know how to answer.

"Isn't Mo Xi put down. My sister can also put it down. If so. Then I'll beg the prince to go later." Mo Xi's expression was very serious. It's not like a joke.

This girl. I see it more thoroughly than I do. As the saying goes. Lookers-on see most of the game. This time. In this game between me and Ziqing. Mo Xi saw it clearly. She said so. I'm a little overwhelmed. Before I could speak. Mo Xi said again. The master can live for himself. His Royal Highness the Crown Prince is like the moon on the horizon. Look at the eye. But you can only watch. But the master is not the star next to the moon. Can't revolve around the moon. The master is the sun in the blue sky and the day. Unique."

"Yes. You're right. I'm not a star. I can't go around the moon." A moon like Ziqing. Don't talk about going around. I'm afraid it's a little closer. It's going to be doomed. I nodded. Gesture of approval of Mo Xi's words.

Huang Fuchen's condition was worse than I expected. I don't know. Why was it a month ago that people were still angry. In an instant, he fell down. When Zhao Fu came to the Yilan Hall to send me to the Temple of Virtue for an audience. I just finished taking my medicine. Lying on a chaise longue in the courtyard. It's hard to bask in the autumn sun without scorching heat. Warm. Comfortable want to make people doze off.

". The slave thinks that Niang Niang is just a blessed person." Zhao Fu held my hand. Walk up the four-car Luan outside the palace. A flattering face. The tone is full of sleekness.

I smiled. Pat his arm with his hand. Laughing. My father-in-law is also a blessed man. It's a shame for your mouth."

Zhao Fu laughed twice. Didn't speak again. I stepped on the footstool and got into the car. I didn't bring a maid.

Zhao Fu was afraid that he would already know my true identity. Maybe he knew it when Huang Fuchen went to the Qianqiu Hall that day. Or maybe he had already guessed it when I entered the palace. But I don't care about any of that. What I'm concerned about now is that Huangfu Chen's health is not good. Why did you summon me?

But Zhao Fu still told me. The emperor's situation is not very good. I went back from the Thousand Autumn Hall that day. There is a tendency to get sick. But fortunately, the Taiyi doctor has superb medical skills. The emperor's complexion looks much better than ever. But listen to the doctor. It's all a matter of hard work. and he was angry again. This time I fell ill. Recuperate and rest. It's not a big problem.

Breakdown from constant overwork. I am trustworthy. In my impression. From ancient times to the present day. Most of the emperors have worked hard and burned down. He died early at a young age. Except, of course, the faint king. So I've always felt it. The throne is like a talisman. But why are so many people still robbing it?

I took the car to His Highness Shotoku. I looked at the long and tall staircase of more than 100 steps. I was scared. Carrying the steps and refusing to fall. Zhao Fu whispered behind me. Empress. Don't let the saints be in a hurry."

I nodded. That's when we landed. Gently. Slowly falling to the ground. Don't bring up a speck of dust.